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screw this world and everyone in it
Hi all,
You might remember me from awhile ago when I posted a more tamed thread regarding my situation with Sarah and Jenna and what I should do about my funk with a formal dance and a potential Valentine's Day date. Well, the only reason this thread is titled the way it is is because of problems with Sarah, so you can turn away if you want to since I don't really want to destroy the world, I'm just angry right now and drinking and smoking.
Long story short, I started dating Sarah on a regular basis, but in the past weeks or so she's been sort of cutting me out. No big deal, right?
Well anyway I told Sarah outright how I felt about her et cetera and she responded by telling me now that "You're wonderful...You're everything I want I just don't think it will work." She's been hanging out instead with my best friend, that fucking asshole, for the past two weeks practically everyday getting closer to him without me even knowing and neither of them ever told me and I was never clued into it until about an hour ago, after I call him and tell him how bummed I am because of it. How upsetting is that? I feel like destroying the planet. He's like "I'm really sorry...I was going to tell you sooner, I just didn't know how...If you don't want me to do it, I won't, I just want you to know that I do really like her though..." I'm so damn stupid. Why couldn't I see it if it was going on right beneath my fucking nose?
Yeah, I'm still in high school still, so you can right all this off as trivial but goddamn, I am so upset. It just makes me feel so inadequate and immature that I can't provide this girl, whom I really really like, with even a sparkle of fun, and I'm irked by the way she just softened the blow by lying and omitting critical information, my friend too. He's not a very good friend after all.
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If you choose to pull the trigger - should your drama prove sincere - do it somewhere far away from here.
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