Social cripple confined to his parent's apartment minus Grace Kelly

Ugh the awesome feeling of swallowing air when you have a soar throat. FFS two colds in 4 weeks. I hate small children (sorry IGK, I just don't know how you manage).

What the fuck is it about finishing papers?? Like all I have to do is type this fuckin thing yet somehow I still feel anxiety about it and keep stalling. WHYYYYY????

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Originally posted by Silky Johnson What the fuck is it about finishing papers?? Like all I have to do is type this fuckin thing yet somehow I still feel anxiety about it and keep stalling. WHYYYYY????

Yea, I've fucking sucked at that the last year or so. I think "OH I'll totally do this paper like a week or two before its due and not have to worry about!" then find myself on the day before or day of the deadline writing it. The whole time it is just like a mental wall preventing me from having started on it earlier and only the fact that it HAS to be done now or never gets me to actually commit to doing it.

I stopped lying to myself that I would ever start or hand in anything ahead of deadline, ever. I even got an extension which was a major stress reliever, and I fully could have had this thing done earlier today, but I just couldn't do it, lol.

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Originally posted by Silky Johnson I stopped lying to myself that I would ever start or hand in anything ahead of deadline, ever. I even got an extension which was a major stress reliever, and I fully could have had this thing done earlier today, but I just couldn't do it, lol.

Let me, for a moment, not help you along with your problem. A problem I shared with you, while studying myself.

"Jenny, you work in a high stress environment, and have to deliver high quality work while under that high stress. Therefore, it's perfectly natural for you to leave that shit until the last minute, and then get that stress motivation happening. You're used to performing under pressure."

This is based on absolutely nothing, and I don't work in a high stress environment. But I always found a cool way to justify this same shit to myself in Uni, lol. Only once, did I ever have a paper done three days before it was due, and that's only because I knew I had a big weekend coming up, and would need a day or two to come down. Everything else was done last minute, lol.

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Lol! Well the funny thing is - I was working on the paper at work on Thursday during my breaks, and I had asked one of the respiratory therapists for help. He gave me exactly the info I needed and I was like "Well good thing I didn't actually finish this before today!", and went on to say that the paper was dude that night, and I don't bother trying to get things done early anymore.

And yeah his response was pretty much exactly what you just said, lol.


edit: and yeah, the only time I ever got shit done ahead of time was when I wanted to go to WMC for the weekend and it was the end of the semester/had a ton of shit due around the same time. I got the entire semester's work done for two classes, a week in advance of WMC, just so I could relax AFTER I got back. Lol.

Fuck Eric Cloutier playing out a banging set tonight in Seattle and I am just standing there kinda in a daze. Fuck you cold.

I was like "hiiiiii ... byeeeee". Worth the 10$ and a drink though for the hour I stayed for. Back to back weekends of people from The Bunker so that was awesome.

Finally took Comcast off auto pay after they decided to charge me 5 days earlier than usual.

Fuckwads.

Came back from a tiring 5.1 mile hike yesterday. Thought it be a good idea to bring a flask of vodka with me along with some cola for chaser. 3 miles in, I could only take one swig. If I had drank anymore, it would have left me too dehydrated to finish the trail. Sweated like crazy once I finally made it to the top of the hill, then felt the pain coming back down. Was still a boss trip though. Smoked a fat bowl once I was back in the parking lot, some Sri Lankan family looking at me like wtf? lol