when i am depressed, i start thinking about life, and things look better.

my life is not bad at all, it's just sometimes i think it's worse than it really is.

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I listen to trance...mope around...use someone to vent all my anger out...verbally, of course, not physically. Go for a smoke, and, just clear my head for those 4-5 minutes. Oyyy, life sucks...

I personaly shuve it down inside.. and some times i'll vent... lately i've been venting.. but i think i'll just start with shuving again.. seems better on life it self.. cuz then you get a lot of anger that you can relase while danceing or something..

thats mostly how i work with my probs..
i used to slice my self..

i still have the scares... when i relay got depresed.. but then i screwed that and just let everything settle dwon in my tummy

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Because you're a filthy WHORE!

umm i dont know recently i've been real depressed. Mom yelling at me constantly for going on the computer everytime i'm home, yelling at me for my grades. I have no idea, i will not get accepted to state college and i will be more depressed because she will yell at me more. Sometimes i just go out and skate and after i get tired i sit and just think about the girl i want. Yet that makes me more angry because i have no way of talking to her because she is in another grade. i dont know, i really want to kill myself but then i'm too scared of what is gonna be after life.

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When i get depressed I get a sharp blade and cut lines in my arm. then i do lots of blow

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Originally posted by Special_K When i get depressed I get a sharp blade and cut lines in my arm. then i do lots of blow

thats fucking disgusting. i hope you're joking

he is most likely joking.

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there was an idiot in my high school that used to do that in class to make himself look "cool" because he has scars on his forearm. what a dumbass.

anyway when i'm down, i just listen to trance. go for a walk. shop. lots of things to take my mind off whatever i'm depressed about.

damn man, my girlfriend does that thing with the blade.

I get shit-scared everythime she's home alone and depressed ...

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greetz

i dont think i know anyone who cuts themselves...i know my best friend mike has this sybconcious thing...everytime hes really depressed he turns into a neo nazi lol....i swear whenever hes pissed he'll do something like shave his head totally bald or like one time his mustang got kicked in and he suspected it was these black kids and when i went to go see him tha night i went to his house and he answers the door and has no shirt on and with a marker draws a swasitica....he does it jokingly but im beginning to believe that subconciously hes a nazi lol

lol shit...vivid boy...your friend can get in a heap load of trouble if he keeps drawing that on himself.