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Okay, that does sound very familiar to a close friend of my wife's, especially the comdown and terrible Tuesday's part. It was living hell for her to even be around her, let alone listen to her crying and anger over the phone during that comedown week. Then of course we'd all be up and ready by Friday to do all that shit all over again, but that's another topic and one that doesn't need to be rehashed.
My thought here is that you are more affected by this than the "average" user, I guess you can say. And the fact that you mentioned that depression symptoms were occurring prior to usage also tipped me off. I think you are doing the right thing in talking to a therapist. I'm somewhat curious as to which way he wants you to go: if it's a psychiatrist you will immediately be put on anti-depression meds., but a psychologist will try to assess without meds first (usually).
Listen, you're not going to get sound advice from anyone on this board, and I think deep down you know that. Deep down I also tend to believe you're intelligent and smart enough to know that this is, unfortunately, a personal decision; one that no one can make for you. Personally, I just don't believe in meds., because I tend to think our society has depended on prescription drugs way way WAY too much. Personally, I believe our pharmaceudical companies have done a genius of a job on our culture, creating a smokescreen to the people and bribing the doctors by putting money in their wallets and convincing them to push pills on the masses, effectively creating a prescription drug-dependent society. Antibiotic resistance is a beautiful example. As a chem. engineer, I'm sure you're at least a little aware of this, which might be why you're questioning it a little bit as opposed to running up to the counter to fill up your Prosac prescription. What's worse, you'll likely be taking these things for life, because for many folks weening off these anti-depressive meds. is simply impossible. Plus there really haven't been any real longitudinal studies on these meds (like over 25 years), because they're still fairly new.
But at the same time, I haven't walked in your shoes, nor anyone else who's undergoing depression of any sort, and I can't undermine the blessing of anti-depression meds. have done for them. To be that depressed to the point of interferring with your daily life, work, and well-being, and to have a medicine available that can turn your outlook around is quite tempting - and I admit I would be very tempted to do it if the tables were turned on me. But as I said before, this is a personal decision for you. If I were to give any advice, I would say work with your therapist and explore all non-medication avenues first. I don't know if you exercise, but I do know that this does increase your dopamine levels and enhance the creation of seratonin from 5-htp as well as other body chemicals (okay, I might be talking a little out of my ass here, but bare with me...). But hey, if all else fails, you need to do what's best for you, and if that involves meds., then so be it.
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Whence September dusk grows crisper still,
with leaves all crimson conquered,
I yearn to shout,
and dance about,
and stick pickles in my honker...
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