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Does this make me a ****ing idiot?
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| stealthman |
Where do I start?
Love, is ed.
Once upon a time, pretty much like everyone else, I was 18 and in desperation for full-time, long lasting loving relationship. It was the first time I really fell in love with someone and wanted to spend my soul (even money)to this woman who lived in Indonesia, a better, healthier and happier person. It was a long-distance relationship however spiritually it was much shorter. It drove me nuts, the whole rocky ride ended up in me realizing that I've been milked for a load of money (90% of my weekly wage) in a period of year because she'd always blackmail me with excuses that she'd be dying from malaria, she needed money for this and that etc.
I thought I could support her just to "keep her alive" in order to see her, anyway later on after finally waking up, I found out who her boyfriend was the whole time, saw his pic, chatted to him, he even tried to be friends with me but threw a whole bucket of sarcasm at me just to piss me off, even told me that I'll get over it and life is tough. After this, I've learned to move on with life, look after myself, see how short life is and keep limits with people.
Anyway this happened in about late 2007. About late February in 2008, I found this girl from a website, added her on MSN, chatted, met up the next day. We went out again, fooled around etc. She seemed like a cold lover ever since the beginning however she had her excuses for her fair share of love for me. At this point I was already so over love cos of what happened with that long-distance relationship I mentioned above.
About 4 months later, we both moved out from our parents houses to live together as that's the life we wanted. Longer we've been living together the more I felt like I was married to her. All we would is stay in the house, watch movies and eat the same food everyday. HOWEVER, if I'd wanted to go out, anywhere, whether it was clubbing, friends place, or even the toilet, she wouldn't let go. Basically she hates everything that I like. Mind you this is her first relationship with me.
There's too much to write so I'm gonna put the final details straight.
Ever since we moved in this year I've never had a social life, never been clubbing, lost my network of friends, social status, experiences, aspirations, etc. right now I'm locked in the house like a caged bird while shes at work, wont even let me visit the local grocery store without her permission!. Shes ing possessive to the point where I'm losing my life and sanity over her, yet she cant lose me. It will be my 21st birthday on New Years Day but she doesn't want to do anything else but stay in and watch movies like we do every single night.
How the hell am I gonna end this .
Edit: She even got pissed off at me and nearly broke up just because I spent the shortest 4 hours time with my family on Christmas day. She thought that I cared only about myself and left her alone, I came back to her anyway, she ignored me the whole time, acted as if I was invisible. |
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| DJ Shibby |
| quote: | Originally posted by stealthman
Where do I start?
WALLOFTEXT
Am I a ing idiot? |
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| pwnage1 |
| Tell her how you feel, if she doesn't except it leave her. |
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| spc |
| jesus christ dude... yes :wtf: |
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| nefardec |
| quote: | Originally posted by stealthman
end this . |
there you go |
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| barbina |
Do you even have to ask?
Throw the bitch out.
You're obviously not happy with her.
You're 21. You don't need to be in a serious relationship.
Be single. Party your ass off. Make some new friends and just hump and dump. |
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| MrJiveBoJingles |
| Is this a serious thread? What do you mean when you say she won't "let" you go anywhere? She tries to cry and make you feel bad or something? |
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| TearsInTheRain |
| Dude. Close the door. Life is short.... |
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| stealthman |
The reason I posted this thread is because I'm sitting here thinking that I wont be 20 anymore, and 2008 has been a year while I come back home every Saturday night, on the way, seeing people going out and having fun. I once used to be a very serious kid back in high school, kids used to think I was a murderer. The beginning of 2008 was like an opportunity to make things better.
I just wanna know how bad I'll regret this if I continue it. |
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| MrJiveBoJingles |
| quote: | Originally posted by MrJiveBoJingles
What do you mean when you say she won't "let" you go anywhere? She tries to cry and make you feel bad or something? |
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| stealthman |
| quote: | Originally posted by MrJiveBoJingles
Is this a serious thread? What do you mean when you say she won't "let" you go anywhere? She tries to cry and make you feel bad or something? |
No but she comes up with excuses you can't even argue with.
She'll talk about financial issues, need to save up money, its not worth spending money to go out, I don't like clubbing, stop trying to be like society etc.
And then she says that i dont want to include her in anything. |
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| MrJiveBoJingles |
| quote: | Originally posted by stealthman
No but she comes up with excuses you can't even argue with.
She'll talk about financial issues, need to save up money, its not worth spending money to go out, I don't like clubbing, stop trying to be like society etc. |
Do you have a job, or do you live off of her / your parents? |
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