|Originally posted by Chimney |
Thanks, it means a lot. That's the problem, at the moment I'm stuck in another country for at least another month. It's funny that being a pro-science person and rather against most forms of religion, I found myself calling a highly religious friend of mine and ask if he'd pray for her.
Last saw her a couple of months ago, she had lost over 44 pounds (20 kg) and had ascites (abdominal swelling), and although I had the medical knowledge to know what it was, I lied myself like a blithering fool.
She was operated on yesterday and found she has peritoneal carcinomatosis, which basically means game-over. They haven't found the point of origin which can be either the ovary or the stomach. Ovary means she has a slight chance, whereas stomach means she's done for and pretty quickly at that.
I guess 20 years of 1.5-2 packs of cigarettes/day and countless bottles of Jackie finally caught up to her.
I'm not super religious i would just consider myself confused. I think I would have been an atheist if I didn't have a couple of religious experiences that rocked the core of my belief system. That being said I don't per say believe in my religion but I do believe in a higher power or something greater in this universe and I use Catholicism (the religion i was raised on) as my way of speaking to it. I do not attend mass but sometimes I will go to a church to pray or unravel somethings in my head. churches tend be very unusually eerily quiet and it really allows me to listen to myself and figure out how i actually feel about certain things (I have issues figuring out how i actually feel about things sometimes, I constantly mask things with jokes :/). anyways man I can't promise the big guy will listen to me but i will definitely keep you in my thoughts and prayers tonight as I try to fall asleep. all the best and do whatever you have to do to be with her.