Why do you do this to yourself? (attn: hard rollers)
I am a true techno (mainly trance) music fan and really don't really need anything kind of brain candy to enjoy the beats. I do, however, enjoy the occasional roll once in a while, maybe 2 or 3 times a year. I often go to shows, clubs or after hours clubs without any toxins whatsoever.
This past saturday, I went to a rave with a friend of mine, and we both took a few pills of E, and danced the night away. When 9 AM came around, I decided to draw the line, pack things up and go home. She stayed and said not to worry about her and that she was gonna stick around a bit longer. I never heard from her all day sunday. I get to work this monday morning to see my light flashing on my phone, telling me I have voicemail. It was her almost crying on the phone, she was coming down, and was depressed as fuck, almost crying, asking me to please call her back.
I called her up, and to my surprise, she had just gotten home. She went to another after hour bar that opened up that morning, then to another sunday night. she hadn't slept since friday night, and had done E, mesc, coke just a "bit" of speed.
She confessed to me that while living in spain last summer she had once popped eight pills within a couple of hours, and a bunch of other declarations which I don't feel like getting into. She felt all depressed and said just wanted to hear my voice to make her feel better.
I tried my best to comfort her, but I told her she's going to have to change her lifestyle, cuz this shit is getting all fucked up.
Thing is see, is that I know there's a ton of people out there that do this, but I really can't understand why. Why not draw the line sooner. Personally, I think rolling all night kicks your body's ass, as it takes like two full days for me to "fully recover" and be back to normal again. I can't even begin to imagine what it would be like after a 4 or 5 day bender. Also, what about the long term effects? We all know that shit will dumb you the fuck up, right?
I also personally believe that in moderation, drugs like these aren't that bad. Moderation also enables you to enjoy it more, because you're not always fucking high and it becomes a special occasion.
I don't really know why I'm writing this, I think it's just that I'm sad to see so many people I know destroy their bodies, their future and their careers, all over a stupid little pill.
I'd like to hear your thoughts on this subject, especially for those of you who are anything like my friend described above...
M
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"Some animals quietly relax and doze in the sun; others find prolonged
inactivity increasingly difficult to accept. If you are an inmate of the human
zoo, you inevitably belong to this second category." - Desmond Morris "The Human Zoo"
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