I don't know what it is like to have those words confirmed... but I distinctively remember the moment when I was told "You might have cancer". I felt sick to my stomach, and I was literally making myself ill over the worry and stress from it. I was hospitalized multiple times within weeks of hearing those words.

Finally, I came to a point where I realized that worrying, stressing and being upset about it was not going to change anything. If anything, it was going to make my health worse, and would certainly tarnish the quality of life I had left.

Although I am pretty positive my surgery led them to negative results, I don't "officially" find out until June 4th.

However, I have come to realize that life is short, as you said, and it truly matters how you live day to day. When you are breathing your last breaths, the only thing that will matter to you is how you lived your life, and treated those you loved.

This is the perfect time for you to not focus on the tests, surgeries and chemo, but instead, focus on making the absolute most out of your time. Be with the people you love, and make sure that they know you love them. Laugh, smile and have fun.

I know it can be hard when you are feeling like crap... and I absolutely know how hard it can be to keep your head up when all you want to do is break down and sob. It's ok to break down, but don't forget to pick yourself up and keep on truckin'.

They say that the quality of life you lead when diagnosed with this type of illness can directly affect the way you respond to treatments... people who are happy and positive are more likely to have better results. Keep that in mind.

I hope that all goes well for you. I wish you the best of luck and pray that you recover, or at the very least, enjoyed the life you've lived.

((((((((((Massively Huge Hugs))))))))))))))

I anticipate that cancer will be the death of me.....its a scary thought but I am convinced that is the way it will end for me...either that or a heart attack.....and probably before I am 55.

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I'm a bit at loss as to what to say but I know you will beat this thing - as Vivid boy pointed out, if you can deal with some of the toxicity here, you can deal with anything.


Srsly though - I hope you can look back at this moment and say that this was a trying moment in your life but you got past it. Believe in yourself, believe in cure, believe in what's best in this world. May the force be with you. Stay strong and never give up!

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Wow, sorry to hear all of this, but you're a strong girl and i know you'll pull through.. maybe we need to get an oldskool TA poker match goin on its been toooooooo long lol. that would cheer yah up

I really don't know you beyond the last few years here on TA, but I know that you're stubborn enough not to put up with much shit, so even with the little I do know of you, I feel confident you're one of the last people who would ever take this as "the end of the world" (as you've already made abundantly clear).

Try to stay positive, don't worry about coming to c0r to talk/discuss what's going on if you need to, and remember that beyond your friends, family, and all the people in the real world who are close to you, there are a bunch of us who've never even met you that really just want you to feel better.

Good luck - I'm sure you'll see your way through this and be a much stronger person for it.

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Wow girly, it'll be okay I'm sure. Just make sure you do everything the doctors tell you.



Good luck!

Big hugs and lots of love and support to you Sara. Stay strong...you'll come out of this on top.

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LoL @ your sig. I don't remember saying that.

all the best to you.

stay strong and fight hard.

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keep your chin up sara,
wish you all the best for your treatment

Delicate little creatures.

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sorry to ask again, but what kind of cancer? cervical? what organs did it spread to?

Jesus, how horrible at such a young age. if all else, try to enjoy the next few years...go out and do shit you've always wanted to do.

i don't know how you are about treaments, drugs, etc... but i know if i was in your situation, i would be like, "give me all the shit you got to kill this disease". radiation, chemo, pills, whatever it would take. some people opt for the other alternatives (praying, wholistic medicine, not doing anything, etc...)...but i say, when its your own body and there are sure-fire ways to go about fixing it, i'd take it.

best of luck and hope

-will

sorry to hear the bad news sara.. my sister had cancer when she was 4 through 6 and made it through... its beatable, but such a culture shock... keep your head up.. if you want it to be bad, it'll be bad but if you go with the flow and just be ok with it... then no worries..

.. i wish you well

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