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Re: Ive got a little problem.
| quote: | Originally posted by Kakoroto
I'll explain this as simply as I can. Ive been playing soccer for the past 12 years of my life and now at age 17 getting ready to move the next level of the game, which for me is division I at some college or university. Ok so whats the big problem about this you might ask? Well, to be honest over the past 5 years I have started hating the game more and more. It takes up ALL my time, im fucking sick and tired of the people that are involved with it, and I HATE that I am too afraid to tell anyone that. I myself am a decent player having played on regonional US teams and blah blah blah, and the fact that everyone is expecting and planning for me to go to college and play soccer is driving me insane. All I want to do is quit and move on without any questions asked. Its not that simple though.
I have the opportunity to get full ride scholarship to some of the top soccer schools here in the US. Ive talked with alot of coaches, and visited some schools, but I just dont want it anymore. Problem is I keep telling everyone that I do which is bringing me closer and closer to insanity and is just making it harder for me to tell the truth. My dad's whole life outside of work is about soccer, whether it be watching me play, discussing my plans in soccer for the future, and has spent alot of money and time sending me around the country the past 5 years, playing in tournaments etc. and I dont think I can tell him all the sudden that all of that was just a waist. Know what I mean?
If you understood how much time and extra effort goes into playing college soccer at such a high level you would understand me not wanting to go. I have spent the past 5 years playing high level soccer where it seems my entire life is just revolving around soccer and the feeling that I could be doing for another 4 just drives me crazy.
This is the first time I have really told anyone this because its easier here. So do you guys have any advice or something, or I dont know. I dont even know what im talking about anymore. Im so confused!! ack... |
Okay. First of all, you should think about why you got into soccer in the first place. If it's not for the love of the game, then just quit. There are plenty of players out there that eat, drink and live football/soccer/whatever. Let one of them take your spot. 
Seriously, you can be good/competitive at something and yet not enjoy it. It seems that's the case for you. Don't continue playing if it's only to please people around you.
Some kids are meant to play soccer, or any other sport, while their parents go off to fuck someone else behind their partners' back. It's just a distraction and a good way for kids to socialize. Some kids end up liking what their parents make them do. Others don't.
Make the decision on your own. You should know what you want. If I was you, I would get the scholarship to the best school possible away from home and then start doing something that I'm really interested in. Once in college, just break an ankle, yours of course, to later on quit the team. Be creative with that. Love your ankles too much, go for the knee. That way your dad won't be disappointed in you.
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