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MissK
Supreme tranceaddict

Registered: Apr 2005
Location: Bongo Bay
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Nov-17-2008 15:43
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jon jon
viva la clubland

Registered: Jan 2001
Location: Footwork
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Nov-17-2008 17:28
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jon jon
viva la clubland

Registered: Jan 2001
Location: Footwork
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Nov-17-2008 17:34
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YouReadyB
Supreme tranceaddict

Registered: Sep 2005
Location: Toronto
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-=- Dance 2 Da Beat Weekend -=-
In the past, I have heavily believed in promoting D2DB the night before. Going out to a few clubs, passing the flyers out, getting some last minute people to show up. I asked YM ladies and Lyle to spread the word as I wanted a nice relaxing night home with Mils.
So, as the g33ks that we are, (proud ones at that) me and Millers chilled on the couch and caught up on some weekly shows. Once a week, we watch usually in the same pattern of Movie Network (On Demand)
*Californiacation
*Entourage
*Life and Times of Tim (Although Mils usually "showers" or "cleans" dishes when it's on, I'm pretty sure she doesn't like it)
*Dexter
It was suppose to be just a total chill out before a VERY hectic day. However, it wasn't. If anyone watches Dexter, the last episode was something that hit so close to home, WAY to close.. and no, I never poisoned anyone's key lime pie. On the eve of the fifth installment of an event I devoted to my mother, I relived my most painful memory about her.
In this episode, one of Dexter's friends, a lady who had seen him grow up as a child, was dying of cancer. She was in a palliative care unit, basically, the floor known (as I was told when my mom was dying) as the "death floor". That's really ummm... uplifting. The similarities were mind blowing... it started with a lost of appetite, followed by emotional outbursts, be it crying or anger... followed by a gasping of air when speaking which, is quite possibly the most hurtful sound I ever heard.
I re-lived each moment of the episode, remembering the situations coming up with my mom. I then remember my mom asking to die, asking the pain to stop...
I can remember her begging "please stop, god.... please please please" in this faint, heavy french accented painful wimper that will never leave me to this day.
The thought of it, and typing it out right now just made my eyes watery.
During the episode, the lady asked Dexter to help her stop the pain, to send her to a better place. I was literally sitting at the television, tears streaming from my face... half in having relived the most painful experience of my life, the other, the coincidence of it all.
I turned to look at Milena... who, never had seen me cry in the first 9 months of this relationship, and said "Wow, that was fucked up."
Emotions got turning... really got me super hyped up for this event, it's that JOLT of energy, that JOLT of adrenaline going into the event that I needed.
After getting some reassurance from Nathan and Jon Jon through about 8-10 texts/msn convos, I went to bed early (I think like 11pm, who DOES that?) on a Friday.
To Be Continued....
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Nov-17-2008 17:57
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