i feel so dumb and terrible that i couldn't remember i saw DA a month ago before he killed himself

a month and 2 days

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Originally posted by tubularbills yeah dude...like from 2 years ago i think...i was living just north of him; but never got a chance to meet him.

you mean guster? If so, I was talking to him on here like a couple of days prior. It was shocking also.

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Originally posted by AustralianGQ im a failure with females...i will be the real 40 year old virgin i guarentee you

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Originally posted by MeLLyMeL Love you. I'm just really weirded out because the last time we all saw him together was at the BBQ and Wagner's mom had passed. I remember crying right there when I found out. Now DA is gone. Your mother earlier in the year.... you are strong woman. Muc respect to you.

TRUST ME Wagner and I mentioned that last night!!!

Hence why I have the 3 Dates on my Sig.

It has been a VERY ROUGH Year for Me and My Family! So I know EXACTLY how DA's Family is feeling and going through right now. And what they are going to continue to go through for days, weeks, months and years to come. Cause even though it has been 6 months since my Mother's Passing, I still do not allow myself to believe it. The day I enrolled in School this week, I had such a HUGE URGE to pick up the phone and call her, but I couldn't and it's moments like those that hit me and make me realize little by little that it's True.

Strength and Tears have gotten me through, but my tears seemed to have come to an end. Cause as much as I would like to Mourn my Mother they do not come out, all I get is a pain in my stomach and chest from the pain I feel and cannot express. Yesterday when I heard the news I broke down, but then I stopped and have not shed another Tear even though I am Broken Hearted. I sometimes feel guilty cause I feel as if I should be mourning more than I am, but I guess my Conscience is clean and that is why there is no more need for me to Grieve my Mother. I think it happens to all of us, cause I have seen the same pattern in Wagner.

But THANK YOU Meli for your Sentiments!!!

LOVE YOU GIRL, XOXOXO

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Originally posted by Ian you mean guster? If so, I was talking to him on here like a couple of days prior. It was shocking also.

yup, that was the guy

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Originally posted by MeLLyMeL you are such a fuking idiot. really. lol.

tranceaddict poster know-it-all girl. people like her are the reason why i almost never post and why i wouldnt touch cor with a 10 foot pole.

but ill make this one exeption for DA.

rest in peace good buddy !!

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Just read about this.. RIP DA.

We did talk before, I think it was a about a pic of him with Melly.

I saved this one pic on my personal computer, I dont remember the reason, prolly liked the hug and thought it was a beautiful pic:




And they say that every person who commits suicide leaves three dead lives behind him/her.

Purple.

Whatever drugs he decided to do have nothing to do with the person he was. Most of us have fuking done drugs, come the fuk on. Doesn't make or break us.

His use of "vicky" was there but that doesn't have anything to do with what happened. Sometimes those drugs numbed his pain.

Raul had personal issues he struggled with...he hurt about many things he only shared with very selected few. I am thankful he considered me one of his best friends and asked for my advice. I know a lot of things about him that give me insight as to why he felt the way he felt. I tried to help him, I tried to help him see the wonderful person he was...sadly, he was beyond anyone's help.

I was there when the OLD Raul was being reckless and he changed a lot after we all called him out on shit. Perhaps after he masked his feelings but he seemed much different, happier even.

I'm going through guilt because I wish I could have done more. So many things run through my mind and it hurts so much.

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In memory of DarkAngel 1976 - 2009

i've been on a self-imposed TA ban since before Thanksgiving, but when i got news of this via phone last night, i knew i had to come here to share my condolences.

i will always remember Raul as someone who was never afraid to be himself who brought a lot of warmth into peoples hearts. even though i never got to know him as well as some of you did, i've been posting here long enough to know what a great person he was and how important he was to those who were close to him.

RIP

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R.I.P DA.

Just thought I'd pop in and have a quick browse, and seen this ...

Pretty shocking news.

I said the same thing Renzo said (in the FL thread), and I didn't post anything until after I read Renzo's post.

This just reaffirms how good of a guy he was.

RIP

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said a few words in the FL thread and NY, but i'll share my condolences here as well.

although having never met him personally and only seeing his posts on here, from all the responses you can see he was definitely a great guy.

RIP Raul.

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