|Originally posted by enydo |
Anyways, anyone else have any similar experiences? I know Hal mentioned stopping due to some possible anxiety related things, and I just wanted to see if I'm alone on this or not.
Yeah, I smoked daily for like 2 years, had a blast I think, though I can scarcely remember why. I came to underestimate pot as a psychoactive substance- it does shift around your brain chemistry - of course nowhere near on the scale or potency as true psychedelics - but then again one doesn't get home and do acid every day or experience cumulative effects in the same way. Well, least nobody who is inclined to leave their house in the first place.
It's important to keep in mind that cannabis is a psychoactive depressant. I feel exponentially more in control of my feelings and life since stopping entirely. It's a fun drug, but does not enhance your life in the least - despite what it would love you to think; That's the dopamine doing its job. I've never had anxiety issues before in my life, least not surface ones I was forced to deal with, so it wasn't until I had a weed tolerance through the roof that I had to look the beast in its eyes. The last time I smoked it felt like I was going to die - I know how retarded that sounds, and I really don't want to get into what I saw, but it was a really fucked up experience that has put me off pot for quite some time, if not all time. Though I don't miss it at all - I miss the good times I had, sure, but I don't miss feeling like I wasn't in control of my mind. Granted, it was incredibly good shit that kept me red-eyed for almost 2 hours.
Take 6 months off. I'm sorry that you have a generalized anxiety disorder, but self-medicating with pot is most definitely not the answer. It can serve to distract you for a time, especially at first when you had a minimal tolerance, but is probably worse for your state of mind in the long run and I think that you are seeing the effects of this now.
There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio,
Than are dreamt of in your philosophy.