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| quote: | Originally posted by Richard Butler
My thought on this is that EVERY Human endeavour has a 1 step at a time process. It's about making sure each tiny step no matter how small, is fit for the process.
What I notice is people rush things, but there is no reason. Even a simple closed hat needs care and love and time.
I find myself rushing each step and have to stop and remind myself to slow down.
Even something like the wrong reverb tweak can and does make a big difference. People say the public don't notice, but this is absolutley wrong. People know quality - they can spot the quality of an Audi just by it's lights. They may not know why the lights seem better, but none the less they still sense overall quality sign posts.
Shit man you probably know all this, sorry.
Thing is you sound like someone that no matter what hobby you do, you will still want to be the best, so the frustration may not end with ebaying the music hardware, |
I just got ass raped at my 2nd dayjob for working on a project for over a year. Why? (aside that it's a 2nd day job and I'm kind of free to do as I please).. is insane amount of detail I put into every singe thing I do.
I'm a fucking perfectionist and it's killing me in everything - be it work, painting walls, or even personal relationships. Yet, I'm far from perfect. I can spend hours making visio diagram perfect.
However, had an epiphany some time ago. My boss yelled at me and said: fuck this perfection, I just want a god damn diagram. Grab a piece of paper, draw it out by hand and hand it over, I'll make it a visio.
Took me 10 minutes. I then took diagram and made a sloppy rendition of it in visio, focusing more on "blocks" approach, rather than perfect fitting of the line to the middle of the drawing object. Guess what - reaction was the same.
Sure, I get compliments at the level of detail that goes into my work by my peers but the "consumers" of my work - hardly give a shit.
I once spent 8 hours making a noise-based percussion just the way I wanted it. Got it down pat. Did it get used anywhere? Noooooo.
It took me over 40 hours to re-create percussive melody in The Quest - C# and it sounds JUST LIKE original, note by note. But it will never see the light of day. I get side-tracked on other things, losing interest. that's why I have hundreds of individual ideas, semi-finished work, or just long-winded musings, many created in semi-sober states. Did it result in anything that can be considered a "completed work", for whatever that means? noooooooooooo....
It's fucking frustrating but I can't focus. Right now, I should be working. since 11AM (it's now 4:20pm ha!!!!) I've been wasting time instead of working. That should give you an idea why music became yet another jail cell I stick myself into every once in a while.
I guess I should go do some work, right? 
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