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Originally posted by Vivid Boy fuck i dont think ive ever been fuckin motivated in my life...i never ever feel like doing shit and its pissing me off more and more by the day...its like i know im suppose to do something i keep tellin myself i got to do it...but for some reason i just dont do it!!! i even plan out how im gonna do it the easiest way of doing it..but when it comes down to it i just dont do it...ive been like this since a freakin kid and its killin me as a human being...fuckin habits.

I was like that till a couple years ago.
What I did was to force me to actually DO something (even if it wasn't what I really wanted).

After you start doing things you just realize that what you're doing is useless and go back to do nothing for a while (happened several times), then force yourself to do something -anything- again.

After several "do something then nothing then something" cycles you end up doing what you want, you kinda like it and you never stop . At least that's what happened to me

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20031115 Creamfields @ Buenos Aires !!

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i neeed money!!! and i've had to stay at college 12 hours or so a day since my car broke down!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's cus my ride can only take me at 8 am and my last class is at 8:35 pm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i shall sleep soon (library gooooood).. but i get my car back on fri.!


oh.. and why the hell do i have to pay so much in car insurance!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaahhhh!!! i hate you!! you damn money grubbers!!!!

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Last edited by MERTON on Oct-22-2003 at 15:04

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Originally posted by zarathustra Must be the weather? I have midterms as well although they are nicely spread out. Now this would give me ample time to study if only I had the motivation to do so. But heck, I got 80% on an exam that I was sure I had failed so I guess things aren't going that badly for me right now after all.

lol I just got back a 5-hour exam yesterday that I took a couple of weeks ago... same story: I thought I did no better than a 50 or a 55, but I got an 80. Other than that, this semester blows. I am almost positive that I am failing all of my classes. I had motivation last semester, and the work was challenging and actually interesting. This semester I have no motivation and the work is either impossible or tedious. What's up with that?

Pisses me off that everyone in academia (high school, university, whatever) seems to think that you neither do nor should have any life outside of their institution. One of my profs decides not only to make the midterm one day after TWO other midterms, but make a 10-page lab report due on the SAME day as HER midterm! But to show us how nice she is, we only lose 30% on the lab if it's handed in late. Well la-dee-fuckin'-da, aren't we Miss Congenial?

Seriously though, I'm trying to deal with things like my contracts, job interviews and applications, post-grad apps, I never go out anymore during the week, there's barely enough time to even get groceries or cook, and this #$&%$@ manure bag of a university just keeps throwing more and more shit at us as if we weren't already totally overwhelmed by the amount we had! Yes, hello, reality? Is he in today? No? What about his brother, rationality? Or his dad, common sense? Doesn't it sort of defeat the purpose of getting an education when you have to choose things to not learn because there's no time?

And for those of you who think I'm wasting all that time posting on TA, guess what - I've got the motherf*ckin' book in front of me the whole time! If it wasn't for my blowing off steam in here, I'd probably go fucking postal and start killing people, starting with every single person in the department office and finishing off with my landlord who never does the fucking repairs that he's fucking supposed to fucking do because we're paying the fucking rent, fuck.

OK, I'm done.

Fuck.

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My party schedule:
2009-02-21 - DJ Attention @ I'm So Popular
2009-06-18 - DJ Annoying @ People Need To Know Where I'll Be
2012-11-32 - DJ Insufferable ɸ Or At Least the Stalkers I Complain About
2048-06-66 - Spastic & Whocares ¶ Although I'm Actually Flattered
9999-45-81 - Tweaker Gimp ☼ I Probably Won't Even Go To This But I Have To Make Sure I Fill Up All The Available Space Here

Oh wait, I forgot to mention that my bag was stolen, insurance companies are trying to bleed me dry, and on top of that, someone thinks she's more important than any of it and continues to try (knowing full well that she'll fail but showing willingness to waste my time anyway) to manipulate me into making her top priority by coming out with wonderful catch phrases I've heard 18 trillion times already such as:
"ok Aaron, if this is what you want..."
"you used to be a nice guy"
"you're nice to everyone else"
"what did _I_ do? It's not _my_ fault!"
"you promised..."
"you're ruining everything"
"you could've TOLD me that you were going to invite over some girl from Florida" (now honestly, WTF?? How do I "invite" someone over who's never met me and lives 50,000 miles away, bitch!?)
- And various other witty remarks that are supposed to make me feel bad for her with her lightweight fucking linguistics course load and such ominous responsibilities as getting her computer from her Aunt's house and picking out a long-distance plan and getting down to the cafeteria before closing time. Guess what baby, we've been broken up for a year and a half! Anything I said to you before that time period is null and void! When a guy tries to accomodate you into his 533-hour-week schedule and you do nothing but bitch and moan, what the fuck do you think is going to happen? THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT! SO FUCK OFF AND STOP REPLYING TO MY POSTS!

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My party schedule:
2009-02-21 - DJ Attention @ I'm So Popular
2009-06-18 - DJ Annoying @ People Need To Know Where I'll Be
2012-11-32 - DJ Insufferable ɸ Or At Least the Stalkers I Complain About
2048-06-66 - Spastic & Whocares ¶ Although I'm Actually Flattered
9999-45-81 - Tweaker Gimp ☼ I Probably Won't Even Go To This But I Have To Make Sure I Fill Up All The Available Space Here

that a boy digi just let it out...

IF THAT CO-WORKER SNEAK IN MY OFFICE WHILE MY BACK IS TURNED ON HIM ONE MORE TIME I'M GONNA SKULL FUCK HIM AGHF&@)G@#&FH#(TEHG)&#%&#%)%&#)?#*&#$%(

<-------- AND DO THIS TO HIM

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it's just been a shitty day all together, i keep trying to put myself in a good mood but it isn't working. i can't concentrate at work. i can't catch up my bills, people owe me money.....life just sux today, can't wait til this weekend so i can go party and get this outta my system.