in the shittiest of situations laughter trumps masturbation.

hardmode: laughing while masturbating

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Klangkarussell - Sternenkinder

crying is funnier.

if it's funny enough you can laugh about it, thus nightmare mode: crying and laughing while masturbating. it's like a kinder egg

anyway, a breakup and then your father dies. that's rough man, sorry to hear.

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Klangkarussell - Sternenkinder

you have no choice but to laugh, because it opens your eyes and essentially tells you you're next. nothing you can fucking do about it and i could rumble a million cliches but i'll give just one: losing a parent really to me is the first time i've learned to accept my own mortality when before i was scared shitless. grandparents, aunts, friends...people die, but when someone that made you kicks the bucket you start posting like slylee. thunderpud is paying the consequences.

After the initial shock and grief, i try and look at the positives this can bring, and you find ways to get closure. I hadn't seen my father in a few years, and was before his death thinking of getting back into contact with him, so i didn't get the closure i needed which sucked. He never even told anyone he was sick. We were all shocked...but in this shit i'll come out of it wiser with the proper funds to really start my own business and be in good shape for a little while.

Plus burn out leave means i get paid to make fun of you assholes. I think i'm on my period.

the breakup wasn't really bad because i wanted it. it still is hard to do, but it had run its course, now with the new cash influx i can get the newer model

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Originally posted by zyklon-jay got pity sex twice since then

Lies. Doesn't exist.

my father just died works in the right circumstances. some chicks have that nurse nancy complex where they want to take care of you. We aren't really into each other, the sex was more just an act of pent up hormones and opportunity i suppose.

it kind of sucks in the sense that it is akward because we're friends, have multiple friends in common in different circles so we bump into each other quite a bit. lol shame fucking. it just felt weird and disjointed and she ate my asshole.

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Originally posted by zyklon-jay I hadn't seen my father in a few years, and was before his death thinking of getting back into contact with him, so i didn't get the closure i needed which sucked.

There is no such thing as closure, Jay. And it wouldn't even be worth it if it were available.. because all it would mean is that an important part of you had gone numb. It's like "Oh how nice, I don't feel anything about him anymore". No.

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The only hard feelings should be in your pants

Its funny because you do go numb during the whole process and just go into zombie mode.You have to go to the morgue, funeral arrangements a whole bunch of shit that just drains you) It doesn't quite sink in until later. Then again i was
on enough benzos to kill a large animal.

Xanax got me through my Grandfather's passing last year. I found the program from his memorial service the other day when I was cleaning my apt with my girlfriend and cried like a baby. It was the first time I'd really felt sad about it in a long time.

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Originally posted by OrangestO This isn't about physics, this is about waves.

It motivated me to quit drinking...which is another good thing. Smoking cigs is next.