any death bed pixxx?

lol @ elfreak.

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the only thing to say is that time definitely heals all wounds. don't bottle up that shit, it will eat you up inside. It's better to let it out now so it doesn't haunt you. I spent my childhood grieving and now i'm fine. on the other hand, my mother didn't grieve at all and she still isn't over his death (14 year later).

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Originally posted by Echo of Silence Yeah, it would probably be wonderful if all who grieve could go there...one is just surrounded by beauty, raw and rugged mountain peaks, meadows filled with such greenery, delicate flowers and then, such pure purple, emerald, blue (turquoise!) lakes, and all life (vegetation) is so fragile and cherished, maybe it is a land that just constantly reminds you of the glory of God and you feel so close to heaven to touching someone who is suddenly no longer on earth, or for those who don't believe in a God, of the glory of nature, the magic of it all. It is a healthy life because you walk, run and ski every where you want to go. I had a class at the community center where I taught children to speak danish and english. You don't have a lot, like no internet, no electronics, the library is mobile and comes by once a month but simplicity is oftentimes so much better than complexity, I imagine. I am going to make a quilt for my grandmother of the pattern of the first flower that blooms there. Okay, okay, tmi. Sorry.

yeah, Greenland is a place i would love to kick it for a while, maybe my whole life if i could. But I thought Nuuk was high tech with the basic internet and phone and shit. the people there from a report i saw seemed very westernized, nice boats and new guns and shit, they have a high gdp per capita dont they?


I lost someone this june to alcohol + opiate combo in his mid twenties. At first i kind of brushed it off(i saw it coming) but i decided to do mushrooms after his funeral which was the worst trip of my life.

He had come to terms with his alcoholism and he was jolly in his last weeks. I try to focus on this. It was harder to talk to his parents at the funeral, it came as a shock as you could imagine...they were fucking mortified.

his last few weeks came at a time where my life was going great, and the second half of this year has been pretty shit for me, so thinking back of those good times always puts me in a good place.

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Originally posted by pkcRAISTLIN lol @ elfreak.

+1 moreso at the fact that the chicken shit had to delete his comment. what a fucktard.

anyway, i lost my father a few years back and i didn't grieve right away, there are still moments today (7 years later) that i will suddenly get sad and miss him like crazy...my situation was a lil fucked up because right after he died someone had to step up and support the family financially and so i had to do that right away and ignore my emotions for a while...it wasn't until several years after that i started to actually address my sadness and how much i missed him on occasion with my family (mom, sisters)...I wouldn't want them to see how sad I would be because I thought I should be strong and any sign of weakness would trigger their sadness and depression but after a while i realized that it's good to be sad and cry together because if i only show that emotion to a girlfriend, it distanced me with my family.

there will be times where you just want to be alone and deal with your loss and you should definitely do that, but also don't forget your other family members who are also grieving in their own way and try to do it together...it will bring you closer to the rest of your family (hopefully).

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Originally posted by Cloudburst May -> December = 2 months ?

yeah she died in may. but only the past two months have i started to notice things in me changing... so please read what i said proper and try understand where im coming from.if you have nothing decent to say please dont post..

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Originally posted by Halcyon+On+On Please, guys, don't spill your hearts out into a troll thread.

no this is not a troll thread ok.i did loose my ma to cancer in may on the 26th sunday nite monday morning...

now please fuck off with them comments to another thread

its realy nice reading all the comments people left.does help in a way to try get over loosing my ma so sudden.she was never sick in her life and then she was told she had cancer one day in the lung.life just changed so much after that news we got

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Originally posted by JOE-SCULLY now please fuck off with them comments to another thread

You do realise your a retard right.

I can tell, you clearly just got it up the butt but your boyfriend left you so now your pissed.

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Originally posted by Darkarbiter You do realise your a retard right. I can tell, you clearly just got it up the butt but your boyfriend left you so now your pissed.

please dont turn this thread in a disaster. yes i am a retard,you happy now!

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Originally posted by DJ Damerchi ... so thinking back of those good times always puts me in a good place.

I'm not sure how this happens (do we force it to happen inside ourselves or does it happen on its own) but eventually, you kind of move away from the "death" and back to cherishing good memories, I think. Think would she want you to hurt so much or to celebrate the love and smiles she brought to your life for so many years. Maybe you can integrate pieces of her into your life, like if she loved flowers, you can plant flowers in the spring...If she liked music, you can play her music occasionally to remember her.

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Originally posted by DJ Damerchi yeah, Greenland is a place i would love to kick it for a while, maybe my whole life if i could. But I thought Nuuk was high tech with the basic internet and phone and shit. the people there from a report i saw seemed very westernized, nice boats and new guns and shit, they have a high gdp per capita dont they?

Yes, I should have specified that I was describing what it was like for me at the home of my uncle which is probably very different from most homes/lives in and around Nuuk.

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Originally posted by Darkarbiter You do realise your a retard right. I can tell, you clearly just got it up the butt but your boyfriend left you so now your pissed.

And now there are two.

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