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Posted by neo geo on May-09-2004 20:22:

sick of life

im so sick of being here living with this shit the doctors call bipolar. I think thats a bunch of shit i just have a lot of anger from years of people treating me like im nothing and always getting fucked with in school for being such a little guy. As each day goes by i can feel myself getting worse and worse. I think the next person who fucks with me or tries to test me cause they think they can beat my ass cause im so small im gonna kill them. I have no care for life anymore and i curse god for even putting me here.At the rate im going i will be happy if i see my 30th birthday. There is not a day that goes by that i think of putting the 45 to my head or just swallowing all these damn sleeping pills cause i cant take this shit much longer at all.

Posted by Boomer187 on May-09-2004 20:26:

Re: sick of life

quote:
Originally posted by neo geo
im so sick of being here living with this shit the doctors call bipolar. I think thats a bunch of shit i just have a lot of anger from years of people treating me like im nothing and always getting fucked with in school for being such a little guy. As each day goes by i can feel myself getting worse and worse. I think the next person who fucks with me or tries to test me cause they think they can beat my ass cause im so small im gonna kill them. I have no care for life anymore and i curse god for even putting me here.At the rate im going i will be happy if i see my 30th birthday. There is not a day that goes by that i think of putting the 45 to my head or just swallowing all these damn sleeping pills cause i cant take this shit much longer at all.

Move. Get a new job somewhere else, meet new friends, see new doctors, actually live a life.

You gotta get over this size thing, but it seems pretty meaningful to you.

if you really feel like shit, and you don't like feeling like shit, leave your shitty situation. Killing people is fucking retarded, you'd just become an anchor in our society, if you think your life is shit now, try spending it locked up a few hundred people that enjoy making you feel like shit and tehre is nothing you can do.

killing yourself, even more stupid.

there are ways to change, so stop crying and change your life.

Posted by Tranc3 on May-09-2004 20:36:

Re: sick of life

quote:
Originally posted by neo geo
im so sick of being here living with this shit the doctors call bipolar. I think thats a bunch of shit i just have a lot of anger from years of people treating me like im nothing and always getting fucked with in school for being such a little guy. As each day goes by i can feel myself getting worse and worse. I think the next person who fucks with me or tries to test me cause they think they can beat my ass cause im so small im gonna kill them. I have no care for life anymore and i curse god for even putting me here.At the rate im going i will be happy if i see my 30th birthday. There is not a day that goes by that i think of putting the 45 to my head or just swallowing all these damn sleeping pills cause i cant take this shit much longer at all.

If I remember correctly, you've seen a therapist before. It might be a good idea to change therapists, maybe add some group sessions on top of it, if at least for the social aspect.

Posted by neo geo on May-09-2004 20:36:

easy enough said for someone who does not live with a fucked up head like mine. I dont think even changing my life will do a damn thing. I want to go to school for audio but then what, work in some ******s studio 80 hours a week for $7 an hour, fuck that. I cant find anything in life that keeps me happy and i seem to fail at shit to easy. I tried so hard to try to learn how to dj, spent hours on end trying to mix records and finally lost my shit and took out the 12 gauge and now all i have is two tables in pieces and hundreds of records to do nothing with. Same shit happened with skateboarding, all my friends would pick up so easy and i would spend hours on end everyday trying to learn just the basic tricks and could not learn shit even years later. IM so sick of living this hell forsaken life. As all my friends are getting married im sitting back and every chick i ask out i get shot down. NOw something seem wrong if i asked out 10 girls in a row u would think that one would say yes but they would all shoot me down. I cant live the rest of my life like this, working dead end jobs and struggling all my life for what. Fuck this shit, maybe someday i will get the balls enough to pull the tri

Posted by stupidisco on May-09-2004 20:39:

holy fucking shit this is like the 3rd post from neogeo claiming that he is gonna off himself...

just fucking do it already!

Posted by Ripped Bag on May-09-2004 20:41:

Don't know what to say.

Its easy for us to say go and do something about it, but you're right we're not the ones dealing with your situation and things are much easier said than done.

All I can say is that I can really relate on some levels, and I hope you can find something to help you or worth living for.

Posted by squirrelly on May-09-2004 20:42:

quote:
Originally posted by neo geo
easy enough said for someone who does not live with a fucked up head like mine. I dont think even changing my life will do a damn thing. I want to go to school for audio but then what, work in some ******s studio 80 hours a week for $7 an hour, fuck that. I cant find anything in life that keeps me happy and i seem to fail at shit to easy. I tried so hard to try to learn how to dj, spent hours on end trying to mix records and finally lost my shit and took out the 12 gauge and now all i have is two tables in pieces and hundreds of records to do nothing with. Same shit happened with skateboarding, all my friends would pick up so easy and i would spend hours on end everyday trying to learn just the basic tricks and could not learn shit even years later. IM so sick of living this hell forsaken life. As all my friends are getting married im sitting back and every chick i ask out i get shot down. NOw something seem wrong if i asked out 10 girls in a row u would think that one would say yes but they would all shoot me down. I cant live the rest of my life like this, working dead end jobs and struggling all my life for what. Fuck this shit, maybe someday i will get the balls enough to pull the tri

Actually I am quite familiar with your situation, and Boomers is right. The only way to better your situation, is to get out of it. Moving is an excellent option. You have so many choices around you. Pick a city and move there and make an attempt at a new and satisfying life. Ending your life is never the answer.

Posted by Rodrico on May-09-2004 20:42:

Everybody, lets pitch in and get this man LAID!

Posted by vtec junkie on May-09-2004 20:42:

Excuse me if im wrong but this isn't the first suicide thread you have made right??? What have you done since last time to make changes in your life. Whatever they were....its not working. Try new things, find a diffrent doctor if the one you have isn't helping you at all. Find new friends that share the same intrest as you do.......or find a girlfriend. Don't go off killing people or yourself.....thats not going to solve anything.

Posted by Danny Ocean on May-09-2004 20:44:

find a girl like the one in vtec junkie's avatar. Nice taste man

Posted by trancepixie17 on May-09-2004 20:46:

Look, don't listen to dumbass above me.

The point of maybe a dumping spree, maybe they turned you down because of your attitue. My broher is bipolar and adhd *one of my brothers, heh* and I mean I help to take care of him. I don't want to , but I have to control him sometimes...

Everyone's life is shit

mine, my parents divorced at 4, had to live with dad and grandparents a while, then my mom, my dad got married again, bought a very nice house *but had to deal with two new siblings and a little brother to come* fuckin failed 7th grade straight ds, had to move down to florida because my dad wanted to keep me back *even though i passed*.

Then I fuckin lost my best friend doing that. I've never though about killing myself...

I think my situation is a little worse...no offense...job or not...

seeing my youngest brother in march, I'll never be able to pick him up again, and I only see him nce in a while....

All my friends are older than me, so I miss out on a lot...

anyway, to get back on topic...killing your self is not the answer.
I really think you should get some new friends, most of the people on ta are descent.

Posted by Redeye on May-09-2004 20:47:

Take 2 lithium and call me in the morning

are there any therapists here??? I didn't think so, go out and find yourself one. Calling attention to yourself in here is most likely going to do more harm than good simply because it seems we have a suicide/life sucks thread every day

Move on, get a job, find a hobby, find a girl, find a therapist (step 1) and I would def. say get off the internet for awhile and go outside and enjoy life

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