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you don't know real nightmares until you've had sleep paralysis/awake night terrors. I had to go with a split definition because what I've experienced is often something in between them. and fuck can it be horrifying.
you're awake, but you're not. you see and perceive things that aren't there, while your eyes are open. your brain is dreaming but your senses are just halfway in dreamland. when this goes nightmare-mode it feels like you're looking death in the eye.
when not nightmareish it's mostly just stressful. one example is when I "woke up" to believe the window facing my bed was falling down on me, I came to my "full" senses standing in my bed pressing the window with all my might. I ruined my window blinds in the process. another time I "came to" having pulled out all the light bulbs from the down lights in my room. I remember the urgency of having to do so, and doing it, but not why. I've also been sleepwalking on two occasions, while being aware of doing so, the reason being so illogical doesn't make any sense when I come to. these are often quite entertaining for my girlfriend to watch, at least after she got used to it. when she asks me questions I usually answer in sentences that doesn't make any sense to her. even when I come to my brain is usually so confused I talk like a drunk retard for a short time. we usually end up laughing about it before going back to sleep.
mild scares includes a sock on the floor all of a sudden being some kind of rodent surging towards you, a shadow/lamp/jacket being an entity in the room. I know this sounds like a childs imagination, but when in this state, your brain really believes it to be true.
full on deathscare always makes my memory of the experience vague, as if it's so traumatic my brain just don't want to or is unable to remember. these always lean more to the sleep paralysis part of my little "disorder". I haven't been diagnosed or seen a doctor about it. who needs a doctor when you have google, right?
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Klangkarussell - Sternenkinder
Last edited by Redd on Oct-15-2013 at 21:56
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