On a serious note, and this isn't meant to be a self-pity thread, but are there any recovering alcoholics/drug addicts on TA. For those of you that feel comfortable talking about it, feel free....give me ur thoughts, or how lifes been. I myself have been a recovering pothead for a bit now. I've smoked greens for about 5 years, and recently layed there in bed and asked myself, what have I become, and there is definitely something missing in my life. I love to party, and I am not anti-weed, I think it's a great plant, once you overdo it though, u really feel the effects. The problem for me is, I couldnt express my feelings, I would get frustrated real easily, and that built alot of anger and seclusion from people. THe feelings that I once had, which came with daily tasks were just gone, that's when I had to quit. I became this 2dimensional person, who didnt give a shit about anything around him, or people. I became emotionless and cold....the only thing that mattered to me was getting high. You know the warm fuzzy feelings u get or certain emotions that come over you, well that was gone, I didn't know what it meant to feel alive, I walked around like a zombie...I don't know I love to blaze, but I think the joy of life outweighs being high. My head has been in the clouds for like a good couple of years, I haven't been really clearheaded in a long time, I haven't done anything in like 3 months now, and I can't believe how vivid life is. It's everywhere around u too, u go to parties and people are having sessions, so I try and just have beers...anyone have similar ordeals?

Ive been trying to quit cold turkey for a while now....


but im smoking a bowl right now! Gzus...

you know, one good thing i did though was quitting ciggies........ thank God i stopped smoking those dirty bastards.

they sucked and messed me up.


slowly ive been cutting bakc on weed, but i have not been able to say Goodbye to it completely.

its so hard.


and my GF smokes now!.........i have to toke with her, y'know? Ive never done it.......

GArrrr there's just so many "reasons" and "events" to keep going for.........


makes me shed a soft tear...


*toke*

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lol, ur funny man.. i know exactly what you mean, you're just so used to being high, when you're on a comedown for more than a few days it just doesnt feel right, it's like somethings missing. Yea, weed is awesome, but I just didnt' know what it meant to love people and the emotions that came with it. I started to space myself from others, because I became paranoid. It's still hard now as I sit here, i reminisce of the days when I would milk 6 foot tubes.

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Originally posted by Mr. Pink Ive been trying to quit cold turkey for a while now.... but im smoking a bowl right now! Gzus... you know, one good thing i did though was quitting ciggies........ thank God i stopped smoking those dirty bastards. they sucked and messed me up. slowly ive been cutting bakc on weed, but i have not been able to say Goodbye to it completely. its so hard. and my GF smokes now!.........i have to toke with her, y'know? Ive never done it....... GArrrr there's just so many "reasons" and "events" to keep going for......... makes me shed a soft tear... *toke*

Ja. I had to give up smoking cigs because i had this flem build up in the back of my throat that i could never seem to clear. It's good that I quite. I got my sense of smell back. I don't think my gf will ever quit though.

unfortunately weed phucks my throat worse than cigs

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Yeah dude seriously, i mean,.......lets be honest here a bit:


I was a mega pothead for my sophmore and junior years of college. I mean, my friends (even ones that didnt smoke) didnt know me as being sober. I was high 24/7 for 2years straight almost.

meh, i liked it lmao!

and i met a lot of people! And i went to a lot of parties...
hell i lived a good life.


but now im working and taking more classes, and i realize a need to be responsible...

but i know theres stil that pothead in me, that when i do get the opportunity to smoke..........I hit that shit like its never been hit, and i pack that shit so full it overflows.......and the party i slike ".......woah"

done, over...


but im trying biznatch lol

im trying!

*ill be fine soon, i know it.......im still feeling young, and thats the issue*

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I hit that shit like its never been hit, and i pack that shit so full it overflows.......and the party i slike ".......woah"

lolol, you pretty much said it man, the times when you would limit yourself to a small bowl right, but then that small bowl ended up falling out of the actual bowl

Not ever having even tried drugs I can't exactly know what you're going through, but I know from what people I know have told me that once you get a little too used to it, it can be really hard to stop. It's good that you're both trying to quit, that stuff can mess you up.

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I'm just a pot head...though if I needed to, I'd stop, it's not hugely great, but it helps me get through the week. I don't consider myself an addict... I like hallucinogens occasionally too.

I have a few friends who are recovering heroin, meth, and coke/crack addicts, and a few who still do this stuff.

yeah i need to cut down on weed too. i smoke it all the time. school is comming around and when i blaze i have NO motivation..so im gunna seriously cut down. at the beginning of 2004 i did way to much E...i started getting these weird headaches and i saw flashes in my vision..there would just be white flashes. it started happening for about a month after i would roll.. weird shit..
so i wouldnt call my self an addict..but i do smoke alot of weed...so maybe =S

there used to be tons of kids i would chill with in my class who did crack/coke, tons of speed, meth, heroin, etc. i knew this one girl who would do lines when she asked to go to the bathroom, at lunch, break, etc. lol

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