thanks 4 the feedback every1, im glad im not the only 1 who goes through this crap. ive quit the shit that makes me feel shit but i still get it at times.

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Originally posted by electric_soul Paranoia, definition: http://www.m-w.com/cgi-bin/dictionary?va=paranoia n00bs after smoking or whatever regularly for a while you don't mind the people around you, in the same way you don't mind about people everyday. just takes a while for you to get used to it. well, it took about a couple weeks not to get paranoid when i smoked weed, not that much . Smoke in a "safe" place (ie friends home or something), until you get used to it.

I got it around my 5th year of smoking

Too many ppl underestimate the real meaning of paranoia so they easily use it when feeling uncomfortable in a certain social environment. Let me tell you that real paranoia is not feeling a bit "out of place" or not trusting people...Paranoia is uncontrollable FEAR where u lose control and just wanna disappear. I experienced it twice, once while smokiing weed. Let me tell you it's not nice but I was relieved to read that its one of weed's potential "normal" effects.

yeah, u've hit the nail on the head there its something u have no control over. but i know so many people that have no problems with weed what so ever and i wonder weather there is something drastically wrong with me. it really duz seem 2 amplify whats bothering me in my head.

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Originally posted by tony1 yeah, u've hit the nail on the head there its something u have no control over. but i know so many people that have no problems with weed what so ever and i wonder weather there is something drastically wrong with me. it really duz seem 2 amplify whats bothering me in my head.

honestly, i think it might just be obsession... like you worry too much about things... OCD... obsessive-compulsive disorder.......

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Tak the following ingredients and mix them in a bowl (well, a head).

Monomania
Hypochondria
OCD as mentioned by mr. whis.
Infinite Fantasy
Thinking too much in general

Put your testing object into an unknown social environment where he loses himself in lonely anonimity.

Voila, you've got your atomic disaster, a supernova in yor head leaving you disconnected from reality.


But I'm on my way to recover

explain that in english please sounds interesting!!

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Originally posted by TranceGiant Tak the following ingredients and mix them in a bowl (well, a head). Monomania Hypochondria OCD as mentioned by mr. whis. Infinite Fantasy Thinking too much in general Put your testing object into an unknown social environment where he loses himself in lonely anonimity. Voila, you've got your atomic disaster, a supernova in yor head leaving you disconnected from reality. But I'm on my way to recover

what if i also have depression, incredibly active imagination, social anxiety, hate for others and other fucked up things ?

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Nah, you'll just steal my Best-seller idea
J/k...Im sill in the process of intense self-knowledge on that matter. I'll be able to write a retrospective once I can actually get a clear picture from the "outside", after finally leaving the phase behind me. As negative as such phases may be, they are definitely inspiring

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Originally posted by TranceGiant As negative as such phases may be, they are definitely inspiring

dude, fuck happiness, happiness sucks, it's way overrated. when you're depressed you just see the world so differently and it's just so much more clear...

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Originally posted by whiskers dude, fuck happiness, happiness sucks, it's way overrated. when you're depressed you just see the world so differently and it's just so much more clear...

I'm not depressed. I never really was. It's got a different shape. But being in a state that is simply not compatible with "normal" everyday life reality definitely changed my fundamental way to see things. Basic principles are not taken for granted anymore and you learn to "understand" (as in : being able to imagine) behavior that contradicts normal social "values". I can now imagine depression, even though I never experienced it. I can now totally "understand" drug addiction. I can "understand" terrorist fundamentalist who prefer death over life. I realized the relativity of mind.

After all though I also learned that's its basically emotions that trigger everything. As in...nothing rational. I tried to fight my way out by logical argumentation but it only drove me deeper into a more complex labyrinth. The only way to exit is to simply not think. It's hard and goes against once pride but you (your "self" ) must cnvince yourself that this is how you klill "it" ( call it a disease, for convenience sake).

I hope some1 could somehow understand something