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Originally posted by maria111 maybe this is a stupit and silly post and most of you you are going to say:this is shit girl but just wanted to say...i am wonder...does anyone feels alone?i mean generally...everyone have their friends family,boyfriend,girlfriend,some of you sex drugs,crazy things...but does any of you have think and feel so alone?i think that this will sound silly but feel so so alone some times...usually this happens suddenly...wake up this morning for example and just choose to listen people want to be needed from magik 7 and just cry and cry for hours....i mean sometimes most times to be honest cant sleep the night(suffering from is insomnia)and cant sleep and just waiting to see the sunset to relax a bit and then i am going to sleep....does anyone feel the same or i am the only one....

If it makes you feel better I would probably sleep with you and grab your boobs and stuff if you were willing after a few beers

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Originally posted by Orbax If it makes you feel better I would probably sleep with you and grab your boobs and stuff if you were willing after a few beers

Not the sensitive type, are ya?

iv'e been feeling like that alot latley, even though i do have friends i just feel distant from everyone. it's hard sometimes and latley iv'e had really bad insomnia. the only thing that sees me through this is some good music or a good clubbing nite.

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Originally posted by maria111 i am the only one....

wrong

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Originally posted by DarkAngel Not the sensitive type, are ya?

hopefully that made her smile im a sensitive asshole type. This one girl was crying about something so I humped her head and it made her laugh. When people reciprocate deepness it never ends well

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Originally posted by Endlesswave get out and LIVE your life. I'm doing that as of tomorrorow and not letting the BS garbage crappy things in life get me down. Fuck that. I'm only here once...

i hate when people say that because you know what, when i'm depressed i don't give a shit about life or the BS garbage or the "we're here only once" thing; when i'm depressed i'm really pissed at everything and everyone and i don't want to do anything, just lie down on my bed and stare at the ceiling and maybe put some prog on to make my mind drift off to sleep and then it's good, but it's hard not to cry... that's what i did last nite, without music though, and i slept for 11 hours straight for the first time in several months, through my roommate's alarm clock and through everything and it didn't help. and sometimes i do feel like i'm missing out on life but I DON'T CARE, i don't care that i have more friends online than in real life, i don't care that my mom is afraid to call me because i might be in a bad mood and yell at her, i don't care about the fact that i don't write or talk to anyone and that i spend all my free time in my room, i just DON'T CARE. oh whatever.

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Originally posted by whiskers put some prog on to ... drift off to sleep

let the flames begin

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Originally posted by moncster let the flames begin

yes, fuck all, i don't care anymore what anyone says about me or my tastes (and that's not a result of depression), prog is good for depression, it kinda flows with you... gu024.... man, happy music sucks when you're depressed, whenever i hear a happy song it makes me so fucking mad i wanna take a bat and hit the stereo, the speakers, smash them, smash them, smashe everything to bits until everything is dust....

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Basically, from having had every kind of depression from chemical to SAD to realizing WTF I HAVENT HAD A GF IN 20 YEARS!

Then I think about it and I can either think of how that makes me a loser, or justify it (no girls are awesome enough to bask in my greatness, rain means i can drink more, mmm pills are yummy!)

Basically, you gotta make the decision before you get depressed of what youre gonna do when you get depressed. I say im gonna work out no matter what, im gonna run no matter what, im gonna smile and hug my mom no matter what. I will do the best job i can at work, NO MATTER WHAT. After you realize that no single area can be affected by your depression, you combine all of those, and even though you dont get the seratonin happy feeling, you can still get just as drunk, high, adrenaline/endorphined rush as anything.

Basically, "Get over yourself" was the toughest lesson I ever learned, and its the most important.

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Escaflowne, last episodes of Cowboy Bebop, Blue Gender, and In the Mood for Love are AWESOME movies for that perfect sad feeling

don't feel that way maria...if you think that you are suffering from depression, go see a doctor...but your not the only one, there are plenty of people out there...anyways, like someone said in thie post, you are in charge of your life. don't let derpression take over..fight it!

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Originally posted by Orbax EDIT:: Escaflowne, last episodes of Cowboy Bebop, Blue Gender, and In the Mood for Love are AWESOME movies for that perfect sad feeling

Add Evangelion (The End of Evangelion) to the list. It left me with my jaw open going like o_0 and just sitting there.

Clinical depression, according to medical sources, lasts more than two weeks and is usually not precipitated by anything external.


fucking 2 weeks, but what if i'm happy for 2 days and then for the next 2 days i'm constantly thinking about suicide? still not bipolar... i'd never go through with suicide though, it's just stupid.

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