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god, dont give people that advice. wait till you stop taking it and realize how fucked up your seratonin and dopeamine levels are.
aplz: you could say i have a type of anxiety disorder... i get anxiety attacks. they are directly a result of my seratonin and dopeamine levels being fucked up, because of my several years of mdma usage. i have tried taking different kinds of medication for this, including lithium, buspar, and recently, risperdal (tho i have to stop taking that too, because its making me shaky and feeling ill in the mornings).
you really need to see a doctor. just because you are depressed, doesnt mean you suffer from clinical depression. for example, i get REALLY low and REALLY high at different times... again, being caused by how fucked up my seratonin and dopeamine levels are. but its more like, major mood swings, not necessarily always wanting to die. i used to be quite suicidal when i was 15/16, i was diagnosed with BPD.. not depression. i dunno, just goes to show you that you might not be suffering from what you think you are at first glance.
regardless, a doctor could help you a lot more than we can. there are all kinds of medications and all kinds of diagnoses. i wouldnt go into it with an attitude like "im depressed, heres the medication i want to try"... instead, tell him/her your symptoms, and they can help you out. also please keep in mind that the first thing you try, might not help out right away... and even if it does, it might be a mild help that takes awhile to really do anything. and no matter what, please remember that just a medication wont cure your problems. if you want to start being happy, you will probably have to start changing your attitude about life, or your habits, as well. there really is no such thing as a happy pill which changes your life instantaneously.
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