what do u do abt those things u cant get rid of but slow u down when ur trying chasing a goal?


u know those things that make ur goal seem farther away then they really are?

fucking money

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Originally posted by Floorfiller fucking money

money aint an issue... money is the goal

well money is a means to doing a goal so in that sense it's a goal of its own, but i have more goals in life then just to make money...

My dad controlling me.
Hes been in Ireland for a week, hes about an hour away from home now, just called him to see where he was and he started shouting and swearing at me. I have felt great and happy and joyful all weekend (I have been suffering from depression for 2 years) and now after a 3 minute conversation i feel like a pile of worthless shit!
I mean im 19 for fuck sake, why does he have so much control over how i feel. I wanna get to the top my way, and not play by his rules!

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My major goal is to spell the word "you" (<---copyed and pasted), but my mongyness is just holding me down

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U was 19 when u was working in that cafe u was working at.

SEE!

Be ruthless, you have your goal set people or certain situations are the obsticles you'll have to contend with and even if they seem to you their difficult, bigger, smarter & tougher just trample over them.

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Originally posted by Vivid Boy what do u do abt those things u cant get rid of but slow u down when ur trying chasing a goal? u know those things that make ur goal seem farther away then they really are?

teh moment you give it a thought, you lose sight of your goal.




i once had a frnd who was in the brink of becoming a partner in a major firm and all tht stopped him was his past and his frnds from his past, like me.




he ditched em all to make the money. i dont blame him..cuz we all eventually arrive there at some point and we take the same decision, no matter what our character is.



i dont respect him now. but some man doesnt respect me now. its even.

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Any crew ? Negative.

my parents slow me down actually... i live at home and we have a great relationship... i eat dinner with them almost every night, help cook and help mom around the house, etc... i'm forever indebt/grateful to them bc they paid for my car + ins + undergrad tuition + grad tuition and everything else..no rent, dont pay for food, no laundry.. since i'm the baby i guess they want me to stay as long as possible.. with the cost of living in the NJ/NY area, i think i will be staying at least another 3 years til i finish grad school.

anyway, so basically from this, my belief is that i should and must pay my dues and live under their rules and not make them angry since they have done and are doing so much for me and to italians parents, being grateful is living at home and eating dinner with them every night lol. on one hand they are helping me towards my goal by paying for grad school and living costs but on the other hand, they sometimes hamper what i truly want to do.

the only thing they really get mad at me for is 1> my spending habits (i never ask them for money bc i have a good job but i do have a few grand in credit card bills-- nothing big at all but still, i dont save money and living w/ the rents should allow me Not to have more than 1k in cc bills i think) and 2> traveling..i really want to travel more but they want me to save my money and they get mad that i want to go to places like australia (where my dad lived for a long time) and south africa, egypt, nepal, etc... at first i think: i'm 23, i should be able to go where i want. my parents are always worried sick and make me feel guilty when i'm romping around europe or whatever with friends or solo.. 3> relationships i'm sort of in a long distance relationship and they're constantly making me feel uncomfortable/guilty about it because my 1st/previous LD relationship didn't work out (obv.) they think i'm just repeating my mistakes- how can i defend myself? and i know i will have to lock horns with them when i tell i'll be going to deutschland in another month or whenever and i hate to do that bc i hate the drama and i look like an idiot if i say "but this time it's different"...of course it's all the same to them.

so basically i make a lot of "big deal" decisions based on whether they'll be mad at me or not.. sometimes i get mad @ myself bc i want to live my own life and travelling is my favorite thing to do in the whole world...but then i realize that i fuking hate making them uncomfortable or angry and i should obey the parental units til i move out at least.. :/



edit: sorry for making all your eyes bleed.

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Laziness.

drugs, apathy

other than that, i'm good

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Originally posted by josh4 i say fuck you then jerk off on them

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