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Re: is it ME or the "E"?
| quote: | Originally posted by Slylee
ok well i was just wondering if anyone is going through the same thing that i am when it comes to "e"...i just don't enjoy it any more. i never blow up. it's always just a lingering kinda slugish feeling. i used to have so much energy on the drug and i was so outgoing...now when i roll, i get annoyed when ppl are like all mushy with me...i just wanna come down already. i think maybe i'm just low on "happy juice" lately and under a lot of stress. could that be it? i mean, i'm not depressed every day at all or anything, but i sure do feel like it when i roll. i mean everyone can be depressed, and i'll be the first to admit that i've been on zoloft before because i was in a terrible relationship when i was only 16. anyway, my point is, that i DO have a small history of depression and i've heard that it really isn't a good drug to take if you've been depressed before.
also, i don't think it's the drugs cuz it's been the same shitty feeling like the last 4 times i've rolled and the people i rolled with said they felt great. the last time i got fucked up (you'll get a kick outta this) i took 2 rolls (which were weak for me)...so i decided to take a ritalin (swallowed it whole, not snorted) to speed it up a bit, but then the whole "roll" just died and i was just wired. THEN i ate a green gell tab (acid) and i was like totally functioning. i mean of course i was confused and seeing trails n shit..but my bf was with me and he had taken 2 rolls and 1 acid like me and he was fucking GONE! haha but i could totally still read the computer screen (YES, i was on TA chatroom since it was my first time tripping and didn't want to do it somewhere public...we decided to stay home and trip/roll) and do other things and still think rationally. anyway, when i told some of my friends they were like, "holy fucking shit..that's A LOT of drugs dude" lol maybe i need to take like 3 rolls at once next time??? if there is a next time. i dunno, maybe i'm just burnt out on "e"...it's not what it used to be i think. people are getting stupid with it these days and u never know what you're getting any more.
one more thing. i used to LOVE uppers....like i LOVED coke when i did it the few times and i loved "e" at first...but now i'm starting to really just like that "loaded" feeling. i like xanax now and weed and pain killers like vikadin (NO i do not take this shit regularly..only weed regularly) is this bad? is this some kind of cycle or something? like i'm gonna be an alcoholic or something next? ok i've written a novel...can't wait to hear some of you guys' input
sly |
I hear ya sly, same problem here...well I am not getting annoyed but I am not rolling like I used to. I "was" doing it too often, like almost every weekend.
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