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Originally posted by AlphaStarred I've also read and heard it's possible to have insight into one's psychosis.

People with schizotypal personality disorder can sometimes have briefer, lighter psychoses where I�ve heard, it�s possible to be aware that something is not right. If one suffers from certain types of neurological diseases such as Lewy body dementia, I think can sometimes yield briefer, cleared psychosis, but I can�t really confirm this.

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Also, I've read that "hyperawareness" where everything is brighter and clearer to the vision and sounds appear louder, external stimuli flooding the overly alert brain can be a symptom of psychosis

This is quite common in post-epileptic episodes as I recall, but I doubt it falls under the psychosis paradigm.

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Can this also be a symptom of an anxiety disorder, even if the symptom is chronic and not relevant to a specific place or situation?

I really doubt it. The person is usually clear-minded when it comes to anxiety-disorder and can differentiate between what is real and what is not, neurosis. But then again, I assume that exceptions to the rule can exist, however this would not classify as simple anxiety-disorder for sure.

EDIT: Understand I�m trying to be as text-book compliant as possible here. :P I could give you some examples from the psychoanalysis of Jung, but that�s hardly science.

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Originally posted by Chimney ...however this would not classify as simple anxiety-disorder for sure.

Okay, if that's true, I see what my psychiatrist is getting at, then.

Schziophrenia and by that psychosis has to do with overwhelming dopaminergic activity, hence the "illness". Disorders such as that of anxiety do not have disregulations as a background, but have more to do with negative experiences, traumas and so on. Reason why in the tough cases, they give you medication, but rely mostly on psychotherapy.

I recalled paraphrenia. I remembered this during our discussion but couldn�t remember the term for the hell of it:

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Paraphrenia is a mental disorder characterized by an organized system of paranoid delusions with or without hallucinations (the positive symptoms of schizophrenia) without deterioration of intellect or personality (its negative symptom

This is the outmost boundary between eventual cases of superficial psychosis and full-blown schizophrenia.

In schizophrenia, psychosis doesnt make sense. It�s disorganized, in paraphrenia, it follows a scheme and is more palpable to normality.

Think this is what you were looking for :P

How about you show pics of the cyst removal eh?

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Originally posted by Chimney Think this is what you were looking for :P

Not sure, "organized system of delusions" sounds much like severe delusions to me. I mean, what the fuck. I'm told I have thought disorder and psychotic symptoms, even though I don't present with any severe delusions, hallucinations, or voices. Before that, I was told this chronic hyperawareness symptom, and a few other symptoms, are a sign of Bipolar. Some of these psychiatrists seriously cannot make up their mind. I'm done. Time to do Iboga again.

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Originally posted by Innocence Lost How about you show pics of the cyst removal eh?

got none. Just one from the hospital bed.

@ Alpha: Well man, anamnesis usually takes 40-60 min, so it�s hard to answer without a proper questionnaire. In regards to hyperawareness, it is associated with hyperactivity and manic phase of bipolar disorder, but seems a bit ambivalent.

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Originally posted by Chimney In regards to hyperawareness, it is associated with hyperactivity and manic phase of bipolar disorder, but seems a bit ambivalent.

Yeah, I have a couple of Bipolar friends who reported the very same symptom. I was diagnosed Bipolar before, but my current pdoc, seeing me for over a year now, tells me occasionally I have manic symptoms, yet she doesn't give me a proper diagnosis. After Iboga, I've also had some negative symptoms, particularly when I'm overwhelmed or feeling powerless. Go figure. Might be SZA, but at the same time, I'm starting to think nothing is wrong with me...until I spend some time in public and around people lol.

Interesting thing is, when I had a one or two-day remission from Risperdal, everything became suddenly darker (more normal), and I felt as though I'd woken up from a weird dream I'd been living in during the previous months. Does this living/waking up from a dream-like state/existence sound familiar?

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Originally posted by AlphaStarred Interesting thing is, when I had a one or two-day remission from Risperdal, everything became suddenly darker (more normal), and I felt as though I'd woken up from a weird dream I'd been living in during the previous months. Does this living/waking up from a dream-like state/existence sound familiar?

In conjecture with medication?

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Originally posted by Chimney In conjecture with medication?

No, the dream-like state was the "condition" I had prior to the short remission i experienced, where I felt totally "normal" again for a day or two until I relapsed. During my very short period of remission, I basically told some folks at the time that I felt like I woke up from a really weird dream that I'd been living in during the previous months (prior to that day or two of remission). I also noticed by body became heavier, I felt more grounded, my voice was slower, deeper, and my mind in general felt much more "quiet." I also looked at the Playstation that I had bought a few months back, and was wondering what the fuck? I'm not interested in playing video games now... basically my pastimes and activities were those that I normally wouldn't engage in when I felt "normal" during that short period of remission.

Never heard of that :/

I really hate ma shit. but i cope.

What the fuck?

Now my thread in the DJ Booth, called "Which little biarch keeps deleting threads?" just got deleted

It was just getting good too!

Juan was explaining that he stalked the girl he lost his V-plate to, started showing up at her house and her family called the Police.

This shit was just getting good!

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Originally posted by DJ RANN What the fuck? Now my thread in the DJ Booth, called "Which little biarch keeps deleting threads?" just got deleted It was just getting good too! Juan was explaining that he stalked the girl he lost his V-plate to, started showing up at her house and her family called the Police. This shit was just getting good!

I deleted it, abuse is not what I want to see in the DJ section, good advice, pics of set ups and equipment reviews are what should be in that section.

Oh I also suspended Innocence Lost, as its mostly him posting crap in that section (as well as this) but 2 others from that section almost got a weeks suspension as well!

Honestly, I'm glad you did.

Juan has recently treated this place like a dumping ground for his manic off-meds phase and the fact he, without exaggeration, stalked a TA off this forum, is reason enough to give him a ban.

It's super weird because you have no idea how much myself and others have helped him over the years, only for him to pull this crap.

Thanks for regulating.

i would say a yearning for young boy love is dangerous and kinda shitty for everyone in evolved. Either a sad story of unrequited love or kid buggering. Young girl too I suppose. Just doesn't feel as funny to me.

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"hyperawareness" where everything is brighter and clearer to the vision and sounds appear louder, external stimuli flooding the overly alert brain can be a symptom of psychosis.

this is caused by your body type...

read thi s book

http://www.gutenberg.org/files/3060...1-h/30601-h.htm

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Originally posted by Chimney Yea, people usually think of the psychopath type like Chistian Bale, handsome, rich and in position of power. The intelligent psychopath, however that is a bit far away from the truth. I actually did a study on this and all �nti-social (psychopaths) were either unemployed or uneducated. A lot of truck drivers :P Highly educated people are usually those suffering from anankastic personality disorder, the perfectionists which end up either with OCD, depression or both. EDIT: I read "the Intelligence of psychopaths" two years ago. It was an interesting view, but it was like taking the upper 1% and saying everybody is like that.

Oh, very interesting, I did not know there was a link between anakastic personality disorder and psychopaths/lack of empathy.

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Originally posted by soulstar606 this is caused by your body type... read thi s book http://www.gutenberg.org/files/3060...1-h/30601-h.htm

lol. It generally has to do with states of Mania, Hypomania, and various forms of Psychoses. I'm wondering if it has to do with chronic anxiety, as well, but I was told that's more situational.

I also notice that I've seem to have lost the quality of self-reflection, deep thought, and a general inclination and interest for "deep" movies, works of art and philosophical musings. I used to be pretty creative, but I don't "feel" it in this state. A shame, really. Could be a form of depression, perhaps.

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Originally posted by Lews Oh, very interesting, I did not know there was a link between anakastic personality disorder and psychopaths/lack of empathy.

No, no, wait; Anakastic personality disorder are the types which are very strict when it comes to rules, times, deadlines and so forth. These have the chance of developing OCD, which is an "illness" (neurosis)(personality disorders are not considered such). Difference is that OCD inhibits the daily life of the person and he/she goes through a great deal of struggle.

Antisocial personality disorder is the usual psychopath although the latter is accepted as being a more severe form of the antisocial personality disorder. Many still argue whether the term "psychopath" truly exists since DSM-V as far as I remember doesn�t support it.

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Originally posted by AlphaStarred After Iboga, I've also had some negative symptoms, particularly when I'm overwhelmed or feeling powerless. Go figure.

So what happened with the iboga? When you were posting in the aftermath your posts had a bizarrely docile yet obsessively insistent character. Now you seem to be posting more normally but from what you've posted here it sounds like your iboga session was not the miracle cure you were initially suggesting.

I never suggested it was a miracle cure, although I certainly hoped it was. It's called the Iboga after-glow, where one feels particularly good for 1-2 months after the session, due to the Noribogaine. Once it leaves the system, however, things can start getting rough again. I wouldn't say I relapsed totally, but it's definitely not been easy. I did want to try micro-dosing now, but unfortunately it's tough getting it in the States and I'm also not sure if it's the best idea at this point.

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Originally posted by AlphaStarred I never suggested it was a miracle cure, although I certainly hoped it was. It's called the Iboga after-glow, where one feels particularly good for 1-2 months after the session, due to the Noribogaine. Once it leaves the system, however, things can start getting rough again. I wouldn't say I relapsed totally, but it's definitely not been easy. I did want to try micro-dosing now, but unfortunately it's tough getting it in the States and I'm also not sure if it's the best idea at this point.

This makes a lot of sense. So the effect is not really the iboga experience helping to restructure your mind into a more harmonious form, but rather you were still under its chemical influence for an extended period of time. While you may have felt great for that period, I think everyone here can vouch for the fact that you certainly weren't acting normally.

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Originally posted by SYSTEM-J While you may have felt great for that period, I think everyone here can vouch for the fact that you certainly weren't acting normally.

I can see that in retrospect, and have also asked about it from a couple of people. The "after-glow" of Iboga, while making me feel better and more functional as a result, certainly wasn't the same state I was in during my brief remission after Risperdal, where I did feel "normal."

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