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Originally posted by Silky Johnson ...break you down psychologically so you become dependent on them. Good thing you were aware of it and got out!

Totally. Funny thing is, I even knew that it was brainwashing and how it happened - I related to some friends that it happened because I basically gave up my will to them.

Interesting thing is, I still have some occasional breathing problems, and when I feel like I'm reverting to this brainwashed state occasionally (may take some time to fully readjust, which is fine by me, as long as I never relapse again, G-d willing) or "giving up" my will to someone else, so to speak, it's hard for me to take deep breaths during those times. When I'm acting "normal," I breathe normally, so I feel kinda guided, which I'm very thankful for. I also notice when I give up my will or am kinda losing touch with reality, so to speak, everything gets very bright and artificial-looking to my vision lol (sounds kinda nuts, perhaps).

But yeah, this brainwashing business is totally fucked, and it's happened to me two times lol - first time was by an extremely manipulative acting teacher. So yeah, had to go through some fucked situtations to finally realize I gotta cut the crap and really get moving with my life, lol.

I find it all very fascinating. I've read all up on MK Ultra and shit's cray.

Shit's very cray, and dangerous, too. Recently watched a recent HBO documentary on Scientology, which is absolutely nuts. Very good documentary, btw:



If anyone's seen the movie Whiplash, btw, that was basically my former acting teacher right there.

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Originally posted by AlphaStarred lol, nah. But yeah, it was a Messianic cult. I felt something very fishy about it as soon as I arrived, but went against my intuition and stayed there for about a month, had a severe anxiety attack or something, and kinda went nuts lol. Not totally nuts, as I never got violent or psychotic or anything, but more like severe social anxiety-nuts, don't-know-wtf-is wrong-with-me nuts. I've actually seen other people from this cult that also got fucked, so I do believe there's definitely brainwashing involved, and I'm happy I gtfo of there when I did. I was also warned by other rabbis not to go there, and what might happen, but I guess I had to learn the hard way. I like to think of it as a blessing in disguise, however, as it did make me more sensitive and open to life again, after living for some years emotionally numbing myself and not giving a fuck about anything, prior. So yeah, G-d willing all this will enable me to be a better person and finally choose on a career path and get on with my life, instead of just jumping around from one place/thing to another.

Sweet! Now go home and get your fuckin shine box

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Originally posted by Vivid Boy Sweet! Now go home and get your fuckin shine box

LOL

Hilarious, every time. I just watched it the other day, in fact. In my top 10 for sure.

HAHAHA

I watch that movie 10 times a year and it never ever gets old lol

Fuck top 10. That shit is top 5, son.

It's like the Friday of Mafia movies.

Hmmmmm..... somehow I feel as if this thread was directed towards me. And if so, I take offense to that!

BTW, where the hell are all the trance girls at? I swear this site was poppin' back then about 10 years ago. I guess the world is a sheep, and people have hopped onto another bandwagon.

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Originally posted by OrangestO Fuck top 10. That shit is top 5, son. It's like the Friday of Mafia movies.

Honestly, I was gonna say top 5, but thought it might be hasty cause I've never really consciously thought about a top 5.

I love it! Everything from the script to the cast - outstanding. Better than The Godfather.

A lot of those same actors went on to act in The Sopranos, too. Funny.

Dr. Melfi!!!!

Oh yeah, and Christufuh (lol) gets shot in the foot!

I know every line of dialogue. Prob watched it more than any other movie. Prob the hundredth time I've said that.