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has ecstasy changed you?
i have dropped maybe 10-12 times in my life, but i haven't noticed a change in my personality or anything. some people have done it less than i have and say they do notice a change. what about you? has ecstasy made you slower, more apathetic about things, or do you find yourself spacing out more often? i'm interested to know...
it is different w/ everyone...just see how it may take longer to hit with some than with others.
no it hasn't made me slower. sometimes I would want to think so to justify my frailties. however it has given a shit load of good ass memories.....ahhh
Flashbacks
and new levels of music appreciation
if you now what i mean
if by change you mean twist my outlook on life a little, well then yes
after hundreds and hundreds of times rolling... it has definitly changed me... good and bad...
I used to think the world was real. Now I think it's a dream. More like a nightmare with all the depression. I don't know why I'm living today. Maybe it's cuz of Trance, Hockey and Girls. Cuz I don't see any other reason for living.
no coz i aint taken it
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| Originally posted by Project T no coz i aint taken it |
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| Originally posted by skip i think this topic is stupid. seems to me like the thread starter wanted to say: "hey i'm cool, i have taken ecstacy bla bla bla..." |
Personally I don't do drugs
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| Originally posted by skip i think this topic is stupid. seems to me like the thread starter wanted to say: "hey i'm cool, i have taken ecstacy bla bla bla..." |
sometimes i think so..thats why i don't do it anymore
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| Originally posted by skip yep! me neither! i think this topic is stupid. seems to me like the thread starter wanted to say: "hey i'm cool, i have taken ecstacy bla bla bla..." |
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| originally posted by [N]�k|��[Z] btw wurd sebby |
yeah flip your comment was so wack.
I've never taken any drugs in my life. All I really want to do is learn how to spin, be filthy rich, buy some cars, and very few other things. In my opinion drugs will make me lose control of my dreams, and I can't let that happen. I fully intend to complete all of my goals. (yes I may seem very confident and unrealistic in my goals, but that's just the way I am)
-Tyler
i thin k the nmext question is, has it changed you in a good way or a bad way?
I`ve done E for about 4 years, but It`s not that usual nowadays.
I think it has changed a lot of my opinions according my
whole wiew of life. I`ve just noticed that small things
like nice weather, hanging out with my friends and so on
can bring me so much joy .On the other side, I think I get
more depressed from time to time and starting to
ask myself what I want to do with my future and if it really
mathers at all. I don`t regret it at all, because of all the fun I`ve
experienced.
I'm one of the few people I know who thinks that drugs have greatly improved me.
It opened my eyes to whole new way of thinking. I'm friendlier and more confident than before them (and I don't mean only when I'm on them). I don't get depro, and it saddens me a bit when I see so may people who are so horribly unhappy with life, regardless of whether or not they've ever taken.
That's not to say I don't know that they are bad for me, coz I do, and I plan to phase em out by the end of next year, I already plan to stop taking 2 types by the end of this year (leaving me plenty of time to enjoy Global Gathering )
4.5 years, countless times, and I wouldn't change a thing if I could go back in time.
my boyfriend used to take a pill durring a show when he went out but since we have started dating he hasn't done it anymore... i think he feels it isn't necessary anymore because we go to shows and we share the experience together and appreciate the music in it's raw form instead of a mind altering substance... personally i have never touched the stuff.. doesn't toot my whistle.
i don't encourage the use because one never knows how one will react to such things, but i have taken them. good times.....
i do find myself to be nicer overall now. smile more.
but i do find it harder to concentrate. used to be able to finish a good book in about 3 days. now takes me longer to just sit down and finish a few chapters.
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NOT ON DRUGS. one day i came home from work. parked my car in the drive way. was about to get out when the dashboard came at me. it sort popped out for a couple of seconds than everything went back to normal. freaked me out a bit. has anyone else had some weird experience like this. note, i hadn't done anything in months when this happened. still haven't touched anything since the begining of the year.
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no change i am immune to drugs 
My first contact with MDMA was so profound that it inspired me to write an experience report and submit it to www.erowid.org, so that others can hear my story. It has been 2 years since I wrote the report, and 3 years since the actual expreience itself. My MDMA use has become more sparse as of late, but each experince is cherished to the outmost degree. With each session I still try to learn to assimilate the drug induced enlightment to my everyday life, and better myself as a result of it. Without further delay, here is the tale:
"This story is about the wonderful healing powers of Ecstasy. It is also a story of human connectiveness, but most of all it is a story of personal rebirth!
To give a short history of personal psychoactive use, I was mostly limited to some weed, and a few LSD trips that were riveting but never too emotionally enriching. Having given up the rave scene for at least 4 years and being 23 I thought that my parting days were all but behind me. Then one day on a summer night of June 2000, I decided to check out this club called 'Meow' here in Toronto, with my buddy Numan and Robin whom I just met at work. It was some time since I've been to a club, (most of my friends sort of all grew out of clubing) I was quite excited to go. Going back to my old routine, I picked up a mickey of rum before the club and downed half of it before getting there. Upon my arrival I had a nice buzz, everything seemed just fine. The music Mark Oliver spun was awesome (the best of trance and progressive), I was having a blast. Unfortunately, 2 hours later at 1:30 my buzz was completely gone and I was craving a high. Everybody around me was having such a great time, and knowing that this club was notorious for Ecstasy and GHB, I decided to give E a shot.
Having researched MDMA before, I knew exactly what I was getting my self into. It was something I was always meaning to try but never got around to doing. Five mintues later Numan brings me this little 'Blue Macintosh' pill, and I swallow it with some water. Just the act of taking the pill brought forth excitement and joy. Every few minutes I glanced down on my watch, but nothing was happening. Finally, after 30 minutes I was convinced that either this pill was fake or I had some weird tolerance to it. Then all of a sudden I began experiencing these butterflys in my stomach (the kind you get when you were a kid and knew you were gonna do something really exciting that day). A couple minutes later, IT HIT ME!! A feeling came over me like none other ever experienced before. Life was wonderful, it was beautiful, it was ecstatic. Words could not explain how I was feeling, to say that 'I was on top of the world' was a gross understatement. I felt waves of universal love and energy rush all through out my body. It was as if I tapped into a collective consciousness with everyone else in the club. For the first time in my life I felt unity so strong that other people became a part of who I was. This feeling surpassed all boundaries of gender, race, and ethnicity.
For sometime prior to this night I wasn't feeling the greatest about my self, not really depressed but unhappy. My sense of self identity and direction was not as developed as I would have liked, and I just had a aura of negativity surrounding me. It almost seems as if all the years in this ever constriciting and neurotic society had desensitized me from living life to the fullest. This night however changed all that, the MDMA was a magical gateway. I was feeling awesome about my self, life was wonderful, it was truly a gift to cherish. I felt a sense of rebirth. A feeling I have not experienced since childhood.
As the E slowly peaked, I was completely mesmerized by this new state of mind. I will never forget standing under a ventilator peaking on E, while 'DJ Tiesto's in Search of Sunrise Remix of Silence' was at its peak. That I truly believe is the closest I ever came to sheer bliss!! I become one with the music, one with the crowd, and one with humanity. I realized what it means to be human, and our role as collective species. True happiness comes with self love and love of others. Without this fundamental truth we can never reach ultimate salvation. This chemically induced, eye opening experience made me realize the potential within me to love life and all its creation.
To progress with the story, I must say that as you would expect after the peak things slowly began returning back to normal. However, the decline was not very linear one, but rather very sudden. One moment I was in heaven and five minutes later as it seemed I was thrown into this world I did not want to come back to. It was a very unwanted experiences. I did not want to return, I kept asking my self why is such bliss possible only with the aid of a chemical. Life is not fair!! I felt like a child ripped from thou mother's arms and thrown into a world of misery and uncertainty. All of life's problems and concerns, abruptly made their presence known once again. Fortunately, amongst this negative experience I realized that I was left with something. A sort of gift that I felt was there to stay even long after the effects of the drug wear off. That gift was the opportunity to peak inside a world where only love, unity, and peace prevailed.
That new found knowledge, I knew would serve as a guide to lead me in a more positive manner with a better outlook on life as well as others. Life can't always be sheer bliss, but it could be made more worthy and fulfilling. If we only take pleasure in the small things in life and cherish those around us, it will definitively become a much better place for us and others to live in. Since that night, roughly a year has elapsed, and I have used Ecstasy about 6 or 7 times. Although none seemed as powerful as the first, each time those same feelings are brought forth to my consciousness and act as a reinforcer to making life more enjoyable. Doing Ecstasy was by far one of, if not the most intense experiences of my life. Since then I have tried to pass that knowledge to all around me. I truly believe that with responsible use, and the right precautions such as antioxidant use as well as tryptophan supplementation, many people can benefit from this wonderful substance. I only wish that the medical health community embraces this wonderful, enlightening cure and use it to conquer fears and problems in troubled individuals. Thank you for reading my story, I can only hope it can inspire you to better youreself as it has done to me."
That was a great description of your first pill TranceXtasy. Filled in every little detail. Makes me feel good to be Polish.
me say again..drugs are bad for you
I voted other because I have never took extasy tablets. I just don't want to, alcohol does it for me.
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