Job interview yesterday went quite well. I may actually get a gig programming for a living soon finally. Second interview is Monday.

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Originally posted by Vector A Job interview yesterday went quite well. I may actually get a gig programming for a living soon finally. Second interview is Monday.

Nice one, good luck!

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Good luck Vector!

Congrats and good luck!

Not to steal his thunder, but I just finished my entrance exam. I'll know within 8-12 weeks what my score is, but I'm feeling pretty confident right now! Let's all hope for the best.

Good luck both of you!

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Cool, good luck to you too! Does anyone ever really worry about failure though? Most people here aren't stupid at all, I mean I feel like "Well duh, obviously you would be successful." Part of it is that I just think it's ludicrous to believe that a person WON'T succeed if they're putting in the effort.

But still, good luck! Lol.

I've always had an irrational fear of failure which has prevented me from starting a lot of things, though once I start I usually do fine.

I don't know, probably general anxiety issues, which feed depression issues, which then feedback into the anxiety.

Well, that was weird. I haven't danced when I was alone at home in at least like half a decade. I guess sometimes when the right music is playing you just have to get up and dance.

I'll start doing this randomly sometimes, then remember that I have a ground floor corner apartment with windows on both sides facing a really active pedestrian area.

Oddly enough I have no problem dancing like a complete mong when I am out at a club in front of hundreds of people, haha.

Speaking of... It is Thursday and there is a good night down the street, I wonder who is playing.

I was talking to someone on the phone today and they asked me what I was doing and I immediately said "nothing much" despite the fact that I was doing something and I'd been wanting to talk to this person and catch up on things.

I thought about it more (because I always over think things) and realized I do this with everyone all the time. Anyone that asks me what I am up to I always give a dismissive "nothing" answer to even if I am doing something, or have been doing something, or something interesting has happened.

Even with my parents they'll ask how I've been or what I've been up to and I just say "nothing" or "not a lot". I don't know if it's laziness or just assuming they don't give a fuck and its a pleasantry that they are just asking for the sake of conversation or what but I've noticed it shuts down conversations pretty quickly.

I've only started doing it the last few years too. I used to talk ad nauseum about things to people if they asked but now I just sorta blow it off like who the fuck would care what I am doing.