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hey man,
i'm sorry to hear that. but i think i can offer words of help  I actually had to do a study on this in college, and they had patients who had HIV come and speak to us, and really let us in on some information.
so, here goes..... First off, its a common misconception, that if you sleep with someone who has HIV, that *boom*, you automatically get it. Truth is, chances are only 25% that you would contract it.... It's just that if you get it, you have it... and its something you obviously want to avoid, so hence the media & schools putting the idea in your mind that once you have sex with someone who has HIV, that *boom*, you have it. Anyway, misconception, so cheer up.
Note #2: There are medications out there now that postpone the ill-effects of HIV (blocking the immune system). Remember, its not HIV that is deadly, its AIDS.... and HIV just LEADS to AIDS. But, there are supplements out there that are like steroids for your immune system. What does this mean? Well, it won't keep you alive forever, but it will prolong your life another 10 years or so. Why doesn't everyone who has HIV/AIDS take this and live longer? Because in order for this treatment to work, the disease has to be detected in its early stages. Problem is, most people (out of fear or lack of knowledge) do not get tested right away when they suspect.... out of fear they stay away from the doctor... only to find out its too late to begin the cycles. How will 10 years help your life? hey, thats ten more years for scientists to find a cure, buddy. That's like winning the lottery to some people.
My opinion on all this: Keep your chin up. I have been in the girlfriend sleeping with someone else situation before, and it made me want to throw up. I feel your pain. But look at it this way: this chick did you a favor by telling you this. She could have just been a bitch and keep it hidden, and you'd never know, and could possibly get f*cked.... she did you a favor, and went out of her way to call you and tell you... imagine how awkward it was for her... she is probably going through the same depression you are going through right now.. AND she had to admit she slept with someone else while you were going out.... Sure she's a bitch for doing that, but she's even stronger of a person for pulling herself together to tell you that.
Just be thankful that in the end, her good will prevailed. I know that sounds odd, but trust me here. 
Don't stress it, just keep living your life like nothing's changed. And i would disagree with everyone's advice to hang out with all your friends and family "while you can" attitude... that only keeps the feeling of "i'm gonna die soon" in everyone's minds.... you don't want to act like you are gonna die tomorrow necessarily... because in reality, even if you DO test positive, you have a good 5+ years left (WORST case scenario - highly unlikely anyway).... and if this is the case, you still have to think about long term. If you live your life thinking that tomorrow is your last day, you will be depressed till the end. No point in that, bud. Continue college (or whatever you are striving for), think about long-term. That is what will keep you going!
Take care, and hope everything turns up ok.
-ABT-
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Peace.
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