I am, but I'm not disillusioned or seeking fame. I love music. I'm really open to feedback and have about 10 years of experience now, I've learned many, many things and you can't push or force anything. Several really greats friends in the industry, a few who took me under their wing, I was lucky in that regard. I don't keep up with each of them these days but there is still mutual respect.
I'm happy, making music is my favorite thing to do and I'm getting consistently better and that hasn't changed, and I'm not going to plateau anytime soon. Things are looking great. I got into this music at a time when it was shunned in the mainstream at a time when I absolutely adored it, and now the superficiality of our culture has, ironically, latched onto something it once mocked. I feel like I deserve something for that. Who knows. Maybe I'll see a shrink some day soon.
This year is actually looking very, very good. Although, my musical sensibilities have continued to burrow into the underground, so I'm not sure how feasible "making it" is, plus I'm not really sure how you define "making it". Some underground producers are so much better at writing dance music songs than these mainstreams goons, it's unfathomable. There is some amazing shit out there. I will say that when I started at 14 I would have never imagined I'd be where I am now, and probably wouldn't have believed you if you told me then. One interesting tidbit is I always thought being good and producing would make me happy, but life still happens, and life is still life.
Ultimately I want to make people happy with my music, and some of the best experiences I've had in my life have been in club land, you know those indescribable moments where the vibe is just so real and the party is amazing... I've been making music for personal satisfaction, I love hearing great music. If I'm making stuff that I enjoy, then I'm doing something right. And lately, I've been making stuff that I really like. Did it take a little longer than I would have liked? I guess so. But I'm fucking ready to rock. Thanks for the question, cheers.