What really sucks is the fact that someone can mislead you and make you believe that they love/care for you; and then one day just change their mind. Or so they say. What a shitty feeling to have knowing that you love someone who doesnt love you in return and couldnt care less about your feelings. I'm struggling to understand and cope without doing something drastic. And I was ok for a long time, but last week...it just finally hit me. Everything just kind of sucks in a way. There are good things going on besides this, but this just puts a damper on the rest. God must really love me to have kept me alive last night and allowed me to awake this morning after taking a handfull of pills. At the time, it was all I could think of to do to stop the pain. And I didnt care anymore. I just wanted to go away. I dont think I've ever come across anyone more cruel and heartless. Not even to make sure that I was alright during a late night phone call of crying. Begging. And even questioning myself thinking that I had done something terribly wrong. What was so bad about me? Am I a bad person? Did I do something to deserve this? Why why why...

Falling out of love wasnt what happened. Never being there in the first place was probably more like it, and lying about it. Truly one of the biggest assholes on this planet.

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That's harsh. People just aren't worth it sometimes.

I know how it is...I was dumped by my gf about a month and a half ago for the same reason. She claims that she "didn't have the same feelings that I had for her". Yet, I think she did but just couldn't come to admit it. But then again I'm finding out that she may be a dike...

Ah what the hell, women drive me crazy. (no offense) Anyway, don't go doing anything stupid...it's going to hurt for awhile but it will go away eventually.

*EDIT* Oh yeah, might I add that I went with this girl previously and we went our own way for a year. Then we got back together, so I really thought that things were going to work out this time.

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so sorry to hear that cheryl

what happened?

we haven't talked in a while, I was wondering where you were!?


please give me a call or send me a pm or something


we need to talk ...

btw want to come up to this new cool place in cleveland friday ? I'm inviting you and I hope you come! talk to you soon

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Originally posted by LadyLuck13 What really sucks is the fact that someone can mislead you and make you believe that they love/care for you; and then one day just change their mind. Or so they say. What a shitty feeling to have knowing that you love someone who doesnt love you in return and couldnt care less about your feelings. I'm struggling to understand and cope without doing something drastic. And I was ok for a long time, but last week...it just finally hit me. Everything just kind of sucks in a way. There are good things going on besides this, but this just puts a damper on the rest. God must really love me to have kept me alive last night and allowed me to awake this morning after taking a handfull of pills. At the time, it was all I could think of to do to stop the pain. And I didnt care anymore. I just wanted to go away. I dont think I've ever come across anyone more cruel and heartless. Not even to make sure that I was alright during a late night phone call of crying. Begging. And even questioning myself thinking that I had done something terribly wrong. What was so bad about me? Am I a bad person? Did I do something to deserve this? Why why why... Falling out of love wasnt what happened. Never being there in the first place was probably more like it, and lying about it. Truly one of the biggest assholes on this planet.

Keep smiling mate. Its gets shitty sometimes and People were put here to fuck other people up. BUT............... NOTHING AND NO-ONE IS WORTH KILLING YOURSELF OVER. Life is our greatest gift- dont throw it away.

And God doesnt give a fuck about you or anyone or anything because it doesnt exist. You have to rely on yourself, your family and your friends - things you can see and touch - THAT ARE ACTUALLY THERE.

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Originally posted by TeKnoHe@d2025 I know how it is...I was dumped by my gf about a month and a half ago for the same reason. She claims that she "didn't have the same feelings that I had for her". Yet, I think she did but just couldn't come to admit it. *EDIT* Oh yeah, might I add that I went with this girl previously and we went our own way for a year. Then we got back together, so I really thought that things were going to work out this time.

I think that too, but in the end...I hope it comes back to him ten fold. I hate that I loved him. And still do.

John, call me when you get the chance...my cell is always on. Just leave me your number and I will call you back. I didnt write it down.

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Originally posted by RedLunatik the hardest thing to do is watch the one you love .... love someone else

Or even think about that person loving someone else. Just as heartbreaking.

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you definetly hit the spot. i couldn't have put it in a better way.
i can relate to you with the fact that everything seems to be alright for the longest time after it's over. then one day it suddenly creeps over you and just whispers in your ear and painfully stabs you.
like someone said earlier no one is worth killing yourself for. not even as a sacrifice. it's all a mix of disappointment, sorrow, longing and love.
you can't completely remove yourself from the blame because i'm sure there were so many factors that could have lead to this ending. but just knowing and accepting the pain should be a reward.
i loathe undecisive people. how do you "change your mind"? its preposterous really. i don't know how much this person meant to you but i don't believe in the "time will heal" concept. at times in certain relationships, time will never heal and you'll just have to remain feeling hurt. i sure hope this isn't one of them for you.
i've let go and stopped wondering why. his hypocrisy makes me laugh at times, but of course i don't let him know i'm laughing. haven't you ever felt that you knew what he needed and wanted more than he did himself?
but perhaps all these thoughts and feelings are just what i have created to comfort myself.
whatever comforts you, find it and i hope you can surpass this.

- elena

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if it makes you feel better I havent had a girlfriend in 20 years

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Originally posted by Orbax if it makes you feel better I havent had a girlfriend in 20 years

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Originally posted by Orbax if it makes you feel better I havent had a girlfriend in 20 years

Same. Hope you feel better Ladyluck. Why do people treat other people like crap? It REALLY REALLY annoys me. Undesicive people suck ass. Why can't you make up your mind? Or if you can't be fucking HONEST ABOUT IT. I'd rather know right off the bat (or at least the moment) you start to feel "different" than just string me along. People suck, trance rules end of story.

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