This story may turn out to be quite long in the end, but if you do start reading it, please finish reading it. Thanks.



Note: This is a true story of how I became a DL. However all the information is only from my memory so there could be some things I can't remember so well anymore. I'll try to keep it as true as possible.



I'm 18, will be 19 in December. I've had an absolutely normal boy life. I was wearing diapers till I was 3 at the age of 4-6 I liked to watch other mommies change their babies' diapers. Then during my school up till grade 7 I completely forgot about diapers. Then at the age of 10-11 (in 8th grade) I was once visiting my cousin. She had one of those baby doll that you feed, dress etc. I was playing with her one afternoon and as she was taking off the dolls clothes I noticed a Pampers diaper on the dolls bottom. I suddenly felt a great memory from the past years of me liking diapers come back to me. But I didn't know what that feeling was up until recent days. I asked her if when she's done playing with her doll if I could play with if as well. She didn't say anything and so the second that she left the room I took the diaper and put it slowly on the baby doll. I was so excited about the whole experience that as soon as we got back home I asked my mom if she could by me some of those doll diapers as well. She didn't say anything. I then found out that I had a teddy bear that had the perfect waist size to put those doll diapers on. At first I just liked to put the dry diapers on and off of my teddy bear.



But that soon wasn't enough for me. I once even stole a doll diaper from my friends' sister. She didn't find out luckily. During the next years there have always been times when I forgot about liking diapers. Then when I was about 14 I noticed one as I was buying stuff in the store that had really cheap diapers in the shelf in the L size. I was really tempted to buy a pack, but I didn't have enough money to afford them. So the next day I went back to the store any bought one pack of 14 or so diapers. I was really nervous and sweaty as I came to the cashier. The woman just looked at me, suspicion on her face, but said nothing. I ran out of the store and stopped about a 100m away to breathe a bit. There was some construction going on nearby and I couldn't take all the diapers back home, because my parents would definitely notice. I didn't have any place to hide them from them. So I tore of the plastic cover and pulled out about 10 of the diapers and threw them on a pile of rubble and covered them with anything I could find. What a waste! L



So I came back home all sweaty. And you know what you have to do when you're nervous? I really had to pee. And I could't think of a better thing to do. I look at myself in my room and pulled out the 5 diapers from the pack. I put 4 of them behind my underwear pile, pulled down my pants and boxers. Now I was literally peeing in my pants but I kept it in a second longer. I only managed to put the diaper on, lie down in my bed and let it go.

It was the most beautiful feeling I'd ever experienced. The diaper became so bulky on warm as it absorbed the urine. We all know the feeling, right? J From then on I went back to the store and bought a pack of those cheap diapers once in a while. But about a year later the diapers suddenly disappeared from the isle! I was shocked by it. I couldn't afford the huggies and plus there were too many diapers in them anyway. So I was forced to compensate my growing urge for diapers by going on the web and looking up babies, people in diapers and pretty much anything that had to do with nappies or diapers. At first I was very excited about all those pictures and videos of people with diapers and diapers. Then I started reading different articles about diapering and diaper changes in general. There was nothing much in any of them that I was looking for and so my diaper urge started to fade away after a while again.



JUST TO LET YOU WHO ARE READING THIS KNOW I WASN'T AWARE OF DL/AB AT THAT TIME WHAT SO EVER



It was not until about a year ago that, as I was browsing through articles on the web, I came across an article at pull-ups.com I was simply fascinated by the reviews and problems that parents have to face when they toilet train their children. From then on I've been coming back to pull-ups.com reading the new reviews as they are posted. The only thing I disliked about the articles was the shortness of them. But then one afternoon this long article caught my attention. I have posted it here for you to read it yourselves:



Janie does go potty, just not always. She has never been night trained so we have to put her in a diaper (size 6 pampers because pull=ups leak at night) when she goes to bed. There are days (usually 2 out of 7) where she wakes up dry but she won't go to the potty when she wakes up. Like this morning, for example, she came down to the kitchen for breakfast and I could tell she was still wearing her diaper. I figured she was wet and asked if she needed help changing and she said "nope I'm dry" so I asked if she went potty and she said "no I don't have to go." Now, I could tell she had to go because during breakfast she couldn't sit still...Needless to say, before she could finish her breakfast, she completely soaked her diaper...and a few minutes later she said "uh oh daddy I guess I did wet my diaper last night , cause now I feel wet." This isn't the first time she has done this. Just about every time she wakes up dry she will end up going in her diaper after she wakes up. I know what you're going to say..."stop giving her diapers at night." I'm sorry but that's not a solution. I cannot wash wet sheets/clothes every other day. I have tried waking her up at 4am to go pee, limiting fluids, nothing works. And this isn't the only issue. During the day I have to put her in pull-ups now because she's been having a lot of accidents...not sure if they are "accidents" though because sometimes I know she's aware of what she's doing. We went to the mall this afternoon to do some shopping... we're walking along, she's walking beside me and all of a sudden she stops and says "wait daddy I gotta pee." I'm thinking okay she wants me to take her to the bathroom... only to find out she's stopping and squatting to pee in her pull-up. She starts walking after a little while and says "come on daddy" and I said "I thought you had to pee" and she said rather proudly "I did!" So of course I ask her why she went in her pants and she said "cause daddy m wearing a pull-up it's okay to have a accident in them. " So I explain to her that it's not okay to purposely pee in them and she pouts and says "but daddy the potties here are icky... " I've been through this situation before. She almost never uses public bathrooms . She goes to kindergarten everyday wearing a pull-up. The teachers wont change her so by the end of the day when she gets home her pull up is about ready to burst... but she doesn't care. She'll just come home and say "daddy I'm wet I need a new pull-up." A friend of mine told me to let her sit in her soggy pull up so she'll get sick of the feeling...trust me, I've tried that. She will wet her pull up until it leaks and it won't discourage her from doing it...



After I finished reading it I was so excited about it that I immediately crawled into my bed and masturbated thinking only about pull-ups and diaper changing. I was in heaven as I said the quoted lines out loud while masturbating.



I am really proud of the fact that I have kept my DL "problem" sealed from everyone everywhere in my family and school etc. Nobody knows about my DL fetish. So from then on I stuck to this article whenever I masturbated and I still do. The only time I was ever caught with diapers was at my grand mother's house. She had a pharmacy where I'd always sneak into and smuggle out a diaper from a shelf and then put it on and pee into it. I once even pooped into it, that was when my granny mentioned a diaper in the garbage bin. I was so nervous, but I managed to stay quite calm and cool until she left and the matter somehow evaporated and was forgotten about. She'd just told me not to do it again. I was 15 at the time this happened, I was laughing at her in my mind at what she'd said. But let's now come back to more recent days.


UNTIL RECENTLY:



So about 4 months ago I started to search for the source of the great pleasure I felt when I read or saw anything about diapers. I started off with Infantilism on Wikipedia.com. I discovered that the urge I have is called DL/AB, that I mostly occurs with heterosexual males ( Which I am). I couldn't sleep for 3 nights, cause I was like so scared and disturbed at what I'd read and learned the day before. But after about a week this shock faded away and I started to accept my DL urge as it is, even though I was still frightened about it. But now I've really got into being a DL, cause after I discovered dailzdiapers.com and the wonderful community here I was relieved to know that I wasn't the only one with a DL/AB fetish. Since there aren't any stores where I could buy diapers for grown-ups, I'm using only pull-ups now, because they are the cheapest and prettiest diapers. I've had an experience with the medium size boy pull-ups and large size girl pull-ups. But since I've got a 33 inch waist, the medium pull-ups tore almost right away and it was a waist of money in a cense.



Then when I came back to TESCO again, I noticed that they were having a sale for large girl pull-ups! I couldn't believe my eyes! I immediately started to go through the pack of pull-ups and found one last pair of those cute girl pull-ups in the back of the shelf. I grabbed it and bought it right away. I knew my parents weren't at home so I headed back as quickly as possible. As I got home, I took of my pants and tore off the plastic rapping of the pull-ups pack and pulled out a wonderful cuddly pull-up, smelled the awesome babyish smell inside the pull-up and started to pull it on. It fit me almost like normal underwear, only it didn't go all the way up to cover my butt. I didn't care at all, because my penis fit inside just fine and that was all that mattered to me! Once I'd used all of them up (It took me about a week, because I used 2 pull-ups a day and there are 15 in the pack) I took a break for about a month and then I just couldn't hold on any longer without those beautiful girlie designs and the warm feeling of pee against my crotch.



So today I went to TESCO again, only to find that the sale was over and they had no more large size girlie pull-ups anymore! Man I was furious! I went down the street and I saw a drugstore down the road. At first I didn't want to go inside seeing all those women. I felt weird about buying girl pull-ups myself, you could say I was even worried at the looks of the women in the store. But I gathered my courage and went in. They had only two remaining packs of large size girl pull-ups, no L size boy pull-ups, unfortunately. So didn't hesitate and bought them. They were quite expensive this time, but I had enough money so I didn't care. About a week or so ago I came to the end of my wiggly girl pull-ups. I haven't bought any more since, because I don't have enough money at the time (I'm a student, don't have a job, so the only was for me to acquire cash is when my parents sometimes give me some money and I save up for pull-ups).



Well this is my personal story of how I became a DL, my life with diapers (more recently pull-ups) and how I cope with my DL fetish. Please note that I explicitly view myself as a DL, I have NO desires to act or be an AB!



Still nobody in my family knows about it and I intend to keep it that way. My parents must NEVER find out about my DL fetish.



I am afraid what'll happen when they do" I guess I will be broken when they find out"



Pull-ups guy

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Yeah this is a thing that thinged once. And for all.


And forever.

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Originally posted by Sushipunk

seriously

Should never have started on the female pull ups , you may be on a slippery slope there, bud.

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Got my self one of those Anti-Bullying wristbands.....stole it from a fat kid.x

quote:

Originally posted by clay story needs a summary and terminology. what the hell is a dl and a ap?

It is the human condition. It is fragile beauty.

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Reizo smirked into the kiss as Inari groaned when in inserted the 2nd finger. However, when he entered the 3rd finger, he tried his hardest not to make it more painful for Inari as he stiffened in pain.
He began to pump them into the virgin hole as he felt the muscles loosen slightly, only to tighten back up again as he pumped into it. Reizo groaned his name as Inari took his length into his mouth after pulling away from the kiss. He could only get half of him in his mouth, but it still felt amazing. As soon as Inari deep throated him, Reizo let out a loud moan and wrapped his free hand into the man’s long purple hair and pushed his head down onto him. As Inari groaned, and continued to deep throat him, Reizo came into his mouth, moaning his name as he did so. Breathing hard as he rode out his orgasm, Reizo let go of Inari’s head but brought a lock of his incredibly long hair up to his face, enjoying the smell and silky smoothness of it. His hair is so soft… But damn, that mouth of his is amazing. I cant wait to see what his other hole feel like around my dick.
After coming into his mouth, Reizo brought Inari back up to him and kissed him, tasting himself as he did. He hadn’t been able to continue to pump when Inari moved to pleasure him, and so he resumed, using 3 digits to pump his, once again tight hole. Then a thought came to his mind.
“Inari? Am I the first male you’ve been with?” Reizo rasped, still a tad short of breath from his climax, as he lifted the man’s chin to gaze into his half-lidded dark purple eyes. (is it right this time! =P)
Reizo continued to pump his fingers in and out of Inari’s hole until he felt the muscles completely relax enough that he wouldn’t as much pain for Inari when he finally took him.
“I’m sorry, but this is going to hurt, but the pain will go away soon. I promise.” Reizo whispered comfortingly into Inari’s ear and he positioned the man above him so that he could enter him.
“I’ll try to take it slow and gentle for a while.” Reizo said, pushing the tip of his member into Inari’s hole, which tightened immediately around his girth causing him to groan.
He slowly lowered Inari onto him, one hand on his waist, the other on his ass to support him. It was agonizingly slow to him, but he didn’t want to hurt his soon-to-be lover. Once he was mostly in him, he slowly pulled back out, ignoring any protests Inari might have made, though he couldn’t particularly hear him for being to focused on controlling himself.
This time he pushed into him a little faster and continued doing this, getting closer to the base of his shaft each time.


Inari smiles as the male bucked his hips into his strokes ‘Good, I’m doing something right. After this session, I may just accept men as my cust-’ his thoughts, once more, interrupted when the male kissed him then shoved three finger in his mouth. He took his wrist with his free hand and sucked on each finger lightly before the male took it away. The hand that kept stroking the large member squeezed slightly as he felt a finger around his hole then into it. His muscle’s contracted around the one finger but soon relaxed after awhile. A deep gasp came from Inari as another finger entered him and the inhaled air turns into an exhale moan. “Oh fuck.” he groans. It felt so new but so good it brought him to the very edge and he only needed a little more pleasure before coming. Instead of getting pleasure, a sharp pain came when the third finger suddenly, and forcefully, penetrated his virgin hole. His cry was muffled by the deep kiss that brought little pleasure to him.
Most of the pain was numbed by the alcohol but it wouldn’t help what would be coming soon. He pulls from the kiss, moves down to his member and wraps his lips around the tip; swirling his tongue around it before slowly bringing more into his mouth. Only half of Reizo’s member had fit his mouth but it didn’t surprise him from the size of his erection. Inari bobbed his head up and down, occasionally pulling up for air and going back down to return to pleasuring. After awhile he finds courage and forces all of the man’s member inside of his mouth until he reaches the base, deep throating big time. He moans loudly, creating vibrations, knowing that it’ll bring Reizo over the edge.


Reizo growled at the agonizingly slow pace the gorgeous male beneath him was unbuttoning him. He wanted to be free of those unbearably tight pants!
Reizo chuckled lightly at Inari’s comment and replied “I didnt expect to get this turned on. But you are certainly good at what you do. Not to mention that deliciously thick-” Reizo was cut off as Inari flipped them, with Inari now on top.
Reizo groaned and laughed as the man struggled with getting his tight leather pants off. The friction it was causing on him was driving him crazy! He smirked at the look on Inari’s face as he gawked at his size once the man finally got them off and threw them with the growing pile of clothes. He groaned as Inari stomach grazed his rock hard erection as he leaned to grab a bottle of wine. He watched as the purple haired man gulped down half of the bottle. Damn I wish those lips were on me right now. Stupid fucking bottle.
As soon as Inari set the bottle down and gripped his member, Reizo groaned loudly. His mind and sight clouded over with pure bliss as he was stroked. He thrusted his hips up into several strokes, begging for him to go faster.
Reaching his hands up and around Inari’s neck, Reizo pulled him back to his lips. He slipped his tongue past Inari’s sweet, pink lips and went over all the crevices and bumps of his mouth he now had memorized. After a moment, Reizo pulled back and shoved 3 of his fingers in Inari’s mouth.
Once his fingers were well lubricated, Reizo pulled them out and returned to kiss the man as his hand made its way down to Inari’s entrance. Reizo ran his finger around it before slipping a digit into the hot, moist hole. He curled his finger several times until the muscles relaxed enough to slip another finger in. Reizo began scissoring him, groaning at the tightness. Damn this is gonna be a tight fit, but its gonna be so amazing. I don’t know how much longer I can wait! Reizo slipped the third finger in and brought his other hand up to the back up Inari’s head to make the kiss deeper, to try to muffle the pain that he knew was going to come for Inari.


Inari groans at the feel of the vibration, bringing him to the edge; his breathing much heavier now. He moans at the sweet taste the other’s tongue ‘He’s pushing all the right buttons.’ He smiles at the male’s large erection then brings his other hand to the pants and slowly unbuttons it, teasing the other. “Should’ve worn baggier pants. Specially with this kind of erection.” he whispered with a grin. Without a second thought, Inari flips them over; Reizo on the bottom this time. He got onto his knees and tugs the pants off with difficulty “Dammitt.” he mutters and finally gets them off then throws them where the other clothing are. Inari sat there looking at the man’s large member, wondering how even half of it is going to fit. ‘ I need more wine.’ he reaches under the table and brings out a bottle of wine, opens it easily then downs half of it. He sets the bottle on the table then goes to work on Reizo’s member; stroking it for awhile.


When Reizo took the man’s length into his mouth, he felt his hands suddenly grip his hair and help force him down his long shaft, making him deep throat. He felt it twitch and then tasted the sweet, sticky substance it released and swallowed it. He groaned, causing vibrations to reverberate through his throat and he knew the man could feel it.
He continued until he could feel Inari grow thick, about ready to cum inside his mouth and removed himself from the deliciously long shaft. He came up to kiss Inari once more, slipping his tongue in his mouth, allowing the man to taste himself.
Reizo took one of Inari’s hands and trialed it down his chest, down his stomach and down to rest in his large erection for moment before going up to the buttons of his pants; asking Inari to remove the now ridiculously tight pants. After he set Inari to that task, he lifted his shirt up and broke away from the kiss for a moment to take it off and throw it across the room where Inari’s pants and boxers lay before swiftly returning to those sweet,swollen lips.


Inari looked down at him when he licked the pre-cum off which made his own erection twitch with excitement. He hadn’t had great sexual pleasure in a long time, so it was like this was his first time doing anything like this; but he was also drunk. He grins at the male’s comment while looking into the other’s eyes ‘His eyes are really beau-’ his thought was quickly interrupted when Reizo took his length into his mouth, causing him to moan loudly. Inari places his hands on the man’s head and pushes down, forcing him to take all of his thick member which twitched and released a sticky, white substance, making the other drink it. After awhile, he removes his hands and brings them down to his side; his breathing gotton deeper in the short proccess.


Reizo felt something warm and wet on his fingers and stopped kissing Inari’s neck for a moment to pull back to find the source of this. He also looked over the man’s aroused body. The incredibly long purple hair was spread over the couch, and a little hanging in front framing his sculpted face; he was breathing a bit harder than before and his swollen lips were parted. His gaze traveled lower to his erection and caught site of the pre-cum leaking from its tip. He lowered himself to lick the sticky substance up before coming back up to return his attention to Inari’s nipples.
He heard the man chuckle lightly and then speak. He had a point but he was certainly enjoying making Inari moan.
“Dont worry, you’ll be pleasuring me soon enough. Although I am finding great enjoyment in making you moan.” Reizo replied with a sexy smirk, looking him straight in his blue eyes. He then kissed down his stomach to his erection and lick the tip down to the base and back before taking all of his thick member in his mouth. He continued to do so, gradually going faster and occasionally lightly scraping his teeth along the side.

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Figure out what to do, then take a nap.

I'm attempting to write a 50 Shades of Grey for guys.

It's going to be a #1 bestseller, no matter how shitty the writing.

Journey to the Sacred Heart

ABOUT
Jenn. 22. Cisgendered white female. Transabled. Pansexual. Tortoisekin. Singlet. Gainer. Vegan. Feminist. Fat activist. Transfat activist. Demiplatonic. Aromantic. Asensual. Currently questioning my ethnicity.

Likes: Sewing, cooking, gardening, eating, human rights, animal rights, human-animal rights, fat acceptance.

Justice. 23. Genderfluid FAAB. All pronouns acceptable. Racially mixed PoC. Pansexual but currently abstinent. Trans* activist. Hardcore vegan activist. Animal rights. Organic Raw Veganism. Former O.S. Anti-racism. ED recovery. BPD. OCD.

Likes: Pranic nourishment. Superfoods. Animal rights activism. Veganism.

Anonymous asked: No hate here, just a legitimate question. Where do you stand on honey? Do you eat it? Do you consider it vegan? This question goes to both of you, but if only Justice takes it, that's okay.

Justice here. I know there is a great debate about honey in the veg*n community. I consider honey vegan as it is simply the processed nectar of a flower, not an animal product or by-product. Honey is also one of the most sterile foods on the planet and is full of great, active, live enzymes. As long as it is organic and local, and does NOT harm the bees, honey is fine with me.

I get my raw honey from a local garden which also keeps bees, and the only honey they sell is the runoff from the hive (they do NOT steal it from the bees). I always make sure to personally investigate the farm/garden my food comes from and I was pleased with the conditions the bees were in. The farmers are also vegan (or “beegan” as we are sometimes called) and work very hard not to cause harm to the bees.

As such it is very expensive (as it should be) and I consider it a luxury item. Jenn and I are both against processed honey which harms bees but I have never seen her eat raw honey and I eat it so rarely that it’s never come up in our discussions. Hopefully she will post about it.

Anonymous asked: In another post you mentioned that you'd rather an animal starve to death by overpopulation than die quickly with a single bullet from a hunter. Are you also opposed to sharks eating seals? Or would you rather they find another source of protein so those seals can overpopulate and starve slowly to death. Now, before you say, "It's different because we're human!", what about the part where we're only animals too? And what about without eating protein, humans would never have become intelligent.

Justice here. I’ve already said multiple times that I would never protest animals eating other animals in the wild. Are sharks consciously breeding seals just to slaughter them by the billion every year? And I’ve also said that I have a problem with factory farming, not necessarily meat-eating. Plenty of indigenous people hunt to survive (eskimo, bushmen, pygmy peoples, etc) but you don’t see me protesting their actions because, once again, they are not consciously overbreeding animals and slaughtering them by the billion every year while causing devastation to the ecosystem and planet. Got it??

and okay, what about eating protein? Protein is not exclusively found in meat you know…