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Ever had that freaky weird feeling...

That you're about to start a new 'chapter' in your life?

I'm not talking about small normal changes like dumping a girlfriend or switching jobs, but something that you feel is drastically going to change your every day life. Not nessessarily a positive or negative feeling, just a weird sense.

I've been thinking about this more and more as my first day of university nears (~2 weeks). I've spent the last 5 years (since I've finished high school) jumping from job to job with sporadic periods of unemployment inbetween, doing college courses here and there but never really completing anything and never staying anywhere long enough to form ties with people, taking my first steps into adulthood, learning to manage finances, becoming fully independant. I haven't been involved in any "social environment" since, nor have I been dedicated to doing any one thing consistantly for more than a month or two. Looking back, I can think of three of these relatively long periods of my life that have been significantly different from one another. The feeling of embarking in long-term studies now just weirds me out (but not in a bad way). I get the distinct feeling that years from now I'll be looking back on this as one of those "turning points".

Sorry for the emo thread.

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Originally posted by Project-K Sorry for the emo thread.

This thread is not "emo." If you started whining about starting the new chapter and saying no one will ever love you, that would be emo.



And yes, I have felt this before, especially when I started college. I think I may feel it again in the spring when I graduate from college and (probably) move out of Texas.

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Originally posted by MrJiveBoJingles This thread is not "emo."

Yeah ok. What I meant is that it deviates from the Cor's usual fart-joke level discussions.

I often have intense feelings of dread, where my mind is convinced that "something bad" is about to happen and that there is nothing I can do to prevent it. It usually passes as a nonevent. Then, when all's well, I go and step on a goddamned snake. So, you never know. But college was the bomb. Wish someone would have sponsored me for another 3 years or so.

yup.. i have

yea starting new chapters always makes me feel uncomfortable and i get really nostalgic when it happens, but then i take on the changes like a champ. i never give myself enough credit.

i never realize it as it's happening, but then after a certain amount of time i look back and realize how much has changed and it blows my mind.

i guess the only time that i felt i was really starting a new chapter in my life was the day that i moved from NY to WI. it all came together in such a fucked up way and emotionally it was really quite intimidating and confusing, but it was probably the best and bravest thing i've ever done.

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Originally posted by Project-K That you're about to start a new 'chapter' in your life? I'm not talking about small normal changes like dumping a girlfriend or switching jobs, but something that you feel is drastically going to change your every day life. Not nessessarily a positive or negative feeling, just a weird sense. I've been thinking about this more and more as my first day of university nears (~2 weeks). I've spent the last 5 years (since I've finished high school) jumping from job to job with sporadic periods of unemployment inbetween, doing college courses here and there but never really completing anything and never staying anywhere long enough to form ties with people, taking my first steps into adulthood, learning to manage finances, becoming fully independant. I haven't been involved in any "social environment" since, nor have I been dedicated to doing any one thing consistantly for more than a month or two. Looking back, I can think of three of these relatively long periods of my life that have been significantly different from one another. The feeling of embarking in long-term studies now just weirds me out (but not in a bad way). I get the distinct feeling that years from now I'll be looking back on this as one of those "turning points". Sorry for the emo thread.

Reverse the order of college and work and you've basically just explained the exact same spot I'm in right now.

I sympathize with the "oddness" of it all. I feel like a lot of my life has been dominated by "weird' (neither positive nor negative) feelings of change lately.

Heh, I thought being a 21 year old sophomore was bad..



I'm not getting my bachelor's until I'm 23 or 24.

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Originally posted by l�cid i never realize it as it's happening, but then after a certain amount of time i look back and realize how much has changed and it blows my mind.

That's usually how it happends. I think I'm only perceiving it now because I have so much free time to think about this stuff, not to mention having mental and emotional stability on a level I had never experienced before recently.

Right on man... I know how that feels. Just welcome the changes and stay optimistic. It's a good thing

i just feel weird because im pretty sure i should just quit my job without any prospects in order to get my ass in gear.

i just dont handle new situations well without a safety net, but then again thats something i need to figure out too. my job is just bogus in terms of my schooling and ability and i shouldnt be fighting it anymore|

(plus its finally making me broke...before i was doing slightly okay)

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Originally posted by Project-K That's usually how it happends. I think I'm only perceiving it now because I have so much free time to think about this stuff, not to mention having mental and emotional stability on a level I had never experienced before recently.

true. i suppose i should feel that way now since i'm moving to a new apartment by myself and starting school again in a few weeks... but i've been so busy that i haven't really had time to process everything that's happening.

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Originally posted by Krypton Heh, I thought being a 21 year old sophomore was bad.. I'm not getting my bachelor's until I'm 23 or 24.

I'm hoping to start university next september, 2 months before i'll turn 28, after overcoming some illnesses & working on discovering the things that make me who i am, i don't really care if i seem old there, I just wanna learn something that interests me. Now to pick my uni/course. Stuck between going for the course i really want in a place i dislike or going to the area i want & compromising on course....

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Originally posted by Ian Stuck between going for the course i really want in a place i dislike or going to the area i want & compromising on course....

It's always hard to tell if you'll enjoy it if you haven't met the teacher. The teacher changes everything. You can end up with a rare gem or a weirdo who speaks with an accent you can't comprehend. Some of my best classes in college ended up being classes I thought I didn't want.

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Originally posted by Ian I'm hoping to start university next september, 2 months before i'll turn 28, after overcoming some illnesses & working on discovering the things that make me who i am, i don't really care if i seem old there, I just wanna learn something that interests me. Now to pick my uni/course. Stuck between going for the course i really want in a place i dislike or going to the area i want & compromising on course....

The most important thing is to know what you want to do. You have to know what you love. Otherwise, there is no point in going to university. It'll all just be a waste of time. Luckily that only took me about 1 or 2 years out of high school. Some people never figure out what they love or want to do, so they wallow at their 9-5 dead-end jobs for their entire lives.

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Originally posted by Krypton Some people never figure out what they love or want to do, so they wallow at their 9-5 dead-end jobs for their entire lives.

That will be me.

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Originally posted by sweds00

fail. all skeletor pictures need to refer to cokehead slylee

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Originally posted by MrJiveBoJingles That will be me.

That's too bad.

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Originally posted by Krypton That's too bad.

Meh, there is more to life than work.

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Originally posted by MrJiveBoJingles Meh, there is more to life than work.

lol, well, if you turn whatever you love into your job, it's not work now is it? I love using math to make money on the stock market. Stock analysis is my job. But it's not work since I love doing it, even when I'm at home. I bet you'll never meet a millionaire who didn't love their job, whatever it may be...CEO, entrepreneur, investor, etc.

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Originally posted by Krypton I'm not getting my bachelor's until I'm 23 or 24.

Same :/ Then I'm going for my masters after that. I feel so behind

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Originally posted by Pokit Same :/ Then I'm going for my masters after that. I feel so behind

To be honest, I think I was too immature at 18 or 19 to really take school seriously. I am incredibly smart, but in a very unconventional sense, and so sitting in a classroom reading textbooks in a non-engaged way, I am bound to fail. But discovering one's future, what one really wants in life, is the number 1 best thing anyone can discover about one's self. Now that I have had that epiphany, I have the motivation to go to school, and get a degree. No point in going to school unless there is an ultimate goal in which your degree is a step in reaching that goal.

Yea, we're late, but we're still way ahead of anyone who goes through life aimlessly chasing a paycheck and barely meeting their needs.

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Originally posted by Krypton lol, well, if you turn whatever you love into your job, it's not work now is it?

Sure. But if the things you love doing are not very profitable, that is not feasible, is it?

Which is why I will probably be working shit jobs with low pay.

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