She was 18 years old, the beautifulest thing on the face of this planet, not a day would go by without me thinking about her, I always pictured that we would meet somewhere, at a party or downtown, because we always did, I didn't know how to express it, god I loved her, sometimes I would blow her off because I wasn't feeling right, now she's dead, what happens now, I should have told her not to drink, but I didn't expect anything to happen to her, now she's gone I walk around sometimes thinking she might be around the corner, but she never is, she was so beautiful and so nice, what is life.

Miss you love,
Angel's magik lite,
Guide me god,
Zainab Till we meet again...

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buzzz...sounds like u just had a terrible loss. i lost my best friend suddenly two years ago. there isnt a day that goes by that i dont think about him...the only thing that makes me feel better is i think that he is always with me..constantly looking out for me.

surround urself with ur other friends...they will help u get through this. all of you are feeling the same thing right now, so u need to be there for each other.

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Life has no meaning for me anymore, I want to be with her now, I just havn't the money for a gun, maybe pills

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Originally posted by morninglory Life has no meaning for me anymore, I want to be with her now, I just havn't the money for a gun, maybe pills

well if u do that, u are going to make everyone that loves u feel the same way u do now, that is very selfish. you should talk to some one immediately. i said this before in another forum...suicide is never the answer. suicide doesnt just effect you...it effects everyone that loves you. i understand that you are hurting terribly, but causing other people to feel the same way wont solve anything. you need to be strong and you will get through this.

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Originally posted by morninglory Life has no meaning for me anymore, I want to be with her now, I just havn't the money for a gun, maybe pills

Exactly what kirbtastic said. You don't have to go through this alone, there are people that can help you.

If you want to talk PM me, or my msn is [email protected]

once again, couldnt have said it any better than kirb.

after awhile youll eventually see what we are talking about and what a horrible option suicide is. wait thats wrong, its NOT an option, put it out of your mind right now or else its gonna consume you.

if you want to talk more, im always up for a chat.
AIM: thajeeneeus
email: [email protected]

nobody needs to feel like that man, friends can help

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really sorry to hear about ur situation man. if u need people to talk to, contact me [email protected] im in toronto as well...all the TOTAs will willingly support u..jsut talk and let it all out

do not kill urself man that is just the worst thing u could do. have faithin urself im sure u can live thru this. its a short phase for u, u will soon find things not so bad ..just let it all out

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Thank you guys for your support. I have been trying to get the facts on the cause of death because somehow I know it will set my mind at ease. Some peoeple say that she died of a heart attack, but I have doubts about that because she was too younge for that. Others say that some asshole slipped something in her drink and she died in her friends car on the way home. I can't get a hold of her parents, because I think it would be really upsetting for them to be asked how their daughter died. I've searched the web site for some newspapers but came out empty handed. If anyone can help it would be much appreciated.

Thank you.

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hey man,
It pains me to read about that - very tragic. I've had similar losses in my life, and it makes you really stop and think about life and how you live life. It makes you appreciate what you have a lot more, and we all just wish we did't have to lose something so important to us in order to find this out. Lean on your friends and family as they will dampen the pain. As bleek as things are now, you will make it through man.

Take Care

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Originally posted by Rhythm I've had similar losses in my life, and it makes you really stop and think about life and how you live life

very true..

its like a sign to u of some sort. even tho its a really harsh sign.

it makes u think of how unpredictable ur life span really is and that u should live ur life to the fullest in every possible way u can so that u will be remembered well thesame way u remember the girl..

i hope ur recovering from ur trauma...

keep hope alive

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Originally posted by morninglory Thank you guys for your support. I have been trying to get the facts on the cause of death because somehow I know it will set my mind at ease. Some peoeple say that she died of a heart attack, but I have doubts about that because she was too younge for that. Others say that some asshole slipped something in her drink and she died in her friends car on the way home. I can't get a hold of her parents, because I think it would be really upsetting for them to be asked how their daughter died. I've searched the web site for some newspapers but came out empty handed. If anyone can help it would be much appreciated. Thank you.

Man take it ease. If you EVER need help, talk to us. Make us your support system. Plus, we're on the net, so we're accessible from anywhere in the world. Pretty nifty, eh?

Just hang in there, the worse will be over soon. Don't do suicide no matter what. Just think: hanging onto life until it's your proper time to go, it will be so much sweeter then when you see her in the next world...

Be Strong.

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Originally posted by morninglory Thank you guys for your support. I have been trying to get the facts on the cause of death because somehow I know it will set my mind at ease. Some peoeple say that she died of a heart attack, but I have doubts about that because she was too younge for that. Others say that some asshole slipped something in her drink and she died in her friends car on the way home. I can't get a hold of her parents, because I think it would be really upsetting for them to be asked how their daughter died. I've searched the web site for some newspapers but came out empty handed. If anyone can help it would be much appreciated. Thank you.

No probs, I posted my MSN, use it if you need to. Hope you get through this OK.