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I'm a social retard, I admit it. How do I make friends IRL (not here) as an adult?

As an adult, all the friends I make are nowhere near as cool as my high school friends. It's actually harder for me to make good friends as an adult than it was for me to make friends as a teen.

I can still make friends, but they're not the type of friends I want. I want to make friends with deviants and weirdos, and it's like I can't detect the deviants and weirdos anymore because they've all become so good at hiding it. And I'm too scared to be the way I was in high school, because I'm only a timid weirdo. Not an alpha weirdo.

In high school, me and my group of friends would appear normal on the outside, but we were incredibly fucked up and disturbed with mental problems. But were normal.

I need a group of people like that again. How do I make friends with normal people so that I can sift through them to find the weird, sick, disturbed friends I need?

You're all just as fucked up and crazy as I am, but everyone's really good at hiding it. I just want to joke about messed up shit with people, to be honest. Dark sense of humor.

Not sick all the time. Any help? I'M TIRED OF HAVING NORMAL FRIENDS!~

Body language and non-verbal communication are my biggest weak points.

How do I laugh and smile even when I don't want to be around the people I'm with and I'm only "befriending" them just so I can have access to certain resources? How do I lie with my face and body? How do I fake smiling and hide my constant depression?

I don't know how to genuinely convince people that I like them when I don't actually like them?

Edit: I want people who I can truly be myself with. But this is an extremely difficult thing to find.

Retarded.

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Originally posted by Sushipunk Retarded.

I fucking admit, ok! I am retarded at socializing. I fucking suck at life, but I'm trying to fix that.

Lay off my case, because what the fuck is calling me a retard going to do when I already admitted that I'm a retard and that I want to change? Fuck you. You don't help. you're just as retarded.

The internet is literally the only place where things like this can be openly discussed, and for that, I am grateful. I don't personally know any of you people and that is a wonderful thing.

I'm just sick of all your shit threads. It's my standard reply to anything you post here.

Re: I'm a social retard, I admit it. How do I make friends IRL (not here) as an adult?

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Originally posted by Akridrot we were incredibly fucked up and disturbed with mental problems.

No shit.

My answer? Same as it has always been: professional help. However, you still don't seem to be able to comprehend that, so I'm just going to side with Stu on the 'retard' comment until you can prove otherwise.

ask them when they'll let you tap that.

I don't know a single person who wants to be like they were in high school.

wait, you live in NY and have this problem?

dude, i live in the fucking middle of northwest oklahoma; and i STILL have friends. granted not many, but even in this po-dunk POS town, i still have managed to have a couple of friends at work. and even some down in the city.

how the fuck can you live in a metropolis and not make friends? there HAS to be something wrong with you.

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Originally posted by Akridrot Edit: I want people who I can truly be myself with. But this is an extremely difficult thing to find.

You post a lot of stupid shit, but this bit deserves a serious response. I have plenty of friends, including some very good ones, but I've never found what you're looking for.

go to 4chan; be amongst your kind.

(see you there)

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Originally posted by tubularbills how the fuck can you live in a metropolis and not make friends? there HAS to be something wrong with you.

There IS something wrong with me, and I want there to stop being something wrong with me, which is why I find the insulting and flaming pointless.

I probably do need professional help, but not simple therapy. This is something far more complex than that.

I've actually been sent to a psychiatric hospital before in an ambulance for my mental problems. I went to get an STD test and while talking, I told the lady about the things I wanted to do to people and she immediately left the room and didn't come back for like 5 minutes. Then I see two big paramedics come in and she steps back out and calmly tells me "It's ok. Don't be afraid, they are here to help you. You need help." and later on I found out that I was labeled an E.D.P. or Emotionally Disturbed Person. They thought I was going to be a danger to myself and others.

My thoughts were so disturbing that I was seen by two different psychiatrists and both of them told me that I needed advanced therapy because I'm cognizant of how messed up I am but not completely in control. That's the reason I post fucked up shit all the time, I can't control myself.

It's not to say I'm intelligent, just intelligent enough to be completely aware of my illness and intelligent enough to conceal it for the most part. But not intelligent enough to get rid of it on my own.

I am literally NOT in full control because if I was I would never post most of the shit that I do.

The psychiatrists told me that I needed things like group therapy and art therapy and that I should stay for a long time because I was intelligent enough to hide my problems (but only temporarily, only sometimes, never all the time) and cases like me are harder to work with because for some fucked up reason I intentionally hold on to the disturbed part of my psyche and nurture it and it keeps growing and growing and I'll never be fucking normal at this rate.

Even the fucking psychiatrists told me that I needed more help than they were able to give. Why did they say that? Because I kept playing stupid fucking mindgames with them and I even asked one of them if her pussy was wet and if she wanted to molest me. I am not in control... and this is extremely upsetting.

Even the fucking psychiatrists think I'm supremely fucked up, she was visibly disturbed by what I was saying and I think she was even angry at me for playing games with her. I fucking hate myself sometimes.

Why couldn't I have been born normal?!?!?

WHY COULDN'T I HAVE BEEN BORN NORMAL LIKE EVERYONE ELSE?!

Even recently, I was permabanned from a forum that my ex posted on because she told them about how I was psychologically/verbally (never physically) abusing her and I had a nervous breakdown on the forum and threatened to decorate her face with bullets. I was good at that forum for a while now everyone thinks I'm some kind of nutjob schizo predator.

I'm so scared and this is not even a joke anymore... I think I'm going to take the advice for once and seek some professional help because with the breakup and the drug binging and the fucked up thoughts, I am getting worse and worse each year and I'm terrified...

I will stick around if anyone has any advice, but I'm just done guys. I'm done with this bullshit, I have a fucked up life and I need some expert help from intelligent people... it has nothing to do with posting here, but my posts here are a good indication of how I'm doing... when I'm posting like this, that means reality is so bad that I can't even bring myself to conceal it...

But I don't want this to be my reality anymore. I want my reality to be normal and positive. I hope my life changes for the better, because I really want it to.

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Originally posted by trancechan go to 4chan; be amongst your kind. (see you there)

oh ok

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Originally posted by Akridrot There IS something wrong with me, and I want there to stop being something wrong with me, which is why I find the insulting and flaming pointless. I probably do need professional help, but not simple therapy. This is something far more complex than that. I've actually been sent to a psychiatric hospital before in an ambulance for my mental problems. I went to get an STD test and while talking, I told the lady about the things I wanted to do to people and she immediately left the room and didn't come back for like 5 minutes. Then I see two big paramedics come in and she steps back out and calmly tells me "It's ok. Don't be afraid, they are here to help you. You need help." and later on I found out that I was labeled an E.D.P. or Emotionally Disturbed Person. They thought I was going to be a danger to myself and others. My thoughts were so disturbing that I was seen by two different psychiatrists and both of them told me that I needed advanced therapy because I'm cognizant of how messed up I am but not completely in control. That's the reason I post fucked up shit all the time, I can't control myself. It's not to say I'm intelligent, just intelligent enough to be completely aware of my illness and intelligent enough to conceal it for the most part. But not intelligent enough to get rid of it on my own. I am literally NOT in full control because if I was I would never post most of the shit that I do. The psychiatrists told me that I needed things like group therapy and art therapy and that I should stay for a long time because I was intelligent enough to hide my problems (but only temporarily, only sometimes, never all the time) and cases like me are harder to work with because for some fucked up reason I intentionally hold on to the disturbed part of my psyche and nurture it and it keeps growing and growing and I'll never be fucking normal at this rate. Even the fucking psychiatrists told me that I needed more help than they were able to give. Why did they say that? Because I kept playing stupid fucking mindgames with them and I even asked one of them if her pussy was wet and if she wanted to molest me. I am not in control... and this is extremely upsetting. Even the fucking psychiatrists think I'm supremely fucked up, she was visibly disturbed by what I was saying and I think she was even angry at me for playing games with her. I fucking hate myself sometimes. Why couldn't I have been born normal?!?!? WHY COULDN'T I HAVE BEEN BORN NORMAL LIKE EVERYONE ELSE?! Even recently, I was permabanned from a forum that my ex posted on because she told them about how I was psychologically/verbally (never physically) abusing her and I had a nervous breakdown on the forum and threatened to decorate her face with bullets. I was good at that forum for a while now everyone thinks I'm some kind of nutjob schizo predator. I'm so scared and this is not even a joke anymore... I think I'm going to take the advice for once and seek some professional help because with the breakup and the drug binging and the fucked up thoughts, I am getting worse and worse each year and I'm terrified... I will stick around if anyone has any advice, but I'm just done guys. I'm done with this bullshit, I have a fucked up life and I need some expert help from intelligent people... it has nothing to do with posting here, but my posts here are a good indication of how I'm doing... when I'm posting like this, that means reality is so bad that I can't even bring myself to conceal it... But I don't want this to be my reality anymore. I want my reality to be normal and positive. I hope my life changes for the better, because I really want it to.

If you're serious in saying all that, I actually wish you the best of luck. Professional help and/or care may be something you could greatly benefit from.

you could always hang out with ********.

I am serious. I'm looking for social support groups in my area, and I'm researching options for therapy and rehabilitation. I'm thinking of joining some volunteer groups just so I can learn how to socialize more. I'm going to try have a normal life outside the internet and I hope I learn a lot as I go along.

I'm starting to realize that I can probably make a lot of friends by just joining hobbyist groups and going to events so I'm going to do that. There are a lot of ways to meet new people, and I feel a bit embarrassed that it's taken this long for me to get the motivation to join these places, but better late than never.

This is mostly a personal thing, and I do think it's going to result in a drastic reduction of forum/internet activity. Not because I post here a lot (I don't), but because I'll be busy, happy and socializing with people even if they're not exactly who I want them to be (and I don't think I want to hang out with repeats of my high school friends... I think I want to mature).

I feel like I want to start seriously applying myself and I guess that's going to show when I start posting here again. I want to improve and become a skilled person with something to offer every community that I'm a part of (not just this one) instead of retarded, random bullshit.

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Originally posted by l�cid you could always hang out with ********.

ha, i was thinking about that while writing the post... this place attracts a lot of crazies

I'm sure ******** and you would make an amazing pair, walls of text 24/7 on TA about shit nobody cares about

Amazing.

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Originally posted by Amduscias I'm sure ******** and you would make an amazing pair, walls of text 24/7 on TA about shit nobody cares about Amazing.

would they send pic messages of their fat too? holding their junk, etc...etc...

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Originally posted by tubularbills would they send pic messages of their fat too? holding their junk, etc...etc...

it is a possibility yes

gay bars. for real

even if youre straight you'll meet more of the friendliest deviants and wierdos you can throw a stick at.

watch out for the crackheads and tricks tho

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Originally posted by Q5echo gay bars. for real even if youre straight you'll meet more of the friendliest deviants and wierdos you can throw a stick at. watch out for the crackheads and tricks tho

If he goes that route hes gonna have to wear steel undies

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