As an adult, all the friends I make are nowhere near as cool as my high school friends. It's actually harder for me to make good friends as an adult than it was for me to make friends as a teen.

I can still make friends, but they're not the type of friends I want. I want to make friends with deviants and weirdos, and it's like I can't detect the deviants and weirdos anymore because they've all become so good at hiding it. And I'm too scared to be the way I was in high school, because I'm only a timid weirdo. Not an alpha weirdo.

In high school, me and my group of friends would appear normal on the outside, but we were incredibly fucked up and disturbed with mental problems. But were normal.

I need a group of people like that again. How do I make friends with normal people so that I can sift through them to find the weird, sick, disturbed friends I need?

You're all just as fucked up and crazy as I am, but everyone's really good at hiding it. I just want to joke about messed up shit with people, to be honest. Dark sense of humor.

Not sick all the time. Any help? I'M TIRED OF HAVING NORMAL FRIENDS!~

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"If she's old enough to crawl, she's already in position." -- Pedobear

Body language and non-verbal communication are my biggest weak points.

How do I laugh and smile even when I don't want to be around the people I'm with and I'm only "befriending" them just so I can have access to certain resources? How do I lie with my face and body? How do I fake smiling and hide my constant depression?

I don't know how to genuinely convince people that I like them when I don't actually like them?

Edit: I want people who I can truly be myself with. But this is an extremely difficult thing to find.

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"If she's old enough to crawl, she's already in position." -- Pedobear

Retarded.

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Originally posted by Sushipunk Retarded.

I fucking admit, ok! I am retarded at socializing. I fucking suck at life, but I'm trying to fix that.

Lay off my case, because what the fuck is calling me a retard going to do when I already admitted that I'm a retard and that I want to change? Fuck you. You don't help. you're just as retarded.

The internet is literally the only place where things like this can be openly discussed, and for that, I am grateful. I don't personally know any of you people and that is a wonderful thing.

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I'm just sick of all your shit threads. It's my standard reply to anything you post here.

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Originally posted by Akridrot we were incredibly fucked up and disturbed with mental problems.

No shit.

My answer? Same as it has always been: professional help. However, you still don't seem to be able to comprehend that, so I'm just going to side with Stu on the 'retard' comment until you can prove otherwise.

ask them when they'll let you tap that.

I don't know a single person who wants to be like they were in high school.

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wait, you live in NY and have this problem?

dude, i live in the fucking middle of northwest oklahoma; and i STILL have friends. granted not many, but even in this po-dunk POS town, i still have managed to have a couple of friends at work. and even some down in the city.

how the fuck can you live in a metropolis and not make friends? there HAS to be something wrong with you.

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Originally posted by Akridrot Edit: I want people who I can truly be myself with. But this is an extremely difficult thing to find.

You post a lot of stupid shit, but this bit deserves a serious response. I have plenty of friends, including some very good ones, but I've never found what you're looking for.

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