I can't be arsed. I tried to sort it, hasn't worked. What's the fucking point. If you don't know already, I tried to kill myself. Wish I'd done a better job.

Fuck doctors, the lot of them. Coz they wont fucking listen to you. For anyone who's thinking of doing it, just fucking do it. It's all lies.

Whoa Whoa. Paul mate all that suicide stuff ain't worth it. Everyone has times when their down, and I know some people get a lot more down then others do, just remember there will be something better in the future all placed in line for you, everyone on this planet has a purpose and a reason for being here, whats the whole point of wasting all that? You know in 50 years time mate we're all going to have something to tell our grandkids what we done, who we were with all sorts of stuff, remember we're not in this planet for long enough, its not worth ending it all at a young age.

Aswell Paul. I would say I know you fairly well and I would have to say your a top fucking bloke, your a laugh, and your talented at art fucking hell some the stuff you've done this site is mint, also some of your idea's have been genius, don't waste that talent you got talent loads of it. Another thing remember you got fucking loads of mates on this site and loads I bet up at crasher.

I don't know a thing or anything about handling people who are down but one thing I'd be damn fucked if I ever I turned by back on a mate going through a bad patch.

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OMG Paul, this is not common knowledge, I had no idea and i am very sorry that life has got to you that badly that u should consider something like that.

Ocalla is right, it aint worth it mate, ur not that old and u could have a very rich and fulfilling life ahead of you.
Yes u may be at rock bottom now, but if this is as bad as it gets then think about how good the future can be for you.

You're too valuble a person to depart this world mate, your influence on others is greater than u realise.
you have a talent, more than just a talent for bringing a smile to all of our faces, if it was not for some of the stunts and ideas you have had, we would not be as happy as we are.

We as your friends know you have much to offer, to anyone that knows you Paul and for u to do something as stupid as that would be a waste, a terrible waste !

i feel for you, depression can create all sorts of bad images in our minds, being alone down there does not help, but Paul you are missed greatly and we all want you back.

you have got to adjust to your current situation, you have got to get on with it and see it through so u can come back and enjoy your life to the fullest again.

If we all gave up, this world would be without a lot of valuble ppl.

You make a difference to us Paul, so please mate, dont consider that course of action again, for our sakes as well as your own.

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haha cheers for the nice words but they're not needed, i aint going to do anything.

soon as Fray finds somebody else to move in I'm getting a flat somewhere coz at the end of the day I'm better off on me own. I don't want ur sympathy.

firstly mate dont know you or whats problems you have but come on people obviously care about you on (calla and neo) to name 2 that have posted so far!

good luck man and i hope things get better for you ASAP!

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Spad - whats brought all this on mate?

Suicides a cowards way out - you know that. If you got problems then the best thing to do is to fight it head on until it relents (which it eveidently will do). Fly is completely correct in saying that once you hit bottom the only way is up!..i've seen my best mate battling depression for years but he's gotten through it just recently

As for getting a flat on your own, well you better get somewhere near your mates because lonliness constitutes depression!!

To be honest i had no idea you were feeling this down, but i can imagine it being doubly hard where you are with your mums boyfriend etc...just don't give up and i'm positve you'l find something worthwhile soon.

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Although I have always known you are a very sensitive person with the tendency to dramatise things (how could i NOT know....we work the same way), I had no idea you were planning this


Spad. why?

Ever since you moved up to Chesterfield it seems to me you're in a downward spiral (hope it's the right term). And although it seemed like you did a good thing by moving back home I think it only made the situ worse. Coz maybe we (us 2) get hurt easily by people we care about, but to have no one around hurts you even more. I think you should try to move back to the place where you know there are people who love you..Chesterfield I mean. They mite not show it all the time, but I'm positive they do. Too bad everyone has probs of their own which clouds up their vision, and makes it hard for them too see how their friends are doing.

If only this stupid channel wasn't inbetween Holland and the UK...I want to give u a hug Spad!

I was down there too, I am frequently even, but I cannot say goodbye to all that this world has to offer for me. I hope you can see that too. I hope I can come to the UK any time soon...

Love you sweetie!

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whooho look at the freak

just ignore me I'm only looking for attention.

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Originally posted by Spad whooho look at the freak just ignore me I'm only looking for attention.

how would it make you a freak if so many people go through the same phases in their lives. I think you're more of a freak when you're never depressed and down in your life. (no pun for the ppl that recognise themselves in this)

if you want attention that bad you should've called me!!!
although it's far it'll only take me 15 hours to get there (by caoch)

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Originally posted by Spad whooho look at the freak just ignore me I'm only looking for attention.

Mate, this aint a call for sympathy, but if you need to talk to sum1 whos very much in the same frames of mind, speak with me or Jay, when you've been there yourself, it does help understand, and the worst thing is to be alone. You know where we are on irc if u need us mate