has anyone here ever been through extreme depression? if yes are you still suffering from it? how are you coping? if you got out, what did you do? what helped, what didn't?
EDIT: thank you all for responding. dont know if any of you remember but years ago i tried 2 times to kill myself and ended up in the hospital both times, (only the old school peeps might remember, vivid boy might). since then i've been on anti-depressants and things got better, i guess the circumstances which were causing my depression didnt change, i had just learned to deal with it better. however now i think it's back =/
i've recently moved and things have been...up and down. the past few days were the worst, i would literally spend every single moment thinking and feeling like i'm in the worst hell imaginable. think of what its like to feel utterly lonely, completely lost, no one to talk to, feeling like nothing has any meaning or purpose, nothing can make you happy, and feeling that constantly in your mind, 24/7...thats how the last few days have been. i feel trapped as if i'm in some sort of prison with a life sentence all by myself on an island and just can't get out. it's really weird and hard to explain. i find that the more i think the worse i feel. my thoughts inevitably wander towards questions about life and meaning and all that deep shit i have no answers to, which just makes me feel that much more helpless. and thats the worst part...the helplessness to change my situation, to really change the way i feel.
so today i decided that im just gonna shut off my mind...or at least spend as little time using it as possible. and i'm already feeling better my mind is my worst enemy i think, and the less i use it the better i feel. so for now thats the plan im sticking to. im just gonna feel what i feel and not try and dwell too much on shit that happened in the past, recent or distant. and i think i'll be ok.
thank you all
Last edited by AnotherWay83 on Mar-09-2010 at 03:11