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I know most of the FLTA's don't know me, but anytime I was in town I'd meet up with DA...we hit up ATB at Revolution way back when...had a few drinks and a great time.

He'd visit Toronto every now and then, and was always a fun guy go be around. I have nothing but good memories.

I was thinking about him today, and his passion for "pure" trance music...and I felt the need to spin him this one. My tribute to DarkAngel.

My thoughts are with his family during this difficult time.

I remember hanging out with him at an Orlando TA party years ago before I lived in Miami. Then I saw him a couple of other times more recently at Space or Blue. Really nice guy. He started up conversations with my wife & I whenever I saw him.

I'm sorry for everyones loss.

from todays gdjb thread... nice touch by markus.

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Originally posted by ImpactPlayaz Final tracklist: Markus Schulz 01. PPK - ResuRection (Markus Schulz Intro Edit) 02. Tilt - Invisible (Lost Tribe Vocal Mix) 03. Breeder - Twilo Thunder (Stoked Up Mix) 04. Above & Beyond - No One on Earth (Gabriel & Dresden Remix / Markus Schulz Big Room Reconstruction) 05. Chicane Featuring Maire Brennan - Saltwater (Tomski vs. Disco Citizens Remix) 06. Energy 52 - Cafe Del Mar (Original Three n One Mix) 07. Peter Martin Presents Anthanasia - Perfect Wave 08. Bedrock - Heaven Scent 09. Lustral - Everytime (Nalin & Kane Remix) 10. Ralphie B - Massive 11. Binary Finary - 1998 (Matt Darey Remix) 12. Push - Universal Nation 13. Mesh - Purple Haze 14. Solarstone - Solarcoaster 15. Mauro Picotto & Ricardo Ferri - New Time, New Place (Markus Schulz Reconstruction) 16. Agnelli & Nelson - Hudson Street (New York Mix) 17. Three Drives - Carrera 2 (Markus Schulz Reconstruction) 18. Adam White & Andy Moor Present Whiteroom - The Whiteroom 19. BT vs. Sasha - Remember Magnetic North 20. Rank 1 - Breathing (Markus Schulz Coldharbour Remix) [In Memory of DarkAngel] 21. Probspot - Blueberry 22. Airwave - When Things Go Wrong 23. William Orbit - Barber's Adagio For Strings (Ferry Corsten Remix) 24. U2 - New Year's Day (Markus Schulz Intro Mix)

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Originally posted by ImpactPlayaz There's a little ID update to track 20 that might interest a few of you. Markus wished to pay tribute to one of TA's fallen and most fondly remembered members, and I think he probably picked the most fitting track to do it. All the best guys, have a great 2010.

Wow thank you to Markus for bringing me into tears again!!

It's still hard, brother!

I have to accept that the person who would pick me up and drop me off at the airport almost every single time I went to Miami... is gone.

I could always count on you <3 love u.

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Originally posted by PatMcGroin from todays gdjb thread... nice touch by markus.

+1, much respect goes to Markus for doing this. And the entire set is amazing and a tribute to the music DA loved

Since there are people who care about Raul in this thread I will post it here.


I found out some stuff about Raul and it looks like he did try to leave a note. He wrote it on facebook and all I know is that I was tagged on it first so I am just thankful in a way he never sent it. I am also a bit thankful that it accidentally got erased. It was a draft so I am sure a refresh or sign in made it disappear. I don't want to know what the note said straight from his mouth. His niece just sent me a text message with a summary of what it said.


The depression took over and that is what drove him over the edge. I have a strong feeling it was something else which I shared with his family. They will look into it further.

I think, had he sent it, I prob would have tortured myself over and over by reading it everyday. Not sure who else was tagged or anything. It just sucks. I can't imagine how it must be for them - going through his computer is a hard thing to do. He had a specific folder with lots of pictures of him with friends. Almost as if it were set there purposely . The name of this folder... well... referenced his death

and I have that sick to my stomach feeling and overall sadness again after you told me this.

I fuking wish he would have tried to talk to US (his CLOSE friends), the people who truly CARED about him.

I thought it was getting better but knowing more is making it MUCH worse.

yeah. i can only imagine how it must be for his family. going through his stuff.


His niece had a look into his camera and the pictures from the BBQ in september were still there

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Originally posted by MeLLyMeL His niece had a look into his camera and the pictures from the BBQ in september were still there

<3 he took nice pix of me holding Alexa and us around Alexa. I'm glad he got to see her

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Originally posted by FallingMoon <3 he took nice pix of me holding Alexa and us around Alexa. I'm glad he got to see her

yeah cuuute ones

I wonder if he left his camera for the November one. Would have been nice. I don't think anyone took pictures at that one. I left my freaking camera.

Never met the guy but I always will remember him Raul with the leather jacket

My deepest respects I can't even imagine the loss of someone very close

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Originally posted by DeRangedMind Never met the guy but I always will remember him Raul with the leather jacket My deepest respects I can't even imagine the loss of someone very close

it's fuking hard. I will tell you that. and I've had some ppl message me like "oh, well my aunt died of cancer... or so and so died of this" but I dunno how anyone can ever say something like that. Especially to me. He was not just a friend. He was my best friend who did anything to see me on my short little weekend trips to miami. He would do the tiniest stupidest little adventures with me.. to Target or something.. then went on his way.

This was completely unexpected. It came out of nowhere. There is nothing like feeling hopeless like - why didn't he come to you? or me? or anyone in this thread?

i am constantly reminded of him. i finally listened to my boyfriend's set from the November BBQ and when YAYA [Ronski Speed remix] came on.. all I could think and talk about was - that was the last thing DA and I ever spoke about. He came up to me to ask me what song was playing.

My poor boyfriend was so scared... he was like "uh oh are you going to cry" but I think at that time I just meant to talk about it with happiness. Raul loved the song hearing it for the first time.

blah. i can go on and on and on. but i don't care. it still helps to talk about my friend <3

Is there anyway we can make this a sticky so it stays at the top for a while, since this is an important part of FLTA

Hi all, Hi Mel,

i just met DA on TranceEnergy a few years back.

It was amzing to met someone who travels for a party such long way - but we all do, dont we?

We had a drink together and talked about this and that.

I remember, he was soooo friendly.

I hope he found his peace now, i am sooooo sorry to hear that

Best, Sven

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Originally posted by mdamon7278 Is there anyway we can make this a sticky so it stays at the top for a while, since this is an important part of FLTA

Yes. I've already mentioned this. Someone should tell Manny.

We are still finding things out about his unexpected death and he really was such an important part of FLTA. He introduced me to sooo many out of town TA's. Always so welcoming.

He is truly missed.


Glad you got to hang with him at one of his highest moments of his life, Cosmique. I wish I was there to share in that memory with him. xx

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Originally posted by MeLLyMeL Yes. I've already mentioned this. Someone should tell Manny.

You just asked.

Done!

So, Raul did try to leave a note on facebook where he messaged all his friends.. He just never got to publish it. The family saw it open when they turned on his computer. It accidentally got erased... so I received a summary of it. He wanted everyone to know.. even on TA.. so he said something along the lines of:


" By the time you read this i will be dead. My depression has gotten worse especially with the death of marcus on november 25th, 2005. My car died and i have been unemployed for two years, longest time ever. I applied to burger king and even they didnt take me. That really sent me over the edge. So, i decided to take myself out with a Ruger (some gun number i forgot) that i've had for a while now. I want to thank all my friends and family for being there for me. Please inform tranceaddict.com of my death. Thank you and goodbye.

Raul Montoya.


He also mentioned the many times he attempted suicide before.

fuck.

I agree. I am just glad he didn't send it to us. I think reading the summary is much easier than reading it word for word by him.


I really can't imagine what the family went through turning his computer on.

honestly can't.

It's been 3 weeks and now they have some closure. Going into his room must be incredibly hard. ;\

Wow Mel.....reading that was really hard My heart goes out to his family, you, and all of his really close friends.

As I mentioned in the thread on the Toronto section of TA, I have spoken with Raul for several years, but only had the one opportunity to meet him once at WMC 2007...I will always be grateful for that one night (unfortunately the only picture I have of he and I from that night is blurry, but I will cherish it none the less).

Even with time and distance separating us, he was someone that was always there when you needed him....whether it was to laugh or to cry, or to just be, he was always there....I am forever grateful for the conversations, the laughter, and the tears that we shared. Raul was a wonderful person with a heart as big as the ocean for all of his friends and family, and anyone who had the opportunity to cross paths with him, found a place for him in theirs.

Mel, I am sure you have a wonderful support group of close friends and family, but if you ever need to talk or vent, please feel free to get in touch with me.

RIP my dear friend....you will forever be remembered xo

OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!!


WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW AND WOW!!!!


I have no words to even explain what I just felt as I read that!!!

I am so confused at the moment, I don't know whether to cry or scream or I just don't know????

When I do, then I will be back to write something...cause at the moment I really cannot register this.

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Originally posted by Dancing*Queen Wow Mel.....reading that was really hard My heart goes out to his family, you, and all of his really close friends. As I mentioned in the thread on the Toronto section of TA, I have spoken with Raul for several years, but only had the one opportunity to meet him once at WMC 2007...I will always be grateful for that one night (unfortunately the only picture I have of he and I from that night is blurry, but I will cherish it none the less). Even with time and distance separating us, he was someone that was always there when you needed him....whether it was to laugh or to cry, or to just be, he was always there....I am forever grateful for the conversations, the laughter, and the tears that we shared. Raul was a wonderful person with a heart as big as the ocean for all of his friends and family, and anyone who had the opportunity to cross paths with him, found a place for him in theirs. Mel, I am sure you have a wonderful support group of close friends and family, but if you ever need to talk or vent, please feel free to get in touch with me. RIP my dear friend....you will forever be remembered xo

Thank you so much sweety.

I can only thank Raul for bringing me closer with my friends.

I hope he is able to see how many new friendships I have created from his passing. His family is just so welcoming. I've been speaking to his niece alot lately and I am sure what her family is going through is much worse than any of us.

His family is so incredibly nice. Just today his mother wanted to let me know how wonderful it was that so many people came to his service. She said it meant so much to her. I told her - he was such a wonderful person.. it shouldn't be a surprise that so many came and I am glad I was able to call him my friend <3

I have also become friends with his best friend. We find comfort in sending messages to each other about Raul. Every nice word about him has helped - tremendously.

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Originally posted by MeLLyMeL So, Raul did try to leave a note on facebook where he messaged all his friends.. He just never got to publish it. The family saw it open when they turned on his computer. It accidentally got erased... so I received a summary of it. He wanted everyone to know.. even on TA.. so he said something along the lines of: " By the time you read this i will be dead. My depression has gotten worse especially with the death of marcus on november 25th, 2005. My car died and i have been unemployed for two years, longest time ever. I applied to burger king and even they didnt take me. That really sent me over the edge. So, i decided to take myself out with a Ruger (some gun number i forgot) that i've had for a while now. I want to thank all my friends and family for being there for me. Please inform tranceaddict.com of my death. Thank you and goodbye. Raul Montoya.

I really hope and pray that Raul has found eternal peace.

Don't come on here much (only to see WMC stuff each march) but always saw his name. Even traded some PM's with him because he would help ID tracks for me. Sad thing. I had seen him @ Space a few times but never talked. RIP.

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