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That post did get me shocked and i understand how you feel. But the further i got into the replies the more convinced i got that there is a very small chance that you got it. I really dont think you have anything to worry about.
Hope youre alright m8..... Post us the test results!
Take care\ 
/me givez you a hug
it's easier said than done but...
GO OUT AND OCCUPY YOURSELF
but before you do...reread ABT's post, be optimistic bout' your chances and thank the girl if you haven't already for giving you the head's up as well as being courageous enough to tell you.
Whatever the results may turn out to be, that's neither here nor now...just smile each morning you get up till than and just tell yourself you're gonna make the MOST of the day!
Knew someone -- unfortunately (ugh...long story!) still know -- that went through a smiliar crisis. The only thing that really cheered her up was the fact that she was around people that loved and cared about her -- took her mind off of it -- and we spent each day to the fullest.
Mate, my thoughts are with you.
Jon
Tiesto, man, we r not the best friends u can imagine or amything, but i hope u dont have HIV or anything, that is not smth u would even wish to ur greatest enemy (which ur not btw ), hope that bitch didnt infect u or anything man, i wish u all the luck i can...
didnt read the entire post, cuz im 2 drunk right now, but the words i said above r true, and ment...
peace
I hate to be the one whos looks @ it from another angle..yes your chances of contracting it from her are slim(does she even know if shes got HIV yet?) Either way I believe(but I may be wrong) that you have to go back in 6 months to see if you actually have HIV or not, and this first test is just preliminary, but that the diseases can stay dormant and undected for a long time...so while the next weeks result MAY be reassuring, I dont think you are in the clear yet.
somebody please correct me. I would love to be wrong.
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| Originally posted by Gekhous Tiesto, man, we r not the best friends u can imagine or amything, but i hope u dont have HIV or anything, that is not smth u would even wish to ur greatest enemy (which ur not btw ), hope that bitch didnt infect u or anything man, i wish u all the luck i can...didnt read the entire post, cuz im 2 drunk right now, but the words i said above r true, and ment... peace |
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| Originally posted by j_spot I hate to be the one whos looks @ it from another angle..yes your chances of contracting it from her are slim(does she even know if shes got HIV yet?) Either way I believe(but I may be wrong) that you have to go back in 6 months to see if you actually have HIV or not, and this first test is just preliminary, but that the diseases can stay dormant and undected for a long time...so while the next weeks result MAY be reassuring, I dont think you are in the clear yet. somebody please correct me. I would love to be wrong. |
hey everyone its me...
yes it is true it does take 6 moths to know for sure that you are not infected...but the CDC (Center for Disease Control) says, as does my doctor, that by 3 months a person's body will form antibodies to the virus that can be detected....and there is a 99% chance that if after 3 months of NOT being infected that you are not going to be...but just to be certain they have you retest again just to be safe for the small percentage that does test positive after that time peroid...
so YES i will have to be retested but if after 3 months i am negative then i have a 99% chance of being ok....so i wont worry as much....
Alot of people said that my ex-girl was good enough to tell me when she could of hid it...and i AGREE...i am not really mad at her or anything, even though she did cheat...but she is in the same boat as i am right now...we are both struggling with the wait process.....i am a little bit more scared then her but we are both shitting bricks....
I try and forget it and just go out and stuff...but i can't...my friends wanted to take me out tonight to a rave...but i just couldn't go...i am getting myself so worked up over this that i am actually making myself sick....i am so scared that i feel nauseaus and have a headache that goes from my head to my lower back....i just can't relax...i havent even been posting on TA..except for this post because i want you all to know how i am doing and everything...
You know the "TINGLES" we all get from certain tracks?....well after rereading this entire thread and all your posts again for the 20th time i keep getting tingles knowing you are all here helping me and showing your concern....
My chances of having it like ABT said are very low...but there is still a chance and that is enough to put the fear in me....I just dont know what i am going to do if i am positive....i think the first thought that will come into my head IF they say i am positive is the thought i am going to die within 10 years (give or take a year or 2).....then i will just break down and cry.....i am VERY emotional to begin with , as the people who knew me when i my ex girl broke up with me can tell you....so being so emotional i know i wont be able to handle it....i get such a weird felling in my stomach when i think about it...like butterflies or the feeling that your stomach is sinking....
on a lighter note....my friend tryed to cheer me up today...LOL...he did make me laugh HARD...he said this.....
"Well dude look at it this way now you can finally be with Maryann (thats my ex by the way) if your positive, because she will be too...and who else are you both going to hook up with at that point, so just think of that, you will finally get the girl you love so much"
....LOL...its kinda sick but kinda funny....it made me laugh....but only for a few...i just thought i would tell you all. since i want you all to know exactley whats going on....
Well... its now 11:45 on a Friday night and my friends begged me to go out and even offered to stay at my house with me..but i just wanted to be alone tonight...i will go out tomorrow night and get wrecked...but tonight i just wanna relax and watch tv and chill with my mom and sister....
so i will be back...and will keep you all informed...thank you all again for all of you support....i will never forget how you have helped me...ALL of you...thanks
hmmm
think positive!!!!!
I MEAN NEGATIVE!!!!!!
well you get the picture!!!
WTF is going on here
this is not directed to the poor fella
but common
Africa has this big campaign thats been going on for ages
lack of education = HIV
and here we are americans still struggling with HIV. I mean i know lots of people with AIDS or HIV in San Francisco. 100% of them are older gay men or drug users and they are all over 35. Anyone before that age should be well educated on that this matter. Well im speaking from america and i dont know how canadians treat HIV but i was forced to learn somethign so real and scary a single mistake could mean my life. argh im kinda pissed
*hugs* I know that I'm new and don't know anyone here, but I feel for you. I hope the test comes back negative. I wouldn't want to wish something like that on an enemy.
Hey tiesto14, seems like you are blessed with some really great friends and family. That is so good to hear You sound like you are a very good person and it shows. It's great that you have some really cool friends that are there for you through thick and thin.
I definately agree that you have a very, very slim chance of contacting anything since you are the third link. I know it's hard right now but just think of this as another 'test' that life throws out at you. Something like this will make you look at life from a whole new perspective and make you a better person.
This is by far the most important thread I've ever read in any message board. It's affected me quite a bit. I'm really praying that you'd be hearing some good news on Wednesday as I'm pretty sure you will. Keep your spirits up, and try to have a great time with your buddies tomorrow. You're surrounded by some really good people
Prayers are with you buddy....keep your chin up.
Peace,
Steve
to Trancewave.....I never thought something like this could happen to me.,,...i never thought i would have to be in fear of HIV....but now i find myself trying show some fortitude but its not working........thanks for your thoughts and prayers...they mean more then you will EVER fathom....you are right that it makes you look at things entirely different.....alot of people here know me for my bold posts on topics such as war and religion and the such...now its ironic that i am the one who is praying to God and watching TV and thinking life is too short for all this nonsense between countriies...(i still think however that the U.S. efforts in Afghanisatn is good...i wont go that far).....
but i see myself looking at things different already and i just got tested yesterday....its weird....very hard to explain what i am talking about...its just everything seems better, everything seems to have good in it.....i cant explain what i mean.,..i think you have to be me to understand..i am weird..LOL....
That goes for everyone that posted....when this thread is finished i am printing it out and saving it in my memory box forever...it means that much to me....
Viceroy and Bick....thanks for you posts...i appreciate each and everyone that i see...
only 5 or 6 days to go till i know...hopefully 5 days if they come back early..............
I really feel for you Tiesto14, and I'm sure that I would be just as afraid as you are right now, if not much worse... I've gotta give you all the respect in the world for being strong and brave enough to come out and talk about it openly with the rest of TA... being able to talk about it with others is a major step to thinking positively...
And I hope you know that you couldnt've picked a better group of people to share this personal experience with... the people here at TA are great, always have been and always will be. I guess that's why everyone here is so close
With that being said, now let's all toast to the day that Tiesto14's test results come back negative! 
We're all here for ya, bud...
to da_MynDLesS_one.....
you know i didnt even think twice about posting what was happening to me here....after the way people helped me with the break up of this girl..i KNEW that i would get help again....thats just the type of people we all are...and thats rare...
But its easier to post your getting tested then posting your positive...if i am.....but i know i will post the results regardless of what they are.....if its negative you will all know right away but if its positive i think i will be too fucked up to post untill i gather my emitions...i am sure you all know what i mean...but they will no matter what be posted.....
thanks for the toast.....beleive when i go out drinking tomorrow night and get REALLY messed up with my friends i will have like 100 toasts for all you guys....
I've created and project for myself for you man. I would of replyed earlier, but my computer was out of commision today.
Thank you for sharing your life with a group of stangers, that makes me feel very special that the people I've met on this board can become such trusting friends. I also want to to say congrats for evryone for giving your support.
tiesto14, there's not much I can say that will make the waiting any easier. I think everyone has made some great suggestions and giving some great ideas. So keep your head up, life throws us many curveballs. But we all endure. Sometines it will seem near impossible, but we as people have triumph.
Through out my life, I realize everything happens for a reason. We just have to put the broken pieces together and find the reason. Have hope in your heart and you will find yourself at the end of this.
You're in my prayers m8.
PAyce
Damn!!! Sorry to hear that... I'll say a special prayer for you Tiesto14 .. 4 realz. I had the "EXACT" same thing happen to me not too long ago. I wanted to kill her...even though she was my greatest love. Thank goodness I didn't.... the tests came back negative. And I've learned to forgive her for what she did & put me through. But just a quick observation!!! Is it just me...or does it seem that girls nowadays are just as bad..if not worse...then guys? Almost every guy I speak to tells me their girl broke up with them...cheated on them...doesn't want to settle down, or something like that. It's like the roles have reveresed! I find that it's the guys who are looking for that special girl to settle down with, lately.
Sorry if I went off topic there....I really do feel your pain...and "KNow" what u're going through...and what u're feeling. God bless, and take care.
Keep us posted. 
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| Originally posted by tiesto14 but i see myself looking at things different already and i just got tested yesterday....its weird....very hard to explain what i am talking about...its just everything seems better, everything seems to have good in it.....i cant explain what i mean.,..i think you have to be me to understand..i am weird..LOL.... |
Wow....I mean really....wow....
I'm not going to even start to pretend that I know what you're going through.
I will say this though, worrying about things can actually perpetuate problems.
Yes, it is serious but at the same time; you are not DEAD.
I always, always have a small saying for myself when a harsh situtation comes up:
"If there isn't a white chalk line around your body, today's a GREAT day!"
You'll be amazed how much that puts things into perspective (for me at least).
My hopes and prayers go out to you. I believe that you'll be just fine!
(I'll dance my ass of at Ferry Corsten for ya, how's that? 
)
Take care,
Jeff
This is really very, very sad to hear ... but you have to keep your head up!
Don't get too depressed now. I know this is very easy said, but at the end it all comes back to you. Maybe it can help you when you do something crazy that you always wanted to do in your life but couldn't! For example parachuing or something else you never did and always wanted to do (this should not mean that you should let yourself run over by a car, don't get me wrong...)! I know that sounds odd but think about it! I'm not very good in comforting people, but I hope U got that right 
The worst mistake people in your situation can make is sitting at home, being sad, not talking to others, thinking about the worst that could happen and letting the world go by (I know U don't do that now, but lemme say it). Hey, Tiesto14, you are still alive, don't forget that! It could be really good for U when U visit friends, parents and other people U love - like the oher TAs told U to.
Don't be too depressed ... I know that this is hard, sure it's even harder than I can imagine, but try to! That should not mean that you should rave off yer ass now and forget about all ... it's okay that you can't wait for the results and think about how they will be. But don't let it come too much over! You said in a post above that you got already headache and such things and that causes me worry about U ...
I hope your results will be negative (u know ... negative for HIV, but positive for U ) ... good luck !
And btw: I admire your courage to post this horrible thing! I hope it will make other TAs also thinking about what it is to be HIV-negative...
Good luck, Tiesto14!
When did we fall ...
I just want to say that your message friend has probabily caused 100's of people to think of what they are doing when they meet new girls or men , therefore you are a Saviour, every-time i meet a new girl and i dont have nothing on me i aint gonna fuck her , she can suck rock. There is nothing i can say to change the way you think or feel because I am not God , the only way out of this is to play by the Rules these Rules are the Rules of GOD, If the Devil is looking upon you on that day my friend then fate will decide. Im sure you have all the proffesional advice from the doctor , and councilling , im sure TA are thinking about you.
Keep your head up son , the world is pure evil , and so is your x.
Over and Out ...
to QuickStep
...hey i was wondering where you where....i am glad you responded...thanks....whats your Project Hope all about?....sounds interesting...thank you for your prayers....
to -+DjStylez+-
.....I agree alot of my friends have been looking for a good girl to love and have a commited relationship with lateley...but I aswell as them keep getting screwed over.....one day we will all find that certain someone...I HOPE....thnaks for your thoughts...
to SYNthSRI...i know exactley what u mean about your walk..i had one of those a couple years ago...they give you a sense of freedom or something...you know what i mean...you cant explain in words..its too stong of an emotion....SYNthSRI i am taking 2 shots of Black Haus for you tonight....
to Fir3start3r
.......i like your quote..i have a similar one and it goes like this....
"Tomorrow is not promised....Today is your present"....
to RTP...i am trying to stay calm and shit but like you said its hard....last night i had sever bad dreams and seems like the thoughts of the test coming back positive wont leave my mind...but soon i will know and then i will see how i will run my life depending on the results..
to DJ RozzeR....i never thought this could happen....i was in a commited relationship then SHE cheats on me...i could not even imagine she would of done such a thing but she did and now i have to deal.....but beleive i will not have sex with another girl again without a condom....i will wait to do that for when i get married....
thanks for your prayers...
hey-
i just came across your post today, and i just wanted to drop a line. seeing how i've been rather inactive in my postings, and i haven't been around here much, i just wanted you to know that although i have no capability to imagine what you are feeling right now, i'm with you. i've been through the whole girlfriend thing before, and i know how that feels, i'm still living in it. the hiv thing though, i can't imagine. i just want you to know that like everybody else on here said, you have the support of thousands, including me. keep your head up, thats the best advice i can give. and althought my life has changed so much with my girl leaving me, the music is still there, which i turn to for support. something i find inspirational would be this:
Life is too short, dont stress everyday, leave your worries behind, go out and play.
Life is too short, grasp it in your hand, a natural miracle, have fun while you can.
Life is too short, as precious as gold, full of suprises, so i'm told.
Life is too short, take it from me, have as much as fun as you wish, just wait and see.
Life is too short, you'll soon to forget, that life is a gift, and its free yes thats it.
Life is too short, use your own eyes, open yourself, and enjoy you own life.
and while i find it doesn't help to soothe every situation, i think that a message still is there for me; and maybe for you 
stay strong, my thoughts are there.
jesse
I know nothing about the subject, so I will just post to address my sympathy...
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There. Hopefully, luck will be with you!
Wow, I haven't been online for days and this is what I read when I come back...
I can't possibly imagine what you're feeling now. The days before the result must be horrible I see why you're seeking help from family and friends, it's important to have support to keep you from, like you said, flip out.. You definitely have my support and prayers, I really hope and think the result turns out in your favor.. Like the others said, try to be positive, and keep us updated...
Peace
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