Wow...this is hard to believe. Couple years back I used to chat with him on MSN.

I hope its a peaceful place out there DA...you will be missed.

RIP

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Originally posted by twilightki : It feels like something you'd listen to at 4 in the morning, or listen to in your car while you're going in a tunnel.

It is comforting to know that Raul did not hold grudges....thank you Jonsun for telling me that. I really thought he hated me until his last day...but he was a forgiving guy...that makes me feel so much better. He will forever remain in my heart and memory.....I will never forget all those times I hung out with him....it was an every weekend thing....but I always had a blast with him....and those FLTA parties I went to and him playing his lil trance sets lol. And him listening to his laptop whenever house music would play.....and going to see pvd for the first time...he hated the set and left but since he was my ride he slept in his car and waited for me until pvd's set was over....all those little things he did I will forever be in debt....his friends really were everything to him.

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Originally posted by AustralianGQ im a failure with females...i will be the real 40 year old virgin i guarentee you

It probably seems cliché to say someone was a good person after they die, but that is the honest truth about DA. It really is. He had his personal demons, as a lot of us do, but none of that ever took away from how he treated his friends and those close to him. He was a generous person. One who wouldn't hesitate to take the shirt off his back for those he loved.

And that alone speaks volumes.

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Originally posted by Renzo It probably seems cliché to say someone was a good person after they die, but that is the honest truth about DA. It really is. He had his personal demons, as a lot of us do, but none of that ever took away from how he treated his friends and those close to him. He was a generous person. One who wouldn't hesitate to take the shirt off his back for those he loved. And that alone speaks volumes.

Love it.

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Originally posted by MeLLyMeL For christs sake SHUT THE FUK UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! When was the last fuking time you talked to him? You too Rose. Stop talking about DA like that when you don't fuking KNOW what he was GOING THROUGH and you can't go solely based on his HISTORY. That is not the evidence they fuking want you dip shit. Ingrid - I think it's best if you keep that stuff in FLTA ONLY. that fuking bullshit u are posting about him being addicted to vicodin deserves a slap across the face. Don't you dare talk about him when you don't even fuking know that he kicked that fuking habit already. and Rose, you are posting far too much informatio for your well being. So I suggest you keep it to happy memories and not your opinion of his choices that he made.

I was talking to DA not too long ago (probably a month or so?) and he was still taking vicodin according to our conversation. I realize you're rattled about the whole thing, but I sincerely was making the suggestion to protect his family, not to be upsetting.

Raul used to confide in me often believe it or not. I have been friends with him for a long time, we partied together in Ontario, and I called the police and sent them to his house once when he threatened to commit suicide several years ago. So perhaps you were closest with him, but it doesn't mean that other people here didn't have a strong relationship with him as well.

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Originally posted by get nyce Melly, calm down hun no need to pay mind to the retards. Theresa poor form, you're really discrediting yourself. i always respected you a tiny bit for being bold and outspoken but sometimes you misunderstand things and respond to them inappropriately. I'm not one to judge I have my own faults but there's a line when speaking your mind publicly, I just think you happen to do it at the wrong times. I remember DA for the fun person I knew him on here, that memory will remain strong for each individual i've dialoged with. At times we joke and are carefree, we just need to know how valuable it is to be here and to appreciate it through times when we're cloudy. I believe DA is in a much better place now, it's obvious he has a legacy here so for those who were fortunate to have interacted with him in this lifetime, let's remember the good times.

You should consider that I am really upset about the whole thing too. Sorry if I didn't come across as politically correct as perhaps I should have, but I was being sincere.

If someone in my family committed suicide, I don't think reading the things he had written about how he was unhappy would make me feel any better. I think it would just make it worse.

you are such a fuking idiot. really.

lol.

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Originally posted by MeLLyMeL you are such a fuking idiot. really. lol.

You know what Mel, I recognize that you are hurting and upset and I am trying my best to be sensitive to that. With that being said, you certainly are being selfish and worrying more about yourself and not even considering that there are other people this has affected. You weren't his only friend and you aren't the only one hurting. Do you think maybe you could extend the same courtesy that people are trying to give you?

Not to mention that I highly doubt Raul would have appreciated his friends arguing, or people getting upset when they are trying to be helpful, whether you think it is or not.

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Originally posted by Theresa You know what Mel, I recognize that you are hurting and upset and I am trying my best to be sensitive to that. With that being said, you certainly are being selfish and worrying more about yourself and not even considering that there are other people this has affected. You weren't his only friend and you aren't the only one hurting. Do you think maybe you could extend the same courtesy that people are trying to give you? Not to mention that I highly doubt Raul would have appreciated his friends arguing, or people getting upset when they are trying to be helpful, whether you think it is or not.

You are talking a load of shit though.

I know other people are effected but seriously... I for one love him and will not put any of his business out there like you and Rose have. Especially when you bring up the fuking past.

So congrats on that. Kudos for being such a great friend to him. Some things shouldn't be announced to the whole fuking world when someone has passed.

Keep this Mother Theresa act going. It's quite funny. I assume you know more than his family. So you are right maybe his family should listen to you oh saint theresa.

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your 2 cents on his life are not wanted.

what's done is done. not 1 person on flta has brought up his choices in life and they knew him alot too. I wish people would just stop bringing up something you don't fully understand. Cuz none of us do.

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Originally posted by MeLLyMeL You are talking a load of shit though. I know other people are effected but seriously... I for one love him and will not put any of his business out there like you and Rose have. Especially when you bring up the fuking past. So congrats on that. Kudos for being such a great friend to him. Some things shouldn't be announced to the whole fuking world when someone has passed. Keep this Mother Theresa act going. It's quite funny. I assume you know more than his family. So you are right maybe his family should listen to you oh saint theresa.

Most of things I have mentioned are public TA knowledge. Not to mention that the personal details that explain why he committed suicide help people cope with the loss. Otherwise people are left asking "what happened" over and over again and they don't get closure. Sure, not everyone here really needs that, but I am not going to PM every single person who was close to him, because not surprisingly, there were a lot. Raul was quite comfortable being open about his life on here so I didn't feel that there was any need to tippy toe around things that he would have probably told everyone himself. I'm sorry if you that bothers you (and I mean that... once again, I am not here trying to upset you or anyone else).

Also, I am not saying I know more than his family - that's ridiculous. I am saying that his family is probably emotionally distraught and probably don't need to be shown the upsetting things that Raul said about his unhappiness. I don't see what is so absurd about that.

Anyway, obviously we're both emotionally charged about this and so I am just going to let it go.

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Originally posted by Theresa Most of things I have mentioned are public TA knowledge. Not to mention that the personal details that explain why he committed suicide help people cope with the loss. Otherwise people are left asking "what happened" over and over again and they don't get closure.

ok. Maybe you should tell his family then because I don't think anyone else knows why he did this.

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I know you'll always be
Near to me
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