Its been while since ive been online , due to BT exchange sever problems, anyways , as you may or maynot know i have recently ended a long term relationship for many reasons, we didn't fall out or cheat, we both thought it was not going to well in the last few months, being separated has played a big part on my emotions , instead of picking my g/f up from work , going out, chilling and love making etc my weekly routine has changed and i hate it until weekend comes , it feels awful as there is something missing and i get these 'gulp' feelings like have i done the right thing. I know i aint gonna get back with her, as i don't think it would feel right, i work 5 days in an office and the days go so slow and theres nothing else to think about, but you know what. I find that music helps me but music also reminds me of my x, what things do you do to get your mind of things as i can feel this guilt and anxiety feeling.

Chrz RzR.

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