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I don't think she's an alt or his sister. He's comfortable with himself and his shenanigans, Yukii seems comfortable with whatever this forum has tried to dig up, so I don't know where this animosity train is going to head next. I don't know where the idea that Yukii is dumb from, I'm sure there might be a discussion to prove otherwise. I never thought SpaceChick was dumb, just living on a very distorted side of the train tracks and I felt bad for her. Krypton's a very nice person, too. He's so sweet. Krytpon, you are so sweet. You are so smart and sweet and luvable. Nathan, you are the best boy I ever had. Why did you leave me Nate? Nate, it's me. Why did you leave me? I loved you so much, and it makes me sick thinking you left me in the dust, like dust in the wind. Now I just want to cry. Why didn't you love me back? I try my best to hold it in on my own, but now, after all these years, I'm confident to say I'm Alyssa and I've kept you on my buddy list for so long. I put your name in MS word and put the biggest font, on bold, at the biggest size and then lick my monitor. Sometimes I create fake accounts on Gmail, just to send you spam about winning $30m just to see if you will respond with your phone number, so we can get in touch. Oh nate, I see the path you've gone down. I feel bad for you, and not for your new girl Yukii, she's pretty. But for us. You and me nathan, 4ever. I asked you to carve that into my back and you refused. So I did my best to carve it into my stomach. I took a couple of pictures. If you remember our Geocities account, you'll be able to take a look.
Those were the days I remember and love. When you and I were live and let live. Peace and have a nice day kind of people. I didn't care for your money, I never did, I was there before your money. I told you my dreams and you told me yours and I respected it. Sometimes when we'd be rolling on XTC, I'd hallucinate that I was in a club full of dead presidents and we'd rub ourselves against their faces and blow coke with them. And it was never just me, you'd tell me that even a George Washington should never be used to snort coke, every dollar has its potential to grow in a portfolio.
Nathan, remember us. Remember me.
I don't forget you. When I'm listening to trance music, like Armin Van Buuren w/ Ray Wilson, I'll use my winamp pitch monitor to make the voice sound like your. Yeah sure the lyrics are about his dead brother, but just the idea that you might be singing to ME about your dead brother makes me warm again. Fills that voice, Clears the rain and opens the sky. I use my fingers to try and count sometimes, but all I can barely get past 1, that one time you broke my heart. I need you to help me Nate. With the numbers and with my heart.
I don't even know if I can sleep tonight. I'm just so devoid of emotion, I don't think I can sympathize with the electrolytes in my brain that demand and cry for sleep. I want you talk to them, talk to my electrolytes and nerves in my head, tell them they can rest. Tell them its going to be ok.
I go to school right now. I'm in my 4th semester. I'm trying to make it the best on my own. But I still have the same mechanical pencil you bought for me in high school. I don't use it, but I have it in my purse. I don't want to use it. I don't want to waste away the lead, your lead, our .5mm lead, your gift to me.
Nathan, I don't have anyone else. I get looks from other boys, and I do face the temptation of ridding you for the years to come. But I fight it so hard. I've won every battle. I've slayed dragons and killed children for you. See me for who I am Nathan.
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Everything is beautiful. Let the music carry you. Baby I will follow you forever. Nowhere else I'd rather be when you're lying next to me. Let the music carry us together.
anti-JennyPie Alliance
SuspicionVandit: Are you God?
Paul Van Dyk 09-24-2009: No, but I can sign your sleeve under that name if you let me!
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Glorious!
I think she was using me to get close to Idoru! 
84 corolla, nice one champ...
