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sometimes when i'm not motivated enough, i look to god, and jesus helps me along the way.........
ok, but seriously, heheh, i am the poster-boy for lack of motivation. I got you ALL beat. Brandon, i had the EXACT same problem in high school..... shit i had senioritis as a sophomore!! i actually had dropped out for a month of my senior year due to my senioritis. But my parents begged the school to let me back in after i left, and they somehow convinced me to stay at least the rest of the year.
It really pissed me off how the guidance councilors kept telling you "don't worry if you dont' know what you want to do with your life, you have plenty of time to decide..." blah blah! That's BS! I'm 23 and have no job, no diploma (from a college, although several random years at 6 different universities/colleges), and NO idea of what i want to do. I'm also turning lazy. I've had random jobs since i was 15, almost worked straight through till now. Recently i just CAN'T get up to go out and get a job - too friggin lazy. I just don't feel like it. I have ADD as well, so it was always really hard for me to concentrate in school. I was on ritalin for awhile, but that shit got expensive and so did seeing psychiatrists to get it prescribed.
Whats' this have to do with anything you ask? well, i guess the truth be told i never was really motivated. I took the wrong way out - i told myself that if i completed what had to be done, i'd buy myself that thing i'd want...... whether it be a CD, record, table, speakers, whatever..... but i was so bad, i went out and bought that thing whether i completed the task or not.
I want to say that lack of motivation is directly resulted in how you are brought up, (some parents being more strict on kids, etc.... some kids that are "proper" just have NO problem being motivated to do stuff - doesn't mean they're happy though....), but then i realized that almost EVERYONE has a period of no motivation in their life. I think its just part of growing up. Its a trying time that you have to deal with yourself, and try to figure out. The only slight of motivation i had all my life was looking towards the end..... I was motivated to finish that one class of Anatomical Physics in college (BORING!) because i had "only 3 weeks left"..... or i was motivated to stick out the Psychology class because "christmas break was in 2 weeks", etc...... I found myself always looking forward to the end of everything. this was the only way that actually worked for me..... until a year ago when i finally said "f#ck it!" and just dropped out of everything.
I regret my decisions 100% d00d. If i could i would start all over from when i was 18, would have enrolled in a college proper and pursued it and TRIED hard to pass. You want motivation? Look at me and my life. I'm probably going to be one of those 28 year old guys who mops the floor in your college at night. It sucks being 23 and having no direction, no desire, no work, and no motivation.
I'm not stressing about it though. As everyone else said, NOT stressing about it is the key. That's why i'm not depressed or anything. you just got to shrug it off and say "f#ck it!! I'll live each day at a time, and do what i have to do!" that works in the chillax department. And like was mentioned earlier, when you get projects, if you do the bulk of them the DAY they are assigned, you feel so good about yourself the next 2 weeks until its due. It feels like a giant weight is off your shoulders. ....... Man i miss that feeling.
Anyways, don't do what i did 
-ABT-
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Peace.
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