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Originally posted by Rose Weird you post that Lira....he favorited that video on his youtube recently I believe (youtube isn't showing the date favorited it but I think it may have been recent) he also favorited "In the End" :-/ listening to lyrics in that song...was that what he was feeling? We'll never know. Always pay attention to the music people here and pay attention to the lyrics because that MAY be what they are feeling..I do not know for sure but I am just putting this out there.

I don't think that'd be a good idea, Rose. Keep in mind that if you look for a "hidden meaning" behind anything written by Linkin Park you're probably going to end up with a dozen possible explanations: pretty much anything angsty fits their lyrics, that's why they're so popular to begin with.

If you don't mind me being nosey, try to think of how good a person he was, and just leave the bad stuff behind. Why dwell on it? Do you think he'd want you to mope around having sad thoughts in your mind?

Yeah, I thought as much

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lmao @ Linkin Park...bunch of white kids acting like they're living the holocaust...

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Originally posted by ******** Seplling don't demonstrate intelligence and educatoin - knowing does.

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Originally posted by Jlo Just read about this.. RIP DA. We did talk before, I think it was a about a pic of him with Melly. I saved this one pic on my personal computer, I dont remember the reason, prolly liked the hug and thought it was a beautiful pic: And they say that every person who commits suicide leaves three dead lives behind him/her. Purple.

omfg.

thank you so much. I do not have that picture

Thank you <3

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Originally posted by FallingMoon Whatever drugs he decided to do have nothing to do with the person he was. Most of us have fuking done drugs, come the fuk on. Doesn't make or break us. His use of "vicky" was there but that doesn't have anything to do with what happened. Sometimes those drugs numbed his pain. Raul had personal issues he struggled with...he hurt about many things he only shared with very selected few. I am thankful he considered me one of his best friends and asked for my advice. I know a lot of things about him that give me insight as to why he felt the way he felt. I tried to help him, I tried to help him see the wonderful person he was...sadly, he was beyond anyone's help. I was there when the OLD Raul was being reckless and he changed a lot after we all called him out on shit. Perhaps after he masked his feelings but he seemed much different, happier even. I'm going through guilt because I wish I could have done more. So many things run through my mind and it hurts so much.

I know Lis.

How many memories do we have together? It's so sad.

It's just sad that there could have been more. I love you and can't wait to see you tomorrow. Even though it's for such a sad reason.

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Originally posted by LaMiLf TRUST ME Wagner and I mentioned that last night!!! Hence why I have the 3 Dates on my Sig. It has been a VERY ROUGH Year for Me and My Family! So I know EXACTLY how DA's Family is feeling and going through right now. And what they are going to continue to go through for days, weeks, months and years to come. Cause even though it has been 6 months since my Mother's Passing, I still do not allow myself to believe it. The day I enrolled in School this week, I had such a HUGE URGE to pick up the phone and call her, but I couldn't and it's moments like those that hit me and make me realize little by little that it's True. Strength and Tears have gotten me through, but my tears seemed to have come to an end. Cause as much as I would like to Mourn my Mother they do not come out, all I get is a pain in my stomach and chest from the pain I feel and cannot express. Yesterday when I heard the news I broke down, but then I stopped and have not shed another Tear even though I am Broken Hearted. I sometimes feel guilty cause I feel as if I should be mourning more than I am, but I guess my Conscience is clean and that is why there is no more need for me to Grieve my Mother. I think it happens to all of us, cause I have seen the same pattern in Wagner. But THANK YOU Meli for your Sentiments!!! LOVE YOU GIRL, XOXOXO

it's ok.

I go through moments where I can think of him and be fine and talk normal....

then I go through periods where I think of him and can't stop crying.

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Some of you bitches like Rose & Theresa are so self-obsessed and delusional that you don't even realize how dumb you come off. Sorry for your loss Mel, I remember how close you guys were when he was a regular poster from '03 to '07. Even though I didn't know him personally , I had a taste of what it's like when you're fighting off your personal demons, I had a close friend back in '05 who commited suicide and to this day no one really knows why.

I know deep inside there is that part of you that asks "why? why the fuck would you do something like that and not reach out? it's mixed feelings of anger, regret and a sharp pain that shakes your whole inner being that can only be brought out from death of someone close.

R.I.P.

I would suggest that you leave the heavy discussions until you've all calmed down a bit as you're all far too emotional, but you're probably not going to listen anyway. Forums are a bad thing when it comes to death.

Always sad to hear someone passing away, especially through suicide

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Originally posted by Dj Skez Some of you bitches like Rose & Theresa are so self-obsessed and delusional that you don't even realize how dumb you come off. Sorry for your loss Mel, I remember how close you guys were when he was a regular poster from '03 to '07. Even though I didn't know him personally , I had a taste of what it's like when you're fighting off your personal demons, I had a close friend back in '05 who commited suicide and to this day no one really knows why. I know deep inside there is that part of you that asks "why? why the fuck would you do something like that and not reach out? it's mixed feelings of anger, regret and a sharp pain that shakes your whole inner being that can only be brought out from death of someone close. R.I.P.

It's cool. Don't worry about them. Rose is cool too.

This is tough. it really is. I'm not one who has dealt with death - I know it's never easy, but only my grandfather has passed away and that was 4 years ago.

It's the 2nd loss I have to deal with and it's hard. Very hard sometimes.

It's definitely mixed feelings. I was questioning my friendship to him. Silly thing I know, but once I pulled up his bday thread from 2 months ago, I realized that he still loved me. (quote in my sig)

It's not that I doubted him - it's just... I won't be able to hear him call me his lil sis anymore... or call me to hang out... so I was questioning alot of things. Not only me..... alot of us who talk question ourselves.

I guess it's just part of the grieving process.

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trust DA to find a hack to get to the final level.

Pretty sure he found out it doesn't stop and there's a whole fucking inverted castle to do now.

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Originally posted by Halcyon+On+On Pretty sure he found out it doesn't stop and there's a whole fucking inverted castle to do now.

honestly and people don't hate me for saying this but when you fuck up they just send you back to repeat your mistakes ad infinitum....

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