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Now I'm properly awake i'll finish mine off
Aged 8 I finished all the 7-11 year old books in the school, and basically went onto adult ones & got bored in the end.
I was also 2nd best in maths in the school in year 5, with only my mate in year 6 being any better, we'd do 'speed tests' where u got100 sums and had 10 minutes to do it, I managed 2 minutes 12 once, he'd get like 2 minutes 2 which is still a school record.
I never really connected with too many people as I was a bit different, I found music & maths easy but was picked on cos of my food allergies including once being forcefed by the teacher (paul lane his name was) who was like 20 stone & out of shape, yet had goes at me for being slightly lacking in stamina back then. I also was really into computer games & the teachers from all classes used to call on me to help which made ppl jealous, in a way jealousy was sadly the spice of life
Moving onto secondary school, I never really fit in with many of the guys, only some lots on & off, guys who were jealous of me used to try show me up, but I was good at maths until algebra came into it & equations & stuff & I began to receed, in year 9 I got level 8 sats, but only got a E in the gcse due to missing an exam though illness, but i'll go there in a sec.
I was always popular with the girls as a friend, someone they could talk to about boys & know it was in confidence, so it's kinda like that now even here, im close to jolz, eleni, leeann, toni, julie & many many more, just how I've always been
I was never good at sciences, I couldn't hold things steady & found it all boring apart from astronomy. Still draw paint & colour in to a 6 year old level, and my writing was poor due to stubby fingers & arthritis in the family which means i can't always grip a pen for an hour straight at a time, cos it'd hurt me a lot. Couldn't do wood or metal work, my nana always did the sewing (teacher thought i was good lmao, i once didn't plug the pedal in to get out of doing it myself in lesson so she sent the machine off to be fixed) and was really creative in cooking, way above most other ppl.
In gcse years i was in the top set at maths but demoted for a) throwing a chair at the teacher who refused to help me when i started to struggle mentally, just after my grandad had died, I kinda went downhill from there. I was top set English, and although quiet at times could come into my element. I took art & fucked around cos the music dept wouldn't buy synths & decks & stuff (i tried my best)
I was dropped into set 6 out of 8 for science as i grew poorer at it, also i found biology icky. I was top set at business studies, german, and even stayed after school for french gcse as my timetable was full, plus it was me + 6 cute girls and looked good on my roa. Due to a short attention span coupled with finding a lot of the work too easy, I began to not bother & got worse & worse, funny classes included IT where it was 18 lads who all had a big laugh, Food cos i melted & blew up a lot of things & business cos it was just funny with the teacher who was 24 & she related to us in things, which helped a lot.
However come year 11 stress was getting to me & in the end tbf i bottled, I lost it, bigtime, in 5 months of being off sick, no1 even phoned me to see if i was ok or came round & I became bitter & resentful, suspicious of people & motives, wondering what they were saying about me, and bullied a lot, and in the end i shut myself away to what I am now, I dont know how to get out of this mess, I don't know if i will, but some of the guys here have put faith in me & I owe it to them to at least try
Edit - I'm always slightly deaf to voices at times & tones, and i always talk 'loud' even tho i don't think i am. anyway thats enough rambling, but i guess u could say im a genious gone troubled, my IQ is terrible now, and im receeding a lot to what I was, amazing what confidence adds to u, and u dont realise til its gone
Edit 2 - I think losing my grandad was the hardest, as he was the only male roldemodel I have, my 'dad' is a twat, doesn't care, consistantly puts me down & makes me miserable, and is only my dad in dna tbh, he loves my bro cos he's at university, and i think losing the male rolemodel just scarred me a lot, esp cos my grandad was so good, like a dad brother & best friend, and the only male to ever stick up for me
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