where everything is crashing down around you and nothing seems to work out the way you want it to? the things that used to make you happy somehow have become an evil force in your life just driving you into a deeper and darker place and you can't seem to figure out how to make it stop?

yeah, that's kinda how i feel right now.

someone do something to fix me, i'm fucked.

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I feel the same way right now :\ Life spins wildly out of your grasp sometimes and you tend to turn on the things that help anchor you as if going completely adrift is some how better.

When Im depressed I turn on friends, family, and stop eating drinking and working out when those are the things I should be focusing on.

You start worrying about the things that are impossible to redefine to reshape. Or, if they are able to change, they take too long to do anything more than minor adjustments to help change its destination.

In my case I got it from losing a best friend. When I got a new person to do the same things with it was all good again...being alone makes you doubt your decisions and actions and sometimes a good friend can reinforce everything to where its all good again.

Maybe try to find a new circle of friends?

I dunno, sorry to hear about this M, youre a cool person.

Why don't we have sex?

I dont need a friend like that dude. But thanks, I know what you meant *hug*

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Originally posted by Orbax I dont need a friend like that dude. But thanks, I know what you meant *hug*

It wasn't directed to you hehe...but shit..being depressed sucks!

what are you talking about? it's back-to-school time! free education for everyone!

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...known from a videotape the two made when they met in March... in Dresdens home, Dresden amputated Gabriels penis and Dresden and Gabriel ate the penis together...Gabriel had insisted that Dresden bite his penis off; this did not work.. Dresden used a knife. When that knife turned out to be too blunt, Dresden used a sharper knife to slice the penis off. Gabriel apparently tried to eat his share of his own penis..but could not because it was too..."chewy". Dresden then sautéed the penis in a pan with salt, pepper, and garlic.

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Originally posted by lücid where everything is crashing down around you and nothing seems to work out the way you want it to? the things that used to make you happy somehow have become an evil force in your life just driving you into a deeper and darker place and you can't seem to figure out how to make it stop? yeah, that's kinda how i feel right now. someone do something to fix me, i'm fucked.

you'll reach equilibrium soon. Your going through a rough patch but it will soon even out & some good things will start to happen.

It's karma.

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Originally posted by lücid where everything is crashing down around you and nothing seems to work out the way you want it to? the things that used to make you happy somehow have become an evil force in your life just driving you into a deeper and darker place and you can't seem to figure out how to make it stop? yeah, that's kinda how i feel right now. someone do something to fix me, i'm fucked.

I just got out of a funk similar to this about a week ago... and had it not been for my mother's advice, I'd still be in a funk.

Get ahold of a calcium supplement that includes zinc and magnesium. (I got a bottle from Costco.) Then, get ahold of a daily vitamin supplement. (I also got those from Costco.) Take one of each once a day for the next few days... and eat a banana each day. There's a shitload of potassium in bananas.

Something about the mix of the calcium, zinc, magnesium, potassium, and vitamins fucks with your brain. It won't necessarily make you happy but it caused me to fall into this weird groove where a lot of the things that were bugging me just... stopped. I've been maintaining that ever since. To be completely honest, I'm afraid to stop because in the back of my mind I know that things are completely fucked up right now and I just don't want to face it.

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Originally posted by Orbax I dont need a friend like that dude. But thanks, I know what you meant *hug*

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Originally posted by lücid where everything is crashing down around you and nothing seems to work out the way you want it to? the things that used to make you happy somehow have become an evil force in your life just driving you into a deeper and darker place and you can't seem to figure out how to make it stop? yeah, that's kinda how i feel right now. someone do something to fix me, i'm fucked.

Does it feel like there's no pleasure in anything anymore as well?

Either way, you're just depressed. If this has lasted or continues for a long time, seek help. All jokes aside, we all feel like that sometimes, but usually people get out of it.

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No emo jokes?

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Addy fo SHADDY ! hiccup, KA pladdy.

thanks for the advice, guys. i'm typically a pretty easy going and happy person, but these last 2 months have just fucked my head up so badly i don't know what to think anymore. it hurts but all i feel like doing is locking myself up in my apartment and ignoring everyone.

the worst thing is... i don't even know *why* things are going the way they are. i just moved into a new aparment 4 days ago and i thought life would get easier. i can't figure out why i keep hurting people and why i just keep getting more numb to my own emotions. i'm afraid when i can't cry and just stare blankly into space but i'm even more afraid when i lose all control and can't stop crying. for the first time tonight i was actually afraid of losing control of my own sanity... i've never felt like that before.

ok, i'm using TA as my outlet for anxiety right now. you lucky people get to listen to me bitch and whine.

meh, time for a cig.

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Originally posted by Xenocreator_PG_ you'll reach equilibrium soon. Your going through a rough patch but it will soon even out & some good things will start to happen. It's karma.

i must have extremely bad karma, then
but i don't. i shouldn't, at least.

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