any of yall have bipolar disorder?

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Posted by Desiderata on Jan-10-2012 02:42:

Yeah anyhow, he just gets too angry too fast, most weird people on here start off trying to fit in and post random stuff usually due to a mental illness and then get made fun of and then they start with angry rants. His second post in his first thread in years was just wham bam angry power trip.

Posted by Desiderata on Jan-10-2012 02:47:

quote:
Originally posted by Sushipunk

I remember clearly when you said no more than one account per person rule, I told you I wanted Desiderata and you said you were going to delete the Evoke one and ModernNosferatu. Honestly I didn't sign into it on purpose and that's why I was like WTF?!?! I just posted a reply and bam it was on that account.

Posted by Zharen on Jan-10-2012 02:49:

quote:
Originally posted by Desiderata
I remember clearly when you said no more than one account per person rule, I told you I wanted Desiderata and you said you were going to delete the Evoke one and ModernNosferatu. Honestly I didn't sign into it on purpose and that's why I was like WTF?!?! I just posted a reply and bam it was on that account.

You keep your lunatic alt out of the Bay Area

Posted by Desiderata on Jan-10-2012 02:50:

quote:
Originally posted by Sushipunk

Oh and in 2003-2004 Good4TuneRecords and GoodForTuneRecords but all those post was in the sell area, that's how me and washley became good buds.

Posted by Sushipunk on Jan-10-2012 02:50:

Posted by Desiderata on Jan-10-2012 02:57:

I didn't want to use it

Posted by Sushipunk on Jan-10-2012 02:58:

quote:
Originally posted by Desiderata
I didn't want to use it

All good, done now.

Posted by Desiderata on Jan-10-2012 03:58:

To be honest all my crazy posts and threads where do to mental illness. It creates all kinds of confusion especially in non-verbal language. I've had almost every type of Schizophrenia at one point or another (even catatonic) but never went for consistent help because I felt Therapists were like crooked mechanics and they would fix one thing and break another to keep that insurance money flowing, then I finally felt I needed medications and serious help and then my diagnoses was changed to Schizoaffective Bi-Polar type (mixed episodes) or 295.70. It ran on my moms side of the family but my mom never had any symptoms and out of my brothers, I am the only one affected. It's an embarrassing thing to admit but to take some heat off this "Big The Wall" guy and to the subject of the thread, it was humiliating to show the symptoms around people or even in forums and chat rooms on the Internet. Humility is something I know well. I did hide it well in my 20's during my club life years because I was really good looking and one night stands never got to see too much of the real me and E helped cover it up really well but as I grew older and out of the club life it was hard, I just recently with in the last 6 to 8 months have it more under control than ever before and will win the battle but at this age and being so old now, it's frankly depressing and an insult to life itself. They say it was a combination of Nature and Nurture is how it affected me to so much. Grandma and Uncle where completely mentally ill. It's a hard story to tell but that's my story. From 17 to 35 suffering from mental illness is a complete zero on humanity. I have traveled, had understanding girlfriends, slept with beautiful woman, experienced insane situations on and off drugs but for me it was almost always like being a ghost of myself. I was there traveling and doing these really fun things everybody enjoys but I was outside myself like a sad ghost looking down at my physical self noticing how crazy I was. Just became completely self-absorbed over time. I look back and it was sex, drugs and Electronic music but I don't feel that I really enjoyed it like everyone else did or would have if they had the chance to choose to live that lifestyle. I'm going to start school soon and all I want to do is go in a field of helping people.

TMI !! I know this but I figured I should let it be known from myself since I been posting here a bit more lately and I'm sure from my old threads and posts everyone had already figured I was along these perimeters of.

Posted by tubularbills on Jan-10-2012 03:59:

quote:
Originally posted by Desiderata
To be honest all my crazy posts and threads where do to mental illness. It creates all kinds of confusion especially in non-verbal language. I've had almost every type of Schizophrenia at one point or another (even catatonic) but never went for consistent help because I felt Therapists were like crooked mechanics and they would fix one thing and break another to keep that insurance money flowing, then I finally felt I needed medications and serious help and then my diagnoses was changed to Schizoaffective Bi-Polar type (mixed episodes) or 295.70. It ran on my moms side of the family but my mom never had any symptoms and out of my brothers, I am the only one affected. It's an embarrassing thing to admit but to take some heat off this "Big The Wall" guy and to the subject of the thread, it was humiliating to show the symptoms around people or even in forums and chat rooms on the Internet. Humility is something I know well. I did hide it well in my 20's during my club life years because I was really good looking and one night stands never got to see too much of the real me and E helped cover it up really well but as I grew older and out of the club life it was hard, I just recently with in the last 6 to 8 months have it more under control than ever before and will win the battle but at this age and being so old now, it's frankly depressing and an insult to life itself. They say it was a combination of Nature and Nurture is how it affected me to so much. Grandma and Uncle where completely mentally ill. It's a hard story to tell but that's my story. From 17 to 35 suffering from mental illness is a complete zero on humanity. I have traveled, had understanding girlfriends, slept with beautiful woman, experienced insane situations on and off drugs but for me it was almost always like being a ghost of myself. I was there traveling and doing these really fun things everybody enjoys but I was outside myself like a sad ghost looking down at my physical self noticing how crazy I was. Just became completely self-absorbed over time. I look back and it was sex, drugs and Electronic music but I don't feel that I really enjoyed it like everyone else did or would have if they had the chance to choose to live that lifestyle. I'm going to start school soon and all I want to do is go in a field of helping people.

TMI !! I know this but I figured I should let it be known from myself since I been posting here a bit more lately and I'm sure from my old threads and posts everyone had already figured I was along these perimeters of.

INTERVENTION

Posted by zyklon-jay on Jan-10-2012 04:05:

quote:
Originally posted by zidumare
http://soundcloud.com/dj-zidumare/zidumare-demon-corp

2 months ago

I've taken shits with more direction.

Posted by Sushipunk on Jan-10-2012 04:26:

Posted by Silky Johnson on Jan-10-2012 16:02:

quote:
Originally posted by EvokeDesiderata
Because he's only made 24 Threads and a handful of Posts until recently.

Almost think it's an ALT or a hacked account.

Crap. I guess I should have read that Soundcloud/track thread first.

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