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Physical contact? I guess I'm weird when it comes to physical contact. Very weird. Is there anyone else out there who's similar to me when it comes to being touched? I'll post a few key points
This is me most of the time: =|
- I don't like being hugged or touched by my mother, sister or any other family members. Nobody. I always push them away. Always. Not even my little baby cousin, even though he's like 3 or 4 (don't know) and always calls my name when I pass him.
- When female acquaintances try to hug me, I never open my arms, I just stay still until they stop. Expression is still: =|
- Even girls I like don't elicit much reaction when they hug me. Weird thing is, when they're really emotional (happy or sad) that makes me not like it. It has to be nonchalant for me to even tolerate it. Sometimes I wonder if it's not the girl I like, but just her looks.
- My guy friends usually nod when I pass by, but I hate shaking hands or doing that fist thing or patting shoulders. I just don't like it and I would rather just say hi or bye.
- I don't like hugging up during sex, just penetration (doggy style) is all I want. My expression is still: =| (Yes, I have actually had sex, which is quite surprising.)
- After sex, I HATE being touched. I hate cuddling, kissing, or anything after I orgasm. I am absolutely serious when I say that I just want to leave and never see her again until I want sex.
- When people touch my hands during training, there's always a strange sexual connotation to it in my mind.
- I am extremely stoic when it comes to fighting. People have punched me dead in the face with not a single flinch from me. I don't even have that stone-faced angry look, I'm just like a statue. I don't feel much unless you hit the right spots (like my trainer did when showing me how to knee people. ouch.)
My mother told me repeatedly that I never liked to be breastfed or held as a child, that I always turned away. She told me she just gave up and fed me from the bottle or left me in my crib.
When I was young, I didn't playfight much. Didn't hug much either. Nobody really got physical with me except for real fighting, and sex (when I got older).
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Last edited by Akridrot on May-20-2008 at 03:07
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