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| quote: | Originally posted by Subey
See that wink! Lira is crying out for help. This entire thread is a subterfuge.
If you need a reason to live, then i'll give you one. Stay alive at least long enough to see Italy smite Brazil in the World Cup Finals, and then you can get drunk and pass out in the streets of Brasilia mumbing "if only Ronaldo wasn't so fat we woulda won" |
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| quote: | Originally posted by KilldaDJ
so what changed ur mind about topping urself then?
if i got as far as writing the notes, id probably execute my plan pretty soon after i wrote them, otherwise why bother write the notes? |
| quote: | Originally posted by Floorfiller
something i've never understood about suicide in general is why people even resort to it in the first place?
i mean...i would just assume most of the time it's because of depression or whatever right? well i think mood comes from the situation you are in in life. if you're not happy with your situation...wouldn't you rather try to improve your situation then kill yourself?
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Since the questions are related, I'm going to answer them together.
Since my early teens, I was rather hopeless about life in general: because of my contrasting point of view about religion (when compared to that of my peers') and a really naive sense of honesty (thanks to my sheltered life), I had loads of problems at school, and as I grew up and sorted things out at school, I started having problems within my family (mostly with my mother). Not to mention that, when I turned 17, I became infatuated with a suicidal girl, and there had been a "suicide wave" in Brasília. But... I didn't kill myself.
Before killing myself, I decided that I'd first try to escape from the situation (the obvious  ), and I'd do that leaving the country. I then chose to graduate in Foreign Affairs, but ended up being dragged by my love for the academic field, and drifted to Japanese Language and Culture once I heard about how the Japanese embassy used to give scholarships to the best students (to the point I was the best ranked student in the entrancy tests, and had two very good chances to go to Japan so far).
From this point on, loads of good things happened to me: I made real friends (not suicidal ones this time, and not related to the university life), and I fit perfectly into university, as I'm usually very good friends with the professors.
Suicide seems to have a great social stigma though, and I must admit I don't understand that, but that should be material for a whole new thread 
edit: Here, this movie reminded me a lot to my mindset back in my teens and suicide. Once you get past the "shock" and try to understand their behaviour (and ignore Marylin Mansons role in the film  ), you can pretty much "live" the situation.
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